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Posted by Dinah on January 10, 2006, at 18:00:00
I spent most of the day at the office today, and it was just so overwhelming. By the afternoon I was so anxious and wound up that I could barely think, and I know I was acting like an idiot. Talking too much, and losing my train of thought, and just buzzing. Well, I was buzzing inside, and I suppose I imagine that others could tell. I'm sure they can tell I was off.
Afterwards I was able to calm down a bit, though I'm still a bit buzzy.
I don't know if it's medication changes. I'd sort of like to blame that, but it's probably not. I just get way overstimulated when things aren't the way they usually are. But I can barely stay awake at home.
Sigh.
Posted by Deneb on January 10, 2006, at 18:52:45
In reply to I hate being inside of me, posted by Dinah on January 10, 2006, at 18:00:00
> I spent most of the day at the office today, and it was just so overwhelming. By the afternoon I was so anxious and wound up that I could barely think, and I know I was acting like an idiot.
Me too Dinah. After my pdoc appointment, I was still extremely nervous and I kept thinking of all the stupid things I said and what an idiot I was for behaving so strangely and why couldn't I just be relaxed and have a normal conversation?
I was in a dazed state or something.
((((((((((Dinah)))))))))))
Posted by sleepygirl on January 10, 2006, at 19:02:34
In reply to I hate being inside of me, posted by Dinah on January 10, 2006, at 18:00:00
I'm glad to hear you're feeling calmer, sounds like you felt pretty flooded/overstimulated and all.
I tend to get really overstimulated as well, but at the moment I'm pretty understimulated (go figure, I can't win). When I get like that I just want to be home, to calm down, but sometimes it takes a while. Things outside really can set me off, mess up my equilibrium.
When I'm running like that sometimes I like to think of it like a car at a super-high idle that can't drive effectively.As far as others being aware of how you were feeling they may not be as focused on it as you are and/or really appreciate the intensity you do. They may notice 'something', but not as keenly as you do. I of course can't know.
You know I kind of think I give people more credit than they deserve in assessing their ability to sense how I'm feeling, you know pick up on the crazy anxiety and all that. I feel like a wickedly disorganized mess, but people tend to tell me I'm a calming influence (which makes me think "what? who are you talking about?") for the life of me I don't get that one, I just don't.
Anyway you look great from the outside! Sorry about how you feel sometimes on the inside though.
-all the best,
sleepygirl
Posted by Phillipa on January 10, 2006, at 19:33:51
In reply to Re: I hate being inside of me » Dinah, posted by sleepygirl on January 10, 2006, at 19:02:34
Funny thing is that others most often do not pick up on how another is feeling unless they yell, screem or act stangely. Hope you're better now. Fondly, Phillipa
Posted by ClearSkies on January 10, 2006, at 20:30:56
In reply to I hate being inside of me, posted by Dinah on January 10, 2006, at 18:00:00
> I don't know if it's medication changes. I'd sort of like to blame that, but it's probably not. I just get way overstimulated when things aren't the way they usually are. But I can barely stay awake at home.
>
> Sigh.Do you get that tired but wired feeling? I usually fall asleep as soon as I get in a safe place, like home.
Sorry you had a rough time of it today. Maybe you are worrying about the meds and feeling weird from that?
CS
Posted by jay on January 10, 2006, at 21:06:28
In reply to I hate being inside of me, posted by Dinah on January 10, 2006, at 18:00:00
> I spent most of the day at the office today, and it was just so overwhelming. By the afternoon I was so anxious and wound up that I could barely think, and I know I was acting like an idiot. Talking too much, and losing my train of thought, and just buzzing. Well, I was buzzing inside, and I suppose I imagine that others could tell. I'm sure they can tell I was off.
>
> Afterwards I was able to calm down a bit, though I'm still a bit buzzy.
>
> I don't know if it's medication changes. I'd sort of like to blame that, but it's probably not. I just get way overstimulated when things aren't the way they usually are. But I can barely stay awake at home.
>
> Sigh.This may get redirected to med board...but if your feeling is very *physical* Dinah, you should really look at meds. You need a nice but strong med for the overwhelming feelings. What are you taking now?
Thanks,
Jay
Posted by Dinah on January 10, 2006, at 21:19:56
In reply to Re: I hate being inside of me » Dinah, posted by jay on January 10, 2006, at 21:06:28
I'm taking more meds now than I have in ages. :( Risperdal and Provigil. Also, increased diabetes medication might have led to decreased blood sugar that contributed.
But the truth is that I have the nervous system of an overly inbred cocker spaniel. Being in "public" all day, when I'm not used to it, just overwhelmed that nervous system.
I wish I thought that no one else noticed. But I think they at least noticed the too much talking and the nervous laughter.
I'm *finally* calming down a bit, and I'll probably even be able to sleep.
I'll probably get used to it if I do it very often. And I really need to do it, because I'm falling asleep at home. Geesh, I guess I'm equally unproductive both ways. But the sleepy unproductive sure feels better than buzzy unproductive.
