Posted by Racer on August 8, 1999, at 22:40:37
In reply to ritalin-dexetrine-adderall comparison? n 1 more ?., posted by ~anyomous~ on August 6, 1999, at 11:36:12
Oh, my! You're discussing the story of my life, fifteen years ago! I don't and didn't suffer ADHD, but I was taking copious amounts of speed, mostly to allow me to socialize, which I couldn't do any other way. The only way I could talk to anyone was to be high, higher than anyone should ever be. My judgement became impaired, I thought that it was OK for me to take the drugs because they were therapeutic, and that nothing the doctor could give me would help in any way. I also thought it was too late to fix my life.
Well, let me tell you, I was wrong on all counts. First of all, I got off the speed. That was very difficult, and it required changing all my socializing patterns. It really took a long time for me to do it completely, because it was so much of my life. Then I finally listened to what my doctor was telling me about anti-depressants, and I read up on them with an open mind for the first time. I tried them, and felt alive for the first time in years. That was about 13 years ago, and my life has improved steadily ever since, despite periodic returns of depression.
It's too bad you're anonymous, because I can feel your pain so clearly, and wish I could show you yourself from the outside. You're probably much more wonderful than you know, and much more deserving of care and comfort. We here on this board are not in your everyday life, but we can provide a bit of a mirror for you, a way for you to learn to see what others see when we look at you. It's probably better than you think now.
Good luck to you, from my heart.
poster:Racer
thread:9691
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