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Posted by Deneb on March 14, 2006, at 19:02:07
I skipped class again today. :-(
Then I slept the whole day and woke up to a dark sky. :-(
I have a midterm tomorrow. I didn't feel like facing it or studying for it.
I'm so screwed.
What the f*ck is wrong with me?
Deneb*
Posted by Deneb on March 14, 2006, at 19:18:37
In reply to I skipped class today, posted by Deneb on March 14, 2006, at 19:02:07
I can't face the world. When it gets a little bit stressful I shut down.
Most people study a lot the day before a midterm or an exam, but I tend to shut down as the exam gets closer. The more stress I'm under the more I don't study.
I feel horrible right now. Just horrible. I hate how I skipped my classes today and didn't do anything but sleep.
What is wrong with me?! Aaaaah!
I can't handle this, I want out! Don't know what to do. What do I do?
I need a tutor for all my classes. Having a tutor guarantees that I will study an hour and a half for the class. I can't afford a tutor for all my classes!
I'm so messed up. Why do I keep skipping my classes? Why? Why? Why?
Maybe subconsciously I want to fail all my classes because I'm too afraid to get out there in the real world.
I'm so messed up. Help me. I know no one can help me.
Can't handle things. Wish I could just sleep through the stressful parts of life.
I'm sabotaging myself. I have problems.
Can't face things. Just want to disappear, go invisible.
Aaaaaah!
Deneb*
Posted by Deneb on March 14, 2006, at 19:56:00
In reply to Re: I skipped class today *hopeless trigger*, posted by Deneb on March 14, 2006, at 19:18:37
I wish someone could help me. I wish someone here could be with me right now and help me take out my notes and start testing me right now.
I feel like a need a helper. I'm so messed up. I need someone to sit down with me and take out my notes and help me study. Help me.
I need someone to make me get out of bed in the morning. I need someone to actually pull me out of bed and pour coffee down my throat.
I wish I could stop time. That would solve all my problems. I would have as much time to study as I need. I wish I could selectively "wake" people up from the time freeze. How I wish... I wish I wish
I need time to stop right now. Stop time, stop! Please stop. I'm so messed up. I'm going to fantasy-land now. Can't handle the normal everyday stresses of life. Bye-bye real world. Off to fantasy-land I go. Time will stop there.
Aaaaaah!
Deneb*
Posted by fallsfall on March 14, 2006, at 19:59:17
In reply to Re: I skipped class today *hopeless trigger*, posted by Deneb on March 14, 2006, at 19:18:37
Dropping out of life by being depressed is easy to do. I did it for 10 years.
It it wasn't for my therapist, I would still be doing it. And he's on vacation this week and I'm tending in that direction.
It is a very hard tendency to fight. I wish you had a good therapist who could help you. The longer you "practice" dropping out, the harder it is to learn not to.
Posted by James K on March 14, 2006, at 22:57:29
In reply to Re: I skipped class today *hopeless trigger*, posted by Deneb on March 14, 2006, at 19:56:00
Hey Deneb, I didn't always think I had what it took to do school. I did. I just thought it was harder than it really was. I was convinced I had to be perfect, and I wasn't. Or I'd rather escape. Just do it. (trademark).
I'm reminded of the song "handbags and gladrags" by noted misogynist Rod Stewart, and many other obscure British rock acts. (and the theme to the british Office series).
you can meet a couple of strangers for coffee, you can go to class and do passable work. I believe this about YOU, not just in general.
a bad day, keep on.
Love.James K
Posted by fairywings on March 15, 2006, at 0:05:14
In reply to Re: I skipped class today *hopeless trigger* » Deneb, posted by fallsfall on March 14, 2006, at 19:59:17
Oh gosh, I can't agree with what falls said any more! The longer you do this, the easier it gets to not participate in life. I fight hiding every day, I have fear, I procrastinate, and every time I allow the fear to overcome me, it gets harder and harder to get in the game. Don't give in now Deneb.fw
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