Posted by Racer on August 22, 1999, at 23:47:35
In reply to In a dark, dark, dark place. Help!, posted by Dee on August 22, 1999, at 20:17:35
Dee,
I'm the other ex-speed queen who answered you above. Hang on, and here's some hope for you.
The speed and the moving kinda go together, don't you think? You've started to dig yourself out from one unhealthy way to medicate yourself, so now you're going to have to struggle with another. Wouldn't it be nice if you could take them one at a time? Still, it just doesn't often happen that life gives us what we would choose.
Today I wrecked my car. I love my car, and I was planning to spend some money on materials to do an art project after work, and just about one month ago it would have had me crying and attempting suicide. Now, though, I just said 'what a drag', did what needed to be done with the insurance company, and made arrangements with a buddy to take me into the City (an hour away) to get the art supplies mid-week and have dinner out. You know what? It's not so bad. Sure, it's a major drag to have bad things happen, but the snowball isn't growing. This is just a little knock in my life, not something to send me over the edge.
What I'm trying to say is that it will feel better, but there's some nastiness to get through first. Talk to your doctor regularly, though, because if the Serzone isn't helping, and you're feeling worse, you need to have that hope held out to you. You need to know that the doctor is going to help you, even changing meds if one doesn't work. Sure, maybe the depression will come again, but then again, maybe it won't. Don't borrow trouble, we all get enough. Meanwhile, I'm on the West Coast, in Northern California, and I'm pulling for you so hard that I'd almost bet you can feel it! C'mon, I'll be your cheerleader! And you know that I've been through my own hell, different from yours so I can't say that I know what you're feeling, but no less real to me. I'm pulling for you, and offering my own experience as hope for you.
poster:Racer
thread:10516
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