Posted by David K. on January 10, 1999, at 18:52:05
In reply to Re: needhelp, posted by pej on January 10, 1999, at 18:25:16
I've been suicidal for most of my life, but there have always been periods where my thinking gets a little clearer and I say, "Man, to think that I would've never lived to see this moment..."
It might sound corny. In fact, I was thinking of suicide about 10 minutes ago. But I've had enough of the damn repetition of it to recognize the distortions in my thinking ... how everything gets constricted so that you see no way out, and every detail gets generalized into one big ominous lump. I don't know if I believe in God, but you said that you do, so I think the trick/challenge here is to have Faith that there'll be a break in the pain sometime soon. The fact that you wrote the e-mail is the sign of the beginning of a good fight, I think.
Hold on.
poster:David K.
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