Posted by oldschool305 on November 23, 2007, at 23:49:29
In reply to Re: Muffled, how are you doing? » ClearSkies, posted by Muffled on November 20, 2007, at 14:57:02
I've been sober 2 weeks, 2 days now... well not really. You see, I am fine with I avoid my "drinking buddies". You know what they say, people, places, and things! Ain't that the truth. Well, yesterday was Thanksgiving and I was invited to have dinner at a "friends" house, there was TONS of booze, wine, beer, etc. I caved in and drink half of a bud light. I don't know how, or why, but I stopped half way through and said f*ck this sh*t. I know how it will make me feel tomorrow, like DEATH. Everyone was like AHHHH, COME ONNNNN BLEHHH BLAHHH BELCHH... have anotha... you party pooper, boooo.... have a shot. here, take the bottle. I walked away, got in my car and came home. I am very proud of myself but I know that it won't always be that easy. I'm bored, to death. I love the feeling of intoxication. I hate the next day - 3 days. I hate the hypoglycemia, I hate the anxiety and depression. I hate the depersonalization. I hate the withdrawals, and the shakes! that was the scariest day of my life (2 weeks ago and 2 days, I went through horrific withdrawals, paramedics came, i was withdrawing HARDCORE!!!!). Why must we crave something that makes us feel so horrible and ruins our lives? Why can't we just say ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. I know what my problem is, alcoholism runs in the family. I'm Irish, I grew up around drunks, I have underlying mental conditions that don't help any. Ugh, I can go on and on and on, but just know... that I know the torment you are going through, and the never ending battle.. Just don't give up, I haven't (very close, many times) but I still haven't given up. Try cutting down, slowly... not cold turkey if your a daily drinker, hell no. It could kill you, but decrease it and then find something else to occupy your time. I'm a musician, I pick up my flute and zone out into another world. It's great.
Anyways, good luck and best wishes to everyone battling with this horrible disease called alcoholism =(
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