Posted by ClearSkies on December 5, 2005, at 10:34:11
Should I make a snoozathon speech like a president does after 100 days in office?
Well, my fellow Babblers.
I can't remember ever having felt this good. I still have anxiety, though not as bad as it used to was, and I know that it will slowly seep away on its own.
My body is used to having good things fed to it (OK, *too many* good things, but one problem at a time). My sugar cravings are better. I have stopped baking cakes and desserts every week.I try to attend the weekly sobriety meetings. I am quite often very reluctant to go, even though I'm always glad I did when I make it. I keep in touch with some meeting members via email. I'm not good at "doing phone". Sorry to any friends here who have been promised calls and are still waiting... I'm working on it in therapy, honest.
My biggest trigger is definitely my mom. I have seen her 3 times this year, and this last visit ended with me curled up in a ball on the sofa for 2 days. I didn't drink - but it sure felt like I wanted to crawl into that little black cave and hide with a bottle. I think the reason I didn't do it was that I'm still so p'd off at mom!! Let's hear it for constructive anger.
For those with years of sobriety, I am inspired by you and still need to hear your stories. Maintaining sobriety and achieving mental health seem like incompatible goals sometimes. When depression is deep, it feels like I couldn't do any worse by drinking. When my anxiety is high, I comsider that medication by martini can be a viable option. Reminding myself of what I'm like with those martinis in me is good motivation for staying sober. What works for you?
For those just starting their journey, or considering whether getting straight is really what you need right now, I encourage you to do it. It took a lot of support from others for me to be able to do this. I rely on medication in addition to group support and my therapist to keep getting healthy and grow spiritually. So far this trip has been totally worth it. It makes a big difference for me to be able to activiely participate in my life instead of letting it happen to me.
ClearSkies
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