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Posted by SandyWeb on July 15, 2004, at 8:32:28
In reply to RE:: Hey sandy, posted by mystic on July 13, 2004, at 17:39:19
Hi Mystic,
You did aerobics? Wow! I think every joint would be creaking and cracking if I did aerobics now! Lol! How about yoga instead?
Let's see....3 things good about my day:
1. My kitty escaped out into the apartment complex hallway, and I got him back before anyone saw him (and me in my jamies at that!!!)
2. It is a nice rainy day today, and it is fun to people-watch the miserable pedestrians! Lol!
3. I'm sitting here with a hot mug of chocolate coffee. Ahhhhhhhhh.......
I hope you are having a wonderful day yourself!!
(((Mystic)))
Sandy
Posted by LynneDa on July 15, 2004, at 8:57:11
In reply to RE:: Hey sandy » mystic, posted by SandyWeb on July 15, 2004, at 8:32:28
Hi Ladies -
I'm back from vacation and still trying to catch up!!!! I've read/glanced through most of the posts and am so glad to hear how well you all are doing!! I'll write more later, I'm also training a new recruiter this week so my time's sort of limited. Just wanted to say HI and you both sound so well!!!!
~ Lynne
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Hi Mystic,
>
> You did aerobics? Wow! I think every joint would be creaking and cracking if I did aerobics now! Lol! How about yoga instead?
>
> Let's see....3 things good about my day:
>
> 1. My kitty escaped out into the apartment complex hallway, and I got him back before anyone saw him (and me in my jamies at that!!!)
>
> 2. It is a nice rainy day today, and it is fun to people-watch the miserable pedestrians! Lol!
>
> 3. I'm sitting here with a hot mug of chocolate coffee. Ahhhhhhhhh.......
>
> I hope you are having a wonderful day yourself!!
>
> (((Mystic)))
>
> Sandy
>
Posted by mystic on July 15, 2004, at 18:48:58
In reply to RE:: Hey sandy » mystic, posted by SandyWeb on July 15, 2004, at 8:32:28
AHHHH Sandy that was great....lets try again today I loved yours...
1. I saw the dr and it went well even though not sure of my decisions as to what direction to go it went well..
2..It is thursday and I dont have to work tomorrow I get to spend the day with Melissa and Ryan...
3.. My favorite show is on tonight Big Brother..mm
4.. I did arobics and lived..
5.. I feel pretty good today...
Sandy luvya hope you are doing good waiting to hear you list...Mystic
Posted by SandyWeb on July 16, 2004, at 9:38:05
In reply to RE:: Hey sandy, posted by mystic on July 15, 2004, at 18:48:58
Mystic,
I hope you realize that you've now made the list to be 5 answers required. You little stinker!
Okay, here's trying....
1. Again, I have my mug of chocolate coffee steaming beside me (my morning pleasure!)
2. Having the friendships of Mystic, PartlyCloudy (PartyCloud to those of us in the know!), and LynneDa to help keep me grounded! Thank you.
3. Being able to watch the wonders of nature, such as long shadows in the late afternoon.
4. Having movies and books delivered by the Library to my home since I can't get there myself.
5. Having two more days entirely to myself before my son comes back home from vacation with his grandparents. Ahhh, the sounds of silence!!!
Okay, stinker, I managed to list 5! Lol!
And your favorite show is Big Brother? I've never watched it, but I'm REALLY enjoying The Amazing Race.
Hugs,
Sandy
Posted by mystic on July 16, 2004, at 9:46:17
In reply to RE:: Hey sandy » mystic, posted by SandyWeb on July 16, 2004, at 9:38:05
Thank you thank you thank you sandy ...YOU DID GREAT GREAT GREAT..and yes i realized that I added on but promise to make it just 5 ...I'm so happy i have tears in my eyes as to you sitting there finding some comfort from you morning pleasure and finding things in your life that are making a small difference..and you should be very very proud of youself you have figured out what takes everyone a while to figure out that we are worth the fight ..we will fight it and get well and we are good parents and have the love to fight for them...
I will be back later to do my list and I hope that you have a great day...Take care my friend..thanks for making my day!!!!!..luvya Your friend Heidi
Posted by mystic on July 16, 2004, at 9:46:51
In reply to Re: Sandy, posted by SandyWeb on April 8, 2004, at 15:08:38
ps..yes Heidi is Mystic..hahahha just in case you didnt know..but i think that you would...bye bye
Posted by mystic on July 20, 2004, at 18:20:13
In reply to Re: Sandy, posted by SandyWeb on April 8, 2004, at 15:08:38
Ok wake up sandy..I need to hear from you now come on...you didnt make a list..so here is mine for the day...