Posted by wildcard on January 10, 2006, at 22:23:06
In reply to I hate being inside of me, posted by Dinah on January 10, 2006, at 18:00:00
I know things will get better with time. You have been through a hell of a lot in a year. (((Hugs)))
Posted by gardenergirl on January 10, 2006, at 22:36:25
In reply to Re: I hate being inside of me, posted by Dinah on January 10, 2006, at 21:19:56
> But the truth is that I have the nervous system of an overly inbred cocker spaniel. Being in "public" all day, when I'm not used to it, just overwhelmed that nervous system.That makes me smile. I think you and I are kins in this regard. I get that buzzy feeling when I'm overstimulated, too. And then I crash. I hope that you find some nice, peaceful and restful sleep tonight.
((((Dinah))))
gg
>
Posted by Damos on January 10, 2006, at 23:06:09
In reply to Re: I hate being inside of me, posted by Dinah on January 10, 2006, at 21:19:56
Hey Dinah,
Sorry you're feeling like that. Hope a little calm has settled in and that you get a good nights sleep.
Based on my own experience I can only say just how completely oblivious others' (particularly co-workers) can be to our 'offedness' sometimes. So don't worry yourself too much okay. And I have considerable difficulty imagining you as acting anything close to an idiot. Amazing in every which way, yes. Idiot, no.
If it all gets too much please feel free to send some of your over-stimulation my way as I'm doing my best Three-toed Sloth on tranquillisers impersonation. Now I just need to find a comfy branch to hang from.
You take good care now okay.
(((((Dinah)))))
Posted by sleepygirl on January 11, 2006, at 9:34:45
In reply to Re: I hate being inside of me » Dinah, posted by Damos on January 10, 2006, at 23:06:09
mmmmmm........nice comfy branch, sounds good ;-)
Posted by JenStar on January 11, 2006, at 10:57:16
In reply to Re: I hate being inside of me, posted by Dinah on January 10, 2006, at 21:19:56
hi Dinah,
I'm sorry you had such a rough day! I know this will sound trite, but it will get better in time. I think it's pretty normal to be buzzing and hyper and stressed the first day back, or first day ever, in a new environment. As your mind and body get accustomed to it, you'll relax more, and soon it will be 'normal' to be there. :)Although I know it may not help to think of this NOW, it WILL get better! It always does. :)
JenStar
Posted by Dinah on January 11, 2006, at 11:34:34
In reply to Re: I hate being inside of me » Dinah, posted by JenStar on January 11, 2006, at 10:57:16
I have plenty of work here too, and my nervous system needed a rest. (I originally typed wreck. grin.)
I was overoptimistic about sleeping last night. It took forever, and I was up early.
I'll try again tomorrow.
The new work space arrangement at the office isn't helping either. It's all one big room with everyone coming in and out. No individual offices. I'm thinking of bringing my iPod and trying to shut out the stimulus input. But I'm not sure I can get away with that.
Posted by 10derHeart on January 12, 2006, at 22:18:38
In reply to Re: I hate being inside of me » Dinah, posted by Damos on January 10, 2006, at 23:06:09
Now I just need to find a comfy branch to hang from.<<
There's one right above my favorite bench.
And I do believe I like Damosloths, with any number of toes.
:-)
Posted by verne on January 12, 2006, at 22:39:41
In reply to I stayed home today, posted by Dinah on January 11, 2006, at 11:34:34
Dinah,
Have you tried magnesium? It helps me in many ways. I've been taking the citrate in powder form. It calms me down yet doesn't leave me depressed.
I don't get out in public much but something that helps me is doing some sort of mini-meditation - with the focus on breathing and perhaps a short two-syllable mantra.
Something else I say to myself when I'm feeling overwhelmed in a public place is, "I BELONG". That and the breathing thing is enough to get me through.
Verne
Posted by Dinah on January 13, 2006, at 0:01:46
In reply to Re: I stayed home today » Dinah, posted by verne on January 12, 2006, at 22:39:41
I do try to work on my breathing. Because I know that's something that tends to be the first sign of anxiety for me. Even before I consciously register it. And breathing work is usually how I meditate too. Although honestly I'm not good enough at it to manage much of a meditation when I'm anxious without some sort of external aid.
I'm planning to go in tomorrow again. And this time, knowing in advance what might happen, maybe I can control the situation better.
I think I'm low on magnesium, actually. I need to start eating bananas (it *is* bananas isn't it?).
Posted by zeugma on January 13, 2006, at 17:24:21
In reply to Re: I stayed home today » verne, posted by Dinah on January 13, 2006, at 0:01:46
I think I'm low on magnesium, actually. I need to start eating bananas (it *is* bananas isn't it?).
>>
actually it's potassium. (maybe bananas have magnesium too) but they are full of potassium, and they improve my mood tremendously, AND they do not agree with my stomach. Magnesium gives me a terrible headache. Sources of potassium, other than literally stomach-turning bananas, de-stress me.
-z
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