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Posted by saw on October 25, 2004, at 1:43:50
I feel such a failure at my inability to just not take that first drink and my inability to stop after the first drink. I try not beat myself up about it, but it is a problem, a very big problem and I am so very very tired of all the consequences. But it is a futile exercise and one that I feel absolutely powerless to control. My demon alcohol is controlling me and I am feeling useless, hopeless and helpless.
Sometimes, I even feel a bit better and actually feel happy then I ruin it by drinking too much and not remembering.
I feel very low and despondent.
Sabrina
Posted by partlycloudy on October 25, 2004, at 5:31:52
In reply to There really is no other way, posted by saw on October 25, 2004, at 1:43:50
((((Sabrina)))) I had a long weekend in that regard. Even though I stayed sober, it didn't feel good until the next morning. Such a hard thing to do, to talk myself into feeling good later...
Posted by Allen770 on October 25, 2004, at 20:59:32
In reply to Re: There really is no other way » saw, posted by partlycloudy on October 25, 2004, at 5:31:52
I can certainly relate to you, both, and I should say, here, that I am now drinking, even as I write this.
Yes, Sabrina, what you're describing and currently going thru is very much what practicing (and even "dry" ones experience, as well, as told by "partlycloudy," above) alcoholics live and deal with on a daily basis.
I've been "in & out" of treatment--for a variety of different substances, but primarily alcohol--since 1985, and I am right now making arraignments to enter another "30 Day Rehab Program," here, locally, in Phoenix.
Yes, I have been thru more that, say, "two-dozen" detoxes and hospitals and institutions, but, when I honestly thought about my past I'd "only" been in three different "residential rehabilitation programs," so?
So, I think I'm going to "Give myself a break," and, also, this time ("mostly!") I'm willing to accept any consequences--and, there will be several awaiting me when I return home--and to finally; hopefully; get and stay completely SOBER for myself.
Thank you for starting this thread, Sabrina.
--Allen
Posted by bart on November 20, 2004, at 9:50:28
In reply to There really is no other way, posted by saw on October 25, 2004, at 1:43:50
have you considered A.A. as a daily part of life? It's great support to be around others with the same problem. It's also a good spiritually-based program that has suggestions for how to live life happily without taking that first drink
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