Posted by goel on July 8, 1999, at 0:03:20
When is enough enough? I have reason to be very happy today. Instead I feel as lousy as I ever have. There are two reasons I haven't offed myself: 1) suicide has a toxic effect on everyone it touches (perhaps except for the one who suicides; 2) there is a God out there who has stopped me thus far. Is there any hope in this life for bipolar hell? Is it ever ok to say suicide is justified to get out of the pain and chronicity of the scenario? I try to come up with waysl that would make it easier on my family, but haven't found the perfect accident. I don't like blood, gore and drama. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. I am obsessed.
poster:goel
thread:8416
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