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Posted by Muffled on November 17, 2007, at 0:55:15
its just as f*ck*ng hard as the first time(second, third...).
I don't have DT's and stuff cuz I not been off wagon long enuf, but its all back.
The kick in the gut need.
The torment.
The fight.
Sucks.
M
Posted by ClearSkies on November 17, 2007, at 12:27:09
In reply to Well if you quit....don't go back, posted by Muffled on November 17, 2007, at 0:55:15
Sorry you're suffering, Muffled. I think it's even worse to have a relapse once you've got some sobriety under your belt, because you know what's coming :-(
but...
You also know that you can do it; you can put this behind you and start afresh. Maybe you need some more skills to keep you straight when the stressors are at their highest (I know that's when I'm most vulnerable). For others the hardest time to stay straight is when their life seems the cheeriest, because they want to "celebrate", but I was always a wallower. When I'm low, drinking took me ever lower. Your T might be able to help you with some mindfulness practices that might help you stay "in the moment." I find that reminding myself to meditate, reminding myself to breathe!!, simple things like that, can help the most. The approaching holidays are difficult times for me, historically, as they can be for many of us. I started going to a yoga class again because I'm just not disciplined enough to make myself do a daily practice on my own. Stuff like that.
Hang on, dear friend. You can make it through this crappy stuff and get through to the better days ahead, and you will be stronger for it.
CS
Posted by antigua3 on November 18, 2007, at 7:06:46
In reply to Well if you quit....don't go back, posted by Muffled on November 17, 2007, at 0:55:15
Posted by Muffled on November 18, 2007, at 10:00:37
In reply to Ditto to what Clear Skies said (nm) » Muffled, posted by antigua3 on November 18, 2007, at 7:06:46
Posted by ClearSkies on November 20, 2007, at 14:05:13
In reply to Well if you quit....don't go back, posted by Muffled on November 17, 2007, at 0:55:15
What with the medication challenges you're having and the issues of getting sober again, are you doing OK?
People here care about you.ClearSkies
Posted by Muffled on November 20, 2007, at 14:57:02
In reply to Muffled, how are you doing?, posted by ClearSkies on November 20, 2007, at 14:05:13
thx, i do ok.
got the flu going thru our house, so that keeping me outta trouble. blessing in disguise perhaps?
i also have more coping stuff than i did b4.
i also got my t to help me.
ok.....
so i hanging on by my teeth...
well see...
thanks for support.
m
Posted by oldschool305 on November 23, 2007, at 23:49:29
In reply to Re: Muffled, how are you doing? » ClearSkies, posted by Muffled on November 20, 2007, at 14:57:02
I've been sober 2 weeks, 2 days now... well not really. You see, I am fine with I avoid my "drinking buddies". You know what they say, people, places, and things! Ain't that the truth. Well, yesterday was Thanksgiving and I was invited to have dinner at a "friends" house, there was TONS of booze, wine, beer, etc. I caved in and drink half of a bud light. I don't know how, or why, but I stopped half way through and said f*ck this sh*t. I know how it will make me feel tomorrow, like DEATH. Everyone was like AHHHH, COME ONNNNN BLEHHH BLAHHH BELCHH... have anotha... you party pooper, boooo.... have a shot. here, take the bottle. I walked away, got in my car and came home. I am very proud of myself but I know that it won't always be that easy. I'm bored, to death. I love the feeling of intoxication. I hate the next day - 3 days. I hate the hypoglycemia, I hate the anxiety and depression. I hate the depersonalization. I hate the withdrawals, and the shakes! that was the scariest day of my life (2 weeks ago and 2 days, I went through horrific withdrawals, paramedics came, i was withdrawing HARDCORE!!!!). Why must we crave something that makes us feel so horrible and ruins our lives? Why can't we just say ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. I know what my problem is, alcoholism runs in the family. I'm Irish, I grew up around drunks, I have underlying mental conditions that don't help any. Ugh, I can go on and on and on, but just know... that I know the torment you are going through, and the never ending battle.. Just don't give up, I haven't (very close, many times) but I still haven't given up. Try cutting down, slowly... not cold turkey if your a daily drinker, hell no. It could kill you, but decrease it and then find something else to occupy your time. I'm a musician, I pick up my flute and zone out into another world. It's great.
Anyways, good luck and best wishes to everyone battling with this horrible disease called alcoholism =(
Posted by oldschool305 on November 24, 2007, at 0:51:11
In reply to Well if you quit....don't go back, posted by Muffled on November 17, 2007, at 0:55:15
sorry if it seems if i hijacked his post... not my intention. i tend to relate to others posts, reply with my similar experiences, and then offer any advice that I can. I also find it helpful when others reply to my posts with their experiences and then what helped them with their addictions.
=)
Posted by Muffled on November 24, 2007, at 10:08:11
In reply to Re: Well if you quit....don't go back, posted by oldschool305 on November 24, 2007, at 0:51:11
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