Posted by Sean on September 9, 1999, at 19:15:42
In reply to ativan WORKS for me, posted by Amy on September 9, 1999, at 13:15:05
> I have left a few messages on here and i don't know if any body has read them because i am not sure how this site works but I am telling you that i have had the worst "anxiety" I mean really scary things. Muscle jerking and spasms, horrific nightmares, my chest literally feeling like I am on a roller coaster. I tjust flutters without me even doing anything. My vision is greatly affected. I see weird floaters when I look in the sky. sometimes is almost looks like i am watching the fuzz on a screen just in a lighter version. My head feels heavy... on the inside. It feels like my brain is swelling or something and it's affecting everything that goes on up there. I am tired frequently and I have mood swings. When this all first happened to me was in april when i took a drug called ecstacy. I am not a drug user I am a woman that has two children i own my own house and business, I am succesful. But my kids were out of town and a friend ofmine talked me into taking this shit and I have suffered ever since. No doctor can tell me what is wrong they all say I have anxiety. I have seen probably 12 doctors half of them are from the ER because I literally felt that I was goingcrazy. I never knew what that meant until it happened to me. I could look at a plain wall and it looked like i was in a tunnel that it was getting smaller and smaller. the nightmares are unbelievable. thught sthat i would NEVER in my worst nightmare ever think about. Disgusting things. It was like i couldnt help that they were in my mine and i couldn't get them out. And this is 5 months ago!!! They put me on paxil.. didn't work. put me on buspar.. didn't work. put me on celexa...didn't work. (except made me sleep my life away. and i developped a severe fever from it) A doctor at the Er gave me ativan and I took one (1 mg) OH MY GOD i said to myself the nightmare that was my life these past 5 months was gone 90 percent of my problem had disappeared in a half hour. I couldn't believei it.. I cried. I thought we finally found something that is going to work.But then I thought what if i was just masking a serious problem. maybe thats all part of anxiety I dont know. You know thinking there is always something seriosuly wrong with you. I had horrible painful chest pains that would shoot down my arm and everything. I mean i could go on and on about these symptoms that i have. But now the thing is trying to find a doctor that is going to prescribe ativan for me. I have foudn that no docotor likes prescribing it because it can be addicting.. well i don't have an addictive personality at all i am very strong in my mind.well since i have ben on the ativan. and before i took that damn ecstacy. I thought i did something to my heart. or my brain.. any info that anyone else has woudl be appreciated. Ativan did work for me though.
Wow Amy -Sounds like MDMA (or whatever you took) really
threw your system for a loop. At high or repeated
doses, MDMA (ecstacy) can cause serotonergic
damage. Bad news aside, the majority of people
I've seen on e are having a real blast. Don't
do the stuff myself after reading up on it, but
in the late 80's I had some really nice times.Ativan is addicting and this has little to do
with your personality to be honest. I have a
friend who was on xanax for several years and
it has taken 6 months, which included two siezures,
to get him off it. My advice is to use it for
enough time to feel stable in terms of the
symptoms (which I can relate to totally by the
way - they suck!) and then back off for a few
days. That is the approach I use with xanax and
it seems to be a good long term solution.I agree with you that the benzodiazepenes are
really the best solution for acute anxiety. Glad
you found something that gives you relief. I
think things will get better as you "re-train"
you nervous system over time. That's how it worked for me.
Of course I couldn't blame any kind of illicit
drug for it - just my goofy brain!Best of luck,
Sean.
poster:Sean
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