Posted by Racer on November 29, 1999, at 2:07:59
In reply to AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!, posted by AMY II on November 27, 1999, at 22:55:06
I use it to keep my kitten out of trouble...
Seriously, though, I can remember the pain and agony of weight gain from ADs, from 110 to 170 in my case, and since I used to model, too, I can relate to the perceptions that come into play when you suddenly find yourself three times your former size!
The last time I did heroin, I was up for days afterward, with hallucinations of flames shooting out of my roommate's bedroom. I got up three or four times a night to check again that it wasn't really happening. Still, I never did believe that the flames weren't there. Drugs do weird and crazy things to the brain. I know saying that I don't do them anymore is a little like saying I lock that empty barn carefully each night, but at least I no longer increase the damage I've done to myself.
You sound kinda young, Amy. Are you under 25? If so, have a little of this hope from me: it's gotten better in the last few years, overall. I'm 35 now, and other than the depression that comes and goes, feel pretty dang good - even if I am twice the size I think I am! (140# now)
Good luck to you! Rah rah sis boom bah! Amy II can do it! Yeah!
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