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Posted by Honore on April 28, 2007, at 20:53:45
Since I haven't been able to work for the last 18 days, it's been really hard to keep myself together. Not that it is always easy when I work---
Ive become kind of zombie-like and it seems as if I'm going to disappear. If that is the feeling. Or perhaps that I already don't exist and never will again.
I'm afraid that when I can work again, I won't be able to, just like high school when I was always afraid that I had lost my intelligence. I can never tell if anything that I care about having or being is still there-- I feel stupid now, for example, but then it seems it doesn't matter, since I'm not doing anything that requires intelligence. But it used to torment me that I didn't know anything in graduate school-- and that I felt so without any inner resources with which to make a name for myself-- even in a very small program. In fact no one know I was there-- I disappeared, and it was to the other students, as if I weren't there anymore.
And now I feel a little as if I'm not here anymore because I haven't worked in almost three weeks. Haven't been allowed to pickup a pencil or eraser-- and I realize that I now dont' know if I'll be able to, when it's all right again. I get scared when I go into my studio, and it seems like the emptiness and silence, and dimness in there are something I can't ever transform. It was only recently that I was so in the stream of things, and now the stream has ceased completely.
I can't imagine that there will be one again.
Honore
Posted by Poet on May 3, 2007, at 21:48:34
In reply to Work, or absence thereof, posted by Honore on April 28, 2007, at 20:53:45
Hi Honore,
If I depended on my poetry to make a living I'd be sleeping in a cardboard box surrounded by my cats like a crazy cat lady. I haven't written anything in months. I get a word or two down and then squat.
You might think that what you are doing doesn't require intelligence, but I think creativity does require some intelligence. Don't put yourself down in that regard. I hope you can slowly get back into the studio and that creative energy flows again.
Poet
Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on May 20, 2007, at 14:42:40
In reply to Re: Work, or absence thereof » Honore, posted by Poet on May 3, 2007, at 21:48:34
3 personal situations come to mind
1) when I was really depressed last year and could hardly concentrate to write a complete sentence much less keep up with my studies.
2) when my tendinitis was so bad that I learned to mouse with my left hand and could barely write type or play fiddle.
3) at present i find myself unemployed without specific plans for enrollment.
You WILL be able to work again. We know that you are much more than your work, or even the sum of your work. Your intelligence shows in all aspects of your life, not just because your work is stimulating.
I hope that you make it through this challenge. How are you doing, by the way?
-Ll
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