Posted by Chris on July 8, 1999, at 13:17:40
In reply to tired, posted by goel on July 8, 1999, at 0:03:20
> When is enough enough? I have reason to be very happy today. Instead I feel as lousy as I ever have. There are two reasons I haven't offed myself: 1) suicide has a toxic effect on everyone it touches (perhaps except for the one who suicides; 2) there is a God out there who has stopped me thus far. Is there any hope in this life for bipolar hell? Is it ever ok to say suicide is justified to get out of the pain and chronicity of the scenario? I try to come up with waysl that would make it easier on my family, but haven't found the perfect accident. I don't like blood, gore and drama. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. I am obsessed.
Dear Geol,
Don't give up! I know it is easier said than done but, I feel the same way you do. Except I really don't have anything to be happy about. You probably seemed trapped in a lose/lose situation with this disease and our not getting any significant relief from it. You need to try something different and get the frustration out!! I question all the time what I'm fighting for. It sounds like you need some loving support, try to find something to focus on other than this. Help is definately needed. Hang in there!
poster:Chris
thread:8416
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