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Posted by B2chica on February 6, 2008, at 10:01:40
I'm sorry that my minds not right
that sometimes i just cry at night,
and sometimes can't when really I should
that some days bad and some days good.I'm sorry for my dragging weight,
and i shouldn't feel anger and such intense hate
that i can sleep for days on end
that i should deserve but even one friend.Im sorry for each breath I waste
Id drink the poison if I didnt hate the taste
Ive tried it once but my reaction slow
Ill try again and this time Ill know.Im sorry for the way Ive lived
I should have taken less and had more to give
The shame and guilt I have inside
Its time now to stay, not run or hide.Im sorry for the turn of fate
For just one callbut now too late.Im sorry for the way Ive died
It was at life I truly tried
I took this path to sites unknown
My mistakes my shame I now must own.
b2c
Posted by Happyflower on February 8, 2008, at 18:05:19
In reply to i am sorry for the way i am, posted by B2chica on February 6, 2008, at 10:01:40
Posted by susan47 on February 11, 2008, at 0:15:04
In reply to i am sorry for the way i am, posted by B2chica on February 6, 2008, at 10:01:40
B2Chica, this does Not Sound Good. I hope and pray it isn't what it sounds like.
The world needs you, B2C, the world needs people as hurting and "damaged" and sorry as you are, because you have feeling, FEELING, B2C, and I KNOW you would never hurt another human being, I KNOW THAT so DO NOT HURT YOURSELF. Call for help, call the person you think doesn't give a sh*t and find out how wrong you are about that. You are more loved and cared about than you realize, than you know, you MUST find out there is another reality to the one you think is the only one. Your reality Sucks, it f*ck*ng stinks, and it IS NOT THE REAL ONE, IT IS NOT THE TRUE REALITY, what you see is filtered through your emotion, which is overflowing and feeling bad, so CRY damn it, scream and tear at the furniture, throw things around, F*ck*ng Make a Mess, in a safe place, where you cannot and will not hurt yourself. Hurt the pillow, hurt the bed, tear at the sofa cushions if you must, but don't hurt yourself. Scream and rant at the person(s) you feel are responsible for your misery, at the situations, at the life that's sucked till now.
Then come back, come back here and tell me about it.
Please, please, please.
We love you.You write beautifully, do you know that? Because it comes from your heart. Because you have a heart.
Posted by 10derHeart on February 12, 2008, at 13:18:05
In reply to WHERE IS B2C???????????????????, posted by susan47 on February 11, 2008, at 0:15:04
Hi Susan,
She did post on Psych board on 2/8:
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20080126/msgs/811500.html
Maybe you could post to her over there where she mostly comes when she is here? I'm sure she would love to know you are concerned about her.....maybe post a link to your post here?
And her Babblemail is on, too.
Just my ideas.....it's so hard to read people's pain here and then not know exactly how they are after they've written something....{sigh} - 10der
Posted by B2chica on March 14, 2008, at 15:08:25
In reply to Re: WHERE IS B2C??????????????????? » susan47, posted by 10derHeart on February 12, 2008, at 13:18:05
sorry to make you worry.
life's just getting in the way these days.
i've been writing poetry a lot but not posting it. this board doesn't seem to get much action so i only pop in once in a while.
i'm kinda struggling with some meds right now. but i have a beautiful little girl that keeps me hanging on. i want to be...for her.thank you for caring. i can't tell you how much i needed to see that someone cares right now.
just not up to posting these days. psych too triggering for me. so if i am around i'm on Meds board. and not that much time anyway.
i do terribly miss you all.thanks for caring.
best wishes all
b2c.
Posted by susan47 on March 14, 2008, at 19:51:12
In reply to here i am... » 10derHeart, posted by B2chica on March 14, 2008, at 15:08:25
I know what you mean about life getting in the way. I'm so happy for you having a beautiful little girl. You HAVE to be, it's not a choice, you're a mom. The only thing that your little girl will care about when she's older, is that you're there for her, and that she knows you love her, and that she knows you'll never leave her, and you'll always have an open heart for her. You're brave and strong, B2C, and all the things your life is made up of are very, very valuable. One day, you will understand why. I know your truth will come to you. It will creep up on you, and you will be amazed at all the Love that lies in your truth, the lessons you're learning and the wisdom you're gaining.
I suspect life will be much easier for us both when we stop struggling so much against it. Thank you for replying, it means a great deal. I know how quiet is here lately, I feel the emptiness, it hurts my bones. Like, a death rattle .. i feel the rattling of my bones.
Hey! I'm here though, I'm here.
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