Things I'm grateful for today:1..I just saw my wonderful little ryan and he puked alllll over me...
2. Work went well and it wasnt too stressful today.
3..I got to do arobics tonight which kicked my butt.
4. I ate some chocolate covered raisens i love them.
5..My favorite show is on tonight Big Brother and I'm going to relax and watch it..
6..Sorry Sandy but just remembered that I saw some beautiful flowers in my pots...
So hope you had a good day it has been a while..come on lets play..luvya Take care Mystic
Posted by mystic on July 21, 2004, at 6:51:40
In reply to Re: Sandy, posted by SandyWeb on April 8, 2004, at 15:08:38
SANDY SANDY SANDY...WHERE ARE YOU !!!!!!!!..MYSTIC
Posted by SandyWeb on July 21, 2004, at 10:40:58
In reply to Re: Sandy, posted by mystic on July 21, 2004, at 6:51:40
Don't worry, Mystic. Everything is going to be all right.
Sandy
Posted by mystic on July 21, 2004, at 19:08:28
In reply to Re: Sandy, posted by mystic on July 20, 2004, at 18:20:13
Now sandy that wasnt too much participation or too much information...tell me what is going on with you....mystic
Posted by SandyWeb on July 22, 2004, at 10:42:26
In reply to Re: Sandy, posted by mystic on July 21, 2004, at 19:08:28
Hi Mystic,
I had been posting here for a bit:
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20040706/msgs/366681.html
Now I'm going to try and live in the moment. I'm going to try and not project into the future (which, I have to admit, seems pretty bleak to me), and I'm going to try and steer clear of the past.
Ugh, I'm not sure how well I'll do with this...but I guess if I can stick around long enough for my kids to grow up, then I've achieved an INCREDIBLE success.
Okay, our 5 for the day:
1. I quit attending the sessions with my "team". It was pointless.
2. I've asked to be removed from the Day Treatment Program that starts next month. It would have been pointless due to my bleak future. Just stupid.
3. I went to a different doctor at the University, instead of the lady who doesn't like me, and got a refill for my Seroquel. Not very pleased with the med (doesn't seem to help me sleep much), but I'd rather have it than not have it.
4. I ate HALF a chocolate pudding cake last night with my daughter!!!! I thought I was going to EXPLODE!!!!
5. Received an email yesterday from the cop who was here the night I slit my wrist wide open. (Nice of him to contact me again after we bumped into each other on the street recently). I don't know. Maybe this helps me not be so freaked out over the countless cops I saw over that short time period. Over-kill!!
Sorry to be "down" today. I just feel like I've been cycling since getting out of the hospital. I have one messed-up little brain.
Sandy
Posted by SandyWeb on July 22, 2004, at 13:07:17
In reply to Mystic, posted by SandyWeb on July 22, 2004, at 10:42:26
We had a phone call today from one of the officers that was at my apartment. He was one of the "angels", if you remember those two from April.
He is going to pick Carly up tomorrow (in his cop car, no less!! Lol!) and drive her over to the horse stables. Then she will get to work with another officer and the police horse!!! They will drive her back home later in the day.
Carly is sooooo excited that her hands were shaking! Lol! I think I'm just as excited as she is!!! WooHoo!!!!! I am so thankful that this officer kept Carly in his thoughts after all this time. This is the most wonderful gift that he could have given her!!!!
Hey, I don't feel freaked out by the cops anymore. *smile* God keeps talking to me, you know?
Hugs to all,
Sandy
Posted by partlycloudy on July 22, 2004, at 13:49:43
In reply to How Exciting!!!!!, posted by SandyWeb on July 22, 2004, at 13:07:17
First of all - it really is wonderful to see you posting here again.
Secondly, does that mean that Carly gets the Good Cop? And horse stables - that is so wonderful to be able to see. I used to drive past the State Police stables every day to work and loved to see those beautiful animals.
And last of all - Sandy, I'm very serious here. I know you have opted out of the team and their mighty plans for you. Are you doing this one day at a time instead? One foot in front of the other? You must promise us all - cross your heart just like those bras that only fit pointy boobed women - that if that freakin' veil comes floating your way, you'll either
ask for help yourself, or
ask us for help, and
you won't pretend that everything is hunky dory when it isn't.
And the only reason I'm making these rules is because I love you.
