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Posted by Susan47 on April 3, 2005, at 9:58:59
This is not writing, it's just out there because it needs to be. None of what I do is writing; it ends up in broken lines because it feels right, to me. This was my dream last night, and the reality ...
Bodies, broken bodies were
everywhere.
You tripped on them,
if you weren't looking.
And it was hard to keep looking.
Almost impossible.Except that, you had to make sure
that one of the bodies
wasn't your own child.
I left my child, safely tucked
away somewhere upstairs
my little boy,
my blond little son,
my little magnet.But he may not be there anymore.
I must check
and on the way there,
I must look for my husband,
and be aware of the buses and vans
and trucks full of shrouded
bodies, always coming through,
coming through ...the only bodies that
you can see, the dead eyes,
slack mouths,
they're all strange ...
thank you
entity who does not exist,
thank you for nothing.The enemy, who I live with,
bayonet always at my back,
threatening to pierce my heart
the enemy is everywhere
they even climb the trees
in the forest, now, looking for us.We, who run away, who can no longer
stomach this existence, we who never could.
There are very few of us, now.
The enemy is chewing away at itself.
Any excuse will do, now, any excuse
to create another body for burial ...But they must leave some of us
to perform the chore
some of us must be made to survive
the strongest must do the burying,
the mourning, the weeping must all
be done in private.
Or not at all.Nowhere is safe.
Just before I wake,
I find myself, in this body,
sitting in the library
a presence walks silently by.
I look up.
I see brown, silky hair,
the shape of the head, the body,
it's all there, and I feel
comforted. Because spirit exists.
Posted by rayww on April 3, 2005, at 13:32:00
In reply to Not Human, Yes but No (***Trigger-Gruesome***), posted by Susan47 on April 3, 2005, at 9:58:59
Wow. This one is a Wow.
Posted by Susan47 on April 3, 2005, at 18:34:10
In reply to Not Human, Yes but No (***Trigger-Gruesome***), posted by Susan47 on April 3, 2005, at 9:58:59
Mmmm.
Posted by alexandra_k on April 5, 2005, at 3:43:53
In reply to Re: Not Human, Yes but No (***Trigger-Gruesome***), posted by Susan47 on April 3, 2005, at 18:34:10
Oh Susan, that is poetry indeed.
You have a muse, and sometimes she speaks.
Posted by sunny10 on April 5, 2005, at 9:17:57
In reply to Re: Not Human, Yes but No (***Trigger-Gruesome***) » Susan47, posted by alexandra_k on April 5, 2005, at 3:43:53
Posted by Susan47 on April 5, 2005, at 10:03:05
In reply to Re: I think it's a he (nm) » alexandra_k, posted by sunny10 on April 5, 2005, at 9:17:57
Posted by sunny10 on April 5, 2005, at 12:07:33
In reply to Yes. And it's leaving. » sunny10, posted by Susan47 on April 5, 2005, at 10:03:05
that you'll find another. Hopefully as an "energy charge" from the practicum.....
(Oooh, I'm still so excited for you!!!)
Posted by alexandra_k on April 5, 2005, at 18:25:51
In reply to Re: good thing you are adept! I have no doubts » Susan47, posted by sunny10 on April 5, 2005, at 12:07:33
They come and go.
I can write sometimes.
Othertimes I can't.
They come and go.Now there is an interesting metaphysical question:
Does the same one go away and come back?
Or does a different one visit each time?But it is you really Susan.
A beautiful part of you :-)
Posted by Susan47 on April 5, 2005, at 22:27:51
In reply to Re: They come and go, Susan, posted by alexandra_k on April 5, 2005, at 18:25:51
They're ruled by my feelings about a certain man. A certain magical mysterious being living in the skin shell of my ex-T ... an alien indeed.
One I live to love, really. Isn't that funny? And I love it. I love the feeling of love, it's joyous and magical and funny and engulfing .. it's mania. I'm in love with my manias and I create them as often as I can so that I can experience, over and over, in magical daily moments, the creativity of spirit-mind.Ooh Susan you've had a couple too many, and tomorrow morning you may feel very down indeed, but hopefully, you haven't run out of resources, darling ...
Posted by Susan47 on April 5, 2005, at 22:28:57
In reply to Re: They come and go, Susan, posted by alexandra_k on April 5, 2005, at 18:25:51
And Exciting
And Beautiful.Mind. I wish mine were smarter. Can you imagine a smarter mind? Wouldn't that be wonderful?
Posted by sunny10 on April 6, 2005, at 11:22:39
In reply to Different each time, but also more familiar » alexandra_k, posted by Susan47 on April 5, 2005, at 22:28:57
personally, I cringe at the idea of being smarter... if I were DUMBER, I wouldn't recognize snide remarks, should haves, et cetera...
but, back to the original thread... YOU are the muse, always. Whoever it is that you shine on to bring life to them doesn't much matter. All of the love, all of the dynamics are from you.
You are your own muse- you just don't realize that yet...
Posted by B2chica on April 7, 2005, at 11:59:16
In reply to Not Human, Yes but No (***Trigger-Gruesome***), posted by Susan47 on April 3, 2005, at 9:58:59
Posted by Susan47 on April 7, 2005, at 15:01:51
In reply to i second that WOW, and raise to incredible. (nm) » Susan47, posted by B2chica on April 7, 2005, at 11:59:16
It's partly family history coming to the fore.
So it's really not original work,
this dream.
It just is; it's inside me,
existing
waiting to be released.
And maybe, just maybe,
this was good enough.
Thanks B2C, I hope you're good these days.
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