Posted by saw on October 25, 2004, at 1:43:50
I feel such a failure at my inability to just not take that first drink and my inability to stop after the first drink. I try not beat myself up about it, but it is a problem, a very big problem and I am so very very tired of all the consequences. But it is a futile exercise and one that I feel absolutely powerless to control. My demon alcohol is controlling me and I am feeling useless, hopeless and helpless.
Sometimes, I even feel a bit better and actually feel happy then I ruin it by drinking too much and not remembering.
I feel very low and despondent.
Sabrina
poster:saw
thread:406883
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/subs/20041013/msgs/406883.html