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Posted by AMD on November 3, 2005, at 11:23:07
Folks,
I've been in a vicious circle of cocaine use followed by days of depression, followed by a couple days of good spirits, concentration, etc., followed by another use. This has gone on for months.
On Saturday it happened again, and I've not yet shaken the depression. This is the longest it's ever taken for my mood to lift. Will my mood ever stabilize, or can I expect this to last forever? I feel so hopeless. I'm afraid that this time I really did "break" something, and it will be a downward spiral from here. I would rather die than live like this day after day after day. I'm not suicidal, but I'm in misery and I'm wondering if I'll ever feel the simple pleasure from reading and solving problems that I once did. Today I don't feel able to concentrate the slightest, and the thought of doing a complex task and not being able to makes me want to cry.
Rejoined Parallax today, which I hope is a step in the right direction. But I need relief /now/ as I feel truly horrid.
amd
Posted by paulbwell on November 3, 2005, at 14:24:31
In reply to cocaine and depression -- will depression go away?, posted by AMD on November 3, 2005, at 11:23:07
> Folks,
>
> I've been in a vicious circle of cocaine use followed by days of depression, followed by a couple days of good spirits, concentration, etc., followed by another use. This has gone on for months.
>
> On Saturday it happened again, and I've not yet shaken the depression. This is the longest it's ever taken for my mood to lift. Will my mood ever stabilize, or can I expect this to last forever? I feel so hopeless. I'm afraid that this time I really did "break" something, and it will be a downward spiral from here. I would rather die than live like this day after day after day. I'm not suicidal, but I'm in misery and I'm wondering if I'll ever feel the simple pleasure from reading and solving problems that I once did. Today I don't feel able to concentrate the slightest, and the thought of doing a complex task and not being able to makes me want to cry.
>
> Rejoined Parallax today, which I hope is a step in the right direction. But I need relief /now/ as I feel truly horrid.
>
> amdI hear ya dude, i'm scripted a sh*t load of Ritalin, and have/do crush and snort it, this is MUCH more powerfull than taking orally, and SOMEWHAT similar to coke.
I get the depression/feeling useless too,
My point is, man you gotta get help, and Meds to stabalise the Dopamine desire (from Coke) and Seratonin)to stabilise yr braine chemistry.
Elton John-who abused Cocaine for years,+booze-took Prozac for 1 year to help with the brain /desire/function thing.
Apparently Bupropion (wellbutrin) being a Dopamine reuptake inhabitor-is very helpfull.
Cheers
Posted by Festus on November 10, 2005, at 0:04:39
In reply to Re: cocaine and depression -- will depression go away?, posted by paulbwell on November 3, 2005, at 14:24:31
I can relate. I think that anytime you do Stimulants for a week or longer, there's gonna be the "BIG D" waitin for ya.That's part of my problem,tryin to manage all the side-effects from the Drug Regimen I'm on. It really is crazy. It started with an injury, rehab and therapy, and ,of course, Pain Pills and Muscle Relaxers.Next,come the Xanax and Prozac for Depression from Chronic Pain.After an Opiate Med change,comes more drowsiness(Methadone for the non-insured)and some Dexedrine to keep alert.So,after 3 years of Methadone building up in me,I start tapering down from 100-120mg a day.Talk about WD's.Well,those little gold and green-colored buds,with reddish fuzz and sticky,sweet resin all over them,well,it sure helped fight nausea and sicky feeling,but still,it's almost like they all fit together to ward off the debilitating jolts of knife-like pain,and it's accompanying secondary problems.Oh well, however bad it may appear,I know my little problems don't hold a candle to what so many in our world must endure and suffer through,almost daily.Bless you All. Festus
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