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Posted by ClearSkies on December 5, 2005, at 10:34:11
Should I make a snoozathon speech like a president does after 100 days in office?
Well, my fellow Babblers.
I can't remember ever having felt this good. I still have anxiety, though not as bad as it used to was, and I know that it will slowly seep away on its own.
My body is used to having good things fed to it (OK, *too many* good things, but one problem at a time). My sugar cravings are better. I have stopped baking cakes and desserts every week.I try to attend the weekly sobriety meetings. I am quite often very reluctant to go, even though I'm always glad I did when I make it. I keep in touch with some meeting members via email. I'm not good at "doing phone". Sorry to any friends here who have been promised calls and are still waiting... I'm working on it in therapy, honest.
My biggest trigger is definitely my mom. I have seen her 3 times this year, and this last visit ended with me curled up in a ball on the sofa for 2 days. I didn't drink - but it sure felt like I wanted to crawl into that little black cave and hide with a bottle. I think the reason I didn't do it was that I'm still so p'd off at mom!! Let's hear it for constructive anger.
For those with years of sobriety, I am inspired by you and still need to hear your stories. Maintaining sobriety and achieving mental health seem like incompatible goals sometimes. When depression is deep, it feels like I couldn't do any worse by drinking. When my anxiety is high, I comsider that medication by martini can be a viable option. Reminding myself of what I'm like with those martinis in me is good motivation for staying sober. What works for you?
For those just starting their journey, or considering whether getting straight is really what you need right now, I encourage you to do it. It took a lot of support from others for me to be able to do this. I rely on medication in addition to group support and my therapist to keep getting healthy and grow spiritually. So far this trip has been totally worth it. It makes a big difference for me to be able to activiely participate in my life instead of letting it happen to me.
ClearSkies
Posted by rainbowbrite on December 5, 2005, at 13:49:44
In reply to The first 100 days, posted by ClearSkies on December 5, 2005, at 10:34:11
That is really wonderful CS! Im so happy for you :-) I can only imagine how hard what you have done and continue to do is. Keep up the great work.
Posted by antigua on December 5, 2005, at 15:00:09
In reply to The first 100 days, posted by ClearSkies on December 5, 2005, at 10:34:11
Maybe we should start a club. My mother is my greatest trigger, too, and I didn't let myself drink over her after she left after thanksgiving (but, boy was it hard!)
best wishes,
antigua
Posted by ClearSkies on December 5, 2005, at 15:31:08
In reply to Congratulations » ClearSkies, posted by antigua on December 5, 2005, at 15:00:09
I think there are quite a few of the Mutha-Trigger club members here on Babble!!
Talking about how we are triggered and how we cope with those triggers would be a great discussion. It's not something that was really addressed in the outpatient programme, beyond advising us to stay away (!). That isn't always possible with family obligations. I think that we could develop some strategies for the next round of the 'orrible 'olidays yet to come.
CS
Posted by ClearSkies on December 5, 2005, at 15:31:56
In reply to Re: The first 100 days » ClearSkies, posted by rainbowbrite on December 5, 2005, at 13:49:44
Thanks, Rain! This is the best work I've ever done.
CS
Posted by AuntieMel on December 5, 2005, at 15:56:43
In reply to The first 100 days, posted by ClearSkies on December 5, 2005, at 10:34:11
At the family night I go to we used to start out by reading the 12 steps.
One person changed the 11th to "Sought through prayer and medication....."
It was an accident, and the person was really embarassed, but it sure was funny.
Moms can be a trigger. My father was sure one for me. Just remember - if we drink, they win!
Posted by verne on December 5, 2005, at 20:09:55
In reply to The first 100 days, posted by ClearSkies on December 5, 2005, at 10:34:11
That's great. If you can quit during the holidays and family visits that's heroic. My daughter's mother is a challenge for my daughter - and me. They've disowned each other several times and my daughter is only 20 years old.
I'm back at day 15. I've turned some corners though. I've been walking almost every day for nearly a month after six months of just peeking my head out the door.
I've invited my daughter and her fiancee over several times in the past month after not having him over for 3 years! So something good is happening. Something has clicked.
Just thought I would report back from 85 days ago and encourage you to put together lots of more days. (is "lots of more" even English?)
I took two baby aspirin and I can't even think straight, it does that to me sometimes.
Verne
Posted by AuntieMel on December 7, 2005, at 10:04:51
In reply to Re: The first 100 days » ClearSkies, posted by verne on December 5, 2005, at 20:09:55
You can do it. I know it.
Posted by ClearSkies on December 7, 2005, at 15:24:53
In reply to Re: That's great » verne, posted by AuntieMel on December 7, 2005, at 10:04:51
Me too.
Verne, you will do this when you are ready to. Please don't worry about it, it will happen at the right timeCS
Posted by sal0805 on December 10, 2005, at 9:07:10
In reply to The first 100 days, posted by ClearSkies on December 5, 2005, at 10:34:11
Very proud of you ClearSkies. Actually, quite in awe of you.
Sabrina
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