Posted by SandyWeb on July 22, 2004, at 18:44:24
In reply to Re: How Exciting!!!!! » SandyWeb, posted by partlycloudy on July 22, 2004, at 13:49:43
Hey PartyCloud (hee!),
I'll let you know how it goes with the police tomorrow. We had already been told by another cop that it was impossible for a civilian to work with the police horse due to liability issues. I'm so thankful that cops still have a certain amount of leeway in making decisions. Yippee for Carly!!!
I have some books being delivered from the library tomorrow. Maybe we'll be able to do that "reading club" this time around. I'll let you know later, in the Books section, what items arrived.
Thanks for being so loving.
Sandy
Posted by SandyWeb on July 23, 2004, at 17:06:51
In reply to Re: How Exciting!!!!! » SandyWeb, posted by partlycloudy on July 22, 2004, at 13:49:43
> You must promise us all - cross your heart just like those bras that only fit pointy boobed women - that if that freakin' veil comes floating your way, you'll either
> ask for help yourself, or
> ask us for help, and
> you won't pretend that everything is hunky dory when it isn't.
> And the only reason I'm making these rules is because I love you.<Okay, PC.
I'm not doing great. But you know what I did? I called my "team", and I've got an appointment for Tuesday afternoon. I have no idea what to talk about, but I know that I need to know that I'm not hoofing it alone. It was rather scary to cut the cord from my "team".
I'm up and down so many times a day. When I'm up I'm optimistic, and when I'm down I'm suicidal. And I'm freaking out! I don't feel stable at all. So I don't know what the appointment will do for me (might actually make it worse!), but at least I know I've got them. Right?
Why am I bouncing around so much? I can't do it alone, so it's good to know that I don't have to. But my mind's going to be my own un-doing! Ugh.
1. Carly got to ride in a cop car today!!
2. Carly spent a few hours working with another cop and the horses.
3. We are having yummy chicken tonight for supper.
4. "The Jury" is on tv tonight. I like this new show.
5. It wasn't nearly as humid today, although the cop who picked up Carly was having a difficult time wearing his vest. Lol!!
Sandy
Posted by partlycloudy on July 23, 2004, at 17:47:43
In reply to Okay » partlycloudy, posted by SandyWeb on July 23, 2004, at 17:06:51
Sandy, thank you for making another appointment with the team. Your ups and downs are absolutely terrifying, and you are doing the right thing in going back to them next week. If they sound like they are going too fast for you with that timeline thing, you are the person in control. You already know that they can't make you do something you don't want to do (or aren't ready to do). Did you show them that document you posted here and sent to me? I can't remember, thanks to meds.
Carly's day sounds really cool! And she gets to have a yummy chicken dinner! It's quite amazing that you can do that when you are feeling so badly.
hugs to you - and was the cop cute?
Posted by mystic on July 23, 2004, at 18:57:31
In reply to Okay » partlycloudy, posted by SandyWeb on July 23, 2004, at 17:06:51
Thank you sandy that was good....so here is mine..it has been a rough day and very emotional..but here goes if you can do it i can..
1.. I got through ok just ok but ok with my first EMDR session with the hottie dr..
2 Immediately after my appt I was on my way to my daughters house to see my wonderful grandson and equally if not more wonderful daughter Melissa..
3.... I spent lunch with my daughter my grandson and a very good friend and her 2 daughters..
4... I made it through grocery shopping without freeking out after my day..
5... I am e-mailing with a wonderful new friend and feeling ok tonight just ok but I'm here I'm ok and that is good..
So thankyou sandy I'm glad we shared..Your freind Mystic....Hey you have to admit sandy it does feel good to get it down to listing at least 5..sometimes difficult but feels good...!!!!
Posted by SandyWeb on July 23, 2004, at 19:01:20
In reply to RE::: Sandy, posted by mystic on July 23, 2004, at 18:57:31
Mystic and PartyCloud,
Guess I messed up. No surprise. Like I said, I'm not very thick skinned.
I'll let you know how my appointment on Tuesday goes. I'm going to step away from Babble for a bit. I could KICK myself for just wanting to cry and cry and cry. Sorry guys.
Sandy
Posted by partlycloudy on July 23, 2004, at 19:16:15
In reply to RE::: Sandy, posted by SandyWeb on July 23, 2004, at 19:01:20
There are lots of hugs here. It's ok to cry and my skin is thinner than yours, I promise. Take care.
Posted by SandyWeb on July 25, 2004, at 19:22:26
In reply to RE::: Sandy, posted by mystic on July 23, 2004, at 18:57:31
Yikes. You know how I was given an emergency appointment for this Tuesday? Well, the crisis unit phoned on Friday to confirm....and then they just called again today (Sunday). And it was the same nurse! I feel like they are checking up on me to see if they can ascertain how I'm doing from my voice. Now I'm freaked that they may be getting a bed ready for me!!
Well, if I don't post on Tuesday, you know what happened. And I'm really uncomfortable about this appointment too. I feel so unstable, and I'm scared they will know.
We shall see. Well, if I get put in the hospital again, at least I won't have to be making supper every night!! Lol!! It's nice to have restaurant-style food for every meal!
Have a great day!
Sandy
Posted by partlycloudy on July 26, 2004, at 6:52:06
In reply to My Appointment, posted by SandyWeb on July 25, 2004, at 19:22:26
((((Sandy)))) please don't be afraid to let them know exactly how they're doing. They won't hurt you, but they can't help you if you put on the Brave Sandy face and glibly accept their "plan", even though you feel you're completely unprepared to take it on right now.
In the meantime, post or email us. We're right here for you.
pc
Posted by SandyWeb on July 26, 2004, at 21:54:05
In reply to Re: My Appointment » SandyWeb, posted by partlycloudy on July 26, 2004, at 6:52:06
Well, the computer gremlins have been busy visiting my pooter. I have NO idea what happened, but I seem to have lost my Outlook Express. It's still there (all the components are there), but it won't load certain components anymore. DANG!!!!! I have Norton anti-virus, and I do NOT open attachments. I even ran a full scan, and went to Microsoft and reloaded a new Outlook Express. Still FRIED!!! Argh!
I've transferred all my group mail to my hotmail address, but I can't get my personal mail. Boo hoo!!! If anyone sent me a message, you can reach me at sandyweb65 at hotmail dot com.
Jeepers, I even reloaded the entire Windows 98 version that I have!! What the heck happened??
Boy, do I ever hate reading my emails at hotmail. Not the best entertainmnet to see girls' belly-buttons and people smooching when I'm trying to read. *smile*
Enjoy your evening!
Sandy
Posted by partlycloudy on July 27, 2004, at 7:27:02
In reply to DANG! My email is fried!!!!, posted by SandyWeb on July 26, 2004, at 21:54:05
Boo hoo! You means your sprint email? Can you call their tech support? Maybe they can put you on hold for 2 hours and then tell you they can't help? Just joking - maybe it is on their end.
(Good lucky today at your appointment. Be yourself, Sandy, and you'll be OK.)
Posted by SandyWeb on July 27, 2004, at 7:52:03
In reply to Re: DANG! My email is fried!!!! » SandyWeb, posted by partlycloudy on July 27, 2004, at 7:27:02
Hi pc,
I've got my email back. WooHoo!! Microsoft came out with a brand new critical update last night, and guess what for?? The Outlook Express! Seems there is a new critter that likes to disable your Outlook Express. I have an anti-virus program and I don't open attachments. The only thing I can think of is that I received an email that night that was a picture....which usually pictures are not allowed through on my email due to virus protection. And it was disgusting pictures of teenage sex! I guess there's no such thing as 100% protection against viruses. At least Microsoft was on top of things and had a security patch ready within a few hours. And Norton just had some new virus protectors to download this morning. Phew!! I hated losing my Outlook Express!!!!!!!
Yes, the countdown is on for my appointment today. I feel sick to my tummy. I don't like being the center of attention. I don't like all 4 of them watching me when I talk! I hate all those eyes on me.
Okay, now I'm off to read all the messages that I missed. By the way, did you know that Dr. Bob is deleting whole threads? He must be pretty frustrated by what happened during his absence.
Hugs,
Sandy
Posted by SandyWeb on July 27, 2004, at 15:46:58
In reply to Re: My Appointment » SandyWeb, posted by partlycloudy on July 26, 2004, at 6:52:06
I don't even know why I went to that appointment today. What a waste. I felt like standing up and walking out on them. It was horrible.
Anyways, the sessions are now over with my "team". I knew it was only short-term follow-up. Once the Day Treatment Program begins, I no longer see my "team". After the Day Treatment Program ends, then I begin with someone long-term...if I need it.
I felt humiliated and be-littled in that session. I had the thought running through my head that it's just time to walk out and slit my wrist. What the heck is the darn point? They just didn't GET IT. And then they said something like, "I wish you the best"....and kicked me out the door. End of story.
I felt like crying walking out the door. I felt like crying waiting for the dang elevator. I felt like crying walking all the way home. And then I walked into the store and bought a bottle. I haven't done that in AGES. Someone needs to take the blinders off of these professionals. They just don't GET IT. And there I am, shaking and jumpy...can't sit still...and they just talk crap. Just a bunch of crap. Has absolutely no relevence to ME. What the