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Posted by smokeymadison on July 10, 2005, at 23:11:39
i feel bad posting bad news about myself, but i don't know what is happening to me at the moment. i have been very stable for the last two months, everything had been going very well. then the past couple of days i have started to feel more and more wierd, for lack of a better word. i feel like everything around me is unrecognizeable, unreal. I have lost a lot of confidence i had in myself to perform in my new job, which is scaring the s**t out of me.
it started as general unrestlessness and has increased to disorientation and the fear that i am about to fail at everything. there are a few probable chemical causes which i will be discussing with my pdoc Tuesday:
-Vicodin, for migraines
-Topamax, started a week ago, for migrainesbut this post is not about the meds in so much as it is about what i am feeling at the present moment. i am trying very hard to just go about my business and not let the paranoia get the best of me. All of the sudden the shadows after dark scare me and i wonder what is going to jump out at me from them. there is general confusion and my very short temper. i have blown up at my boyfriend over the phone twice now for no apparent reason and once at my mother for forgetting to buy water.
i can't figure out what all this means and what to do about it besides just trying to get through and act as "normal" as possible.
i sit in my room and stare at the walls and wish to God that there was some sense of normacy in my life right now. i play music that i am most familiar with in hopes that it will trigger some sense of recognition.
sorry for the rant, but my mom can't even start to fathom what i am talking about and i was hoping that somebody might have a clue as to what the h**l is going on here.
SM
Posted by Tamar on July 11, 2005, at 3:04:46
In reply to off kelter, off base, everything unrecog., posted by smokeymadison on July 10, 2005, at 23:11:39
> i feel bad posting bad news about myself, but i don't know what is happening to me at the moment.
There’s no need to feel bad. Most of us post stuff like this sometimes.
It sounds as if you are going through the same sorts of feelings I go through when I feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. It’s as if the people in my life aren’t real any more and I can’t focus on anything. And I get really irritable.
It happened to me a couple of weeks ago and it lasted about three or four days, but then gradually my sense of reality started to return. It can be scary, but it doesn’t usually last very long.
If you’re experiencing the same sort of thing, you might just need to ride it out for a few more days. I don’t know what causes it, but a couple of people suggested it could be at least partly a premenstrual thing.
I don’t know if that’s much help, but I think I can relate to what you’re talking about.
I hope you feel better soon.
Tamar
Posted by alexandra_k on July 11, 2005, at 3:11:18
In reply to off kelter, off base, everything unrecog., posted by smokeymadison on July 10, 2005, at 23:11:39
Hey there. I can relate as well. What Tamar said sounds about right for me as well. It can be hard to work out why it happens though. In my own case I have learned not to underestimate the old PMT. I think part of my trigger is stress too. But I don't know why sometimes I respond by feeling stressed, while other times I can just take it in my stride.
Its good that you can have a chat to someone IRL about it.
Hang in there. I think it does only tend to last a few days - a week max. Then it gets better.
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