Posted by ~anyomous~ on August 6, 1999, at 11:36:12
I started taking ritalin pills as a trial for my adhd.
the short 3 hour ones. I am also very depressed. yet i dont tell the doctor that.
Ritalin made me feel better while i was on it. but the come down was horrible.
I have very little confidence and self-esteem...so its so hard for me to socialize with ppl. I goto a dance club once in awhile and i'm the only
one not dancing pretty much. I wanted to be really confident and social so...i started crushing up my rialin and snorting about 4 pills at a time before i go out.
I felt happy...and all my problems tempoarily went away. Yet still no luck socializing. (I dont know why i get so shy when talking to ppl)
Now my doctor gave me sustained releassed addreall. This seems so much differnt from ritalin. When itake it i kind of mellow out and i can concentrate better. I couldnt help but too snort it again...before i call a freind or go somewhere.
Yet...once again..i just kind of mellow out. I really dont plan on stoping crushing these pills right now. I have too. otherwise i just sit around my house by myself doing nothing.
I want to know if anyone has a good comparison to the 3 drugs dexetrine-ritalin-adderall.
also...i know its bad...but which one would be the most "stimulating and powerful"...if taking crushed?
I am totally aware of the effects of this...i did alot of research first. But i am so desperate...
there was a 2 week period between the time i got off ritalin and went on adderall...and i felt sick everyday...depressed...thought about killing myself...and when any little thing happend i would just start crying.
Everything i do i take to hard without these pills it seems. The girl i love so much stood me up one day...cos she couldnt go somewhere with me.
And becaues i wasent on anything...i took it as if she just stabbed me with a knife...I freaked out...and couldnt handle that sort of thing.
Also...one more thing...does anyone have any advice for me?
I have gone to a pychatrist..twice. but i just couldnt bring myself to tell him any of this.
This just seems easier for me to do.
Thanks...and sorry to make u read this whole sob story.
~me~
poster:~anyomous~
thread:9691
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