Posted by phyl on June 23, 1999, at 13:40:09
In reply to Re: It's got me again! - below, posted by Kate on June 23, 1999, at 4:25:13
Kate--I've gone through the updated posts on my browser and am not sure which post you are referring to. I DO appreciate the good will but truly wonder if people understand that this depression isn't something that will just go away once I exercise regularly or meditate. I do not choose to feel like this. I do not mean to snap at you. I am just frustrated at falling down that dark, scary hole of depression again. It isn't something I can WILL myself out of.
>>I also aim to manage my own "problems", some of them make me who I am, but it does cause problems with effectiveness and relationships and jobs.<<
Are you saying that by not taking pharm. meds you are able to "manage"? If only is were that simple for me! I've studied herbology (medicinal herbs, chinese and western) for five years, don't you think I've tried every resource other than pharmaceutical intervention? Acupuncture, meditation, daily cardiovascular exercise(swimming and surfing), talk therapy, etc. I am fortunate enough to live in an area of the country that has an abundance of alternative practitioners and open minded physicians willing to support mixing traditional western medicine with "alternative" medicine. Even so I am once again in that scary state of feeling like death would be a vast improvement over feeling frightened and empty inside. (don't worry, I am not suicidal! just feeling really, really despondent. I somehow know I will get through this rough patch again. I just wish that depression didn't steal so much time from my life.)
Again, I do not mean to snap. I am tired of hearing how I could make it all better if I just changed my attitude or ate better or exercised more, etc. It's a disease that sometimes requires medication, sometimes for a long time. --a very cranky phyl (insomnia again :( )
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