Posted by chy on October 4, 1999, at 18:42:15
In reply to be kind to yourself!, posted by jennyann on October 4, 1999, at 9:33:57
It mostly just startled me to realize that I was developing safety zones. I've been having problems for almost as long as I didn't; going on 15 years; and never devoloped a safety zone that wasn't a friend's house or such.
To realize that a place as public as the local mall could become a non-threat was a bit of a revelation to be second guessed because I thought I was getting better in general and I was obviously wrong.
I've actually walked the seven blocks to the mall by myself a few times in the last few months without too much trouble though I usually come up with a reason to call hubby for a ride home.
When I worked the other store last week, I didn't have any anxiety until after my shift was over.
(I'm a nutritional counselor for a sport perfomance center, bytheway)
After my shift, I thought I'd wander around until my ride arrived and ended up hiding in the bathroom for 20 minutes waiting for the meds to take affect. And damn glad there was still a few pills in the bottom of my purse cause I hadn't even thought about them in months.
The first thing I did was thought I was going backwards and called my hubby's shrink in a panic. She's the one who suggested that I had moved the mall into my safety zone.
Haven't had a problem since, so I'm suspecting she's right. Of course I hadn't had the guts to test it by going to the other mall by myself. Next week. :)
chy
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