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Posted by AdaGrace on August 15, 2005, at 23:47:51
I can tell I am on the edge of a crying jag I can't stop. On the verge of innability to get out of bed. People stare at me at the grocery store, ask me if there is something wrong. Today a 19 year old girl asked me if she could do anything for me, I seemed so sad and upset. She offered a hug, but I refused. Must be the zombie appearance on my face. I can't focus on anything. My eyesight is strangly enhanced in the "I can't see sh*t" way. I feel hopeless, full of despair, and so empty inside.
Yep, a storm is brewing, I can tell. The sad thing is I don't have the energy to batton down the hatches.
Posted by coley on August 16, 2005, at 1:42:00
In reply to I feel another genuine nervous breakdown approach, posted by AdaGrace on August 15, 2005, at 23:47:51
Your story seems familiar to me.
Posted by ClearSkies on August 16, 2005, at 7:49:16
In reply to I feel another genuine nervous breakdown approach, posted by AdaGrace on August 15, 2005, at 23:47:51
Ada, are you able to make a doctor's appointment? You may need to change your current medication in order to get through this storm. Or seriously consider the "T" word, you know what I mean.
It sounds like your wounds have been festering more than usual and need some soothing.
You know you can Babblemail me, anytime.
ClearSkies
Posted by Thomasin on August 16, 2005, at 9:36:05
In reply to I feel another genuine nervous breakdown approach, posted by AdaGrace on August 15, 2005, at 23:47:51
Hi Ada Grace,
I do hate that feeling when you know it's coming and you can't stop it. While I do get crying jags as well, what I hate is the feeling of retreating further and further into myself so that I can't seem to be in the world. It's almost a physical pain, trying to talk to people and it's like I really lose my ablity to understand English in a way. People close to me now know that when I get this way I'm not going to be answering the phone and If I do, I'm only going to be able to stand talking for a minute.
I hate watching them all feel so helpless too. They seem to think there's something they could say that would lift me out of it and bring back the usually cheerful,even-keeled woman who was replaced by this close-mouthed, irritable, hermit.There isn't. I find it just has to work it's way through me. I find that if I say to myself, ok, it's gonna happen whether you want it to or not, you lived through it many times, this one's no different,just breathe and hide, then usually, well,it doesn't go away but, if I don't fight it it seems like it doesn't last as long...Does anyone else notice that? Maybe it's that the energy and angst spent trying to avoid the unavoidable winds up prolonging it..I dunno, AdaGrace, it will pass...
Posted by rjlockhart98 on August 16, 2005, at 18:52:39
In reply to Re: I feel another genuine nervous breakdown approach, posted by Thomasin on August 16, 2005, at 9:36:05
Grace,
You sound really in bad shape. (((((((Warm Hug))))))))
ok well i think maybe a antidepressant or stimulant medication might help. Dexedrine? Well im not a doctor but it may raise your spirits becuase it causes dopamine release.
Is life Gloom to you?
Posted by AdaGrace on August 17, 2005, at 17:30:52
In reply to Re: I feel another genuine nervous breakdown approach » AdaGrace, posted by ClearSkies on August 16, 2005, at 7:49:16
Haven't been on my meds for two months, local dr office closed up in this one horse town.
Just recently bootleged some diet speeders to take care of the added 20 pounds of girth I have put on in those 2 months of no meds that weren't working anyway.
Haven't taken a bath, washed my hair, or brushed my teeth in 3 days.
Haven't taken calls from friends in as long.
Don't have time to get groceries, let alone find time to even make an appointment I don't have time for.
Didn't get the children their physicals/dental/eye appointments before school starts, and before my health insurance runs out at the end of this month.
I don't have time.Reninds me of a line in the movie "Something to Talk About" with "Julia Roberts"
"With everything going on in my life right now, I just don't have the time for the nervous breakdown I deserve"
Posted by AdaGrace on August 17, 2005, at 17:31:49
In reply to Re: I feel another genuine nervous breakdown approach, posted by Thomasin on August 16, 2005, at 9:36:05
If it doesn't kill me first
Posted by AdaGrace on August 17, 2005, at 17:33:17
In reply to Re: I feel another genuine nervous breakdown approach, posted by rjlockhart98 on August 16, 2005, at 18:52:39
Life is not gloom to me dear boy. It's hell. Pure hell on earth.
Peace only arrives in the form of the 3 hour nap I experience at night.
How about a nice diet pill for a stimmulant?
Posted by Thomasin on August 17, 2005, at 18:35:50
In reply to Re: Yes, it will pass » Thomasin, posted by AdaGrace on August 17, 2005, at 17:31:49
I so very well know where you are at! I also know there's nothing to say that will help you get out of it. Words of support and comradly gestures are nice sometimes, if they aren't merely annoying but, really getting you out of it well, I've honestly come to believe it's a time thing.(good meds help too) So, I'm truly hoping your time to be done w/ the DREADFUL DOWNS comes sooner than asap...
Posted by ClearSkies on August 18, 2005, at 6:51:00
In reply to Re: I feel another genuine nervous breakdown approach » ClearSkies, posted by AdaGrace on August 17, 2005, at 17:30:52
Holy moley - the doc up and left town?? Are you supposed to get medical care by psychic hotline??
Girl, I think I'm missing a gigantic piece of this puzzle. I didn't know you were losing your health insurance. I am worried for you.
ClearSkies
Posted by AdaGrace on August 18, 2005, at 16:55:44
In reply to Re: I feel another genuine nervous breakdown approach » AdaGrace, posted by ClearSkies on August 18, 2005, at 6:51:00
Townis 100 total people, where I work, and esentially live for 10 to 12 hours a day. No time to go anywhere else. Yep Dr. hit the road a few weeks past.
Job is ending as well. No health insurance is not top on my priority but a problem.
Posted by Phillipa on August 20, 2005, at 21:31:16
In reply to Re: I feel another genuine nervous breakdown approach » ClearSkies, posted by AdaGrace on August 18, 2005, at 16:55:44
If it's a pdoc they have to refer you to someone else. They can't just up and leave. Is there a hospital around for referrals? Fondly, Phillipa
Posted by AdaGrace on August 21, 2005, at 23:52:47
In reply to Re: I feel another genuine nervous breakdown approach, posted by Phillipa on August 20, 2005, at 21:31:16
One horse town Phillipa.
Population 1000.
It's a nurse practitioner. No p doc. Maybe a pee pee doc.
Posted by AdaGrace on August 21, 2005, at 23:53:44
In reply to Re: I feel another genuine nervous breakdown approach » ClearSkies, posted by AdaGrace on August 18, 2005, at 16:55:44
meant to say 1000 people
Posted by Phillipa on August 22, 2005, at 0:16:47
In reply to Re: I feel another » Phillipa, posted by AdaGrace on August 21, 2005, at 23:52:47
Wow that's quite an accomplishment. Now could you write me a Rx for that magic pill? Fondly, Phillipa
Posted by AdaGrace on August 22, 2005, at 8:49:51
In reply to Re: I feel another » AdaGrace, posted by Phillipa on August 22, 2005, at 0:16:47
Not sure what you are talking about, I have slept since this thread was last read........
Please help me I'm falling in a state of missunderstanding......
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