Posted by dove on May 6, 1999, at 15:04:05
I have had migraines and black-outs(fainting?) ever since I was a young teen. I have had suicidal thoughts since age 6, but never told anyone other than family members, who consider it normal and genetic (advice from Dad-pray more). I am now married and a mother of 5 children and was put on Verapamil about 5 months ago for migraines. I feel more 'normal' than I have ever felt in my life, but now see some of my thoughts and behaviors as a little off. I get 'hyped', go without sleep for 2-3 days, crash. I have self-medicated with alcohol and other substances since age 12. I medicate after the fact, when the darkness has already come. I stop the self-medication when I go back up and am 'hyped' again. I tried St. John's Wort and got VERY agitated, angry and suicidal. A nutritionist told me to keep at for a month. The symptoms became unbearable, constant images of violence in my head. Tried Inositol and Vit. B6 this past month and once again felt very psychotic. Agitation, anger, possible opitical illusions, depression and no ups at all.
If any one has any advice or insight, I thnak you in advance. I have told my Dr. how the Verapimil has affected me, and he is convinced that there is no connection. Also I'm losing quite a bit of hair, which is okay since I just shaved my head during a combination down-up time :-) It's very comforting to be able to actually write to someone who isn't going to write me off. Thank you for your time, I really appreciate it.
dove~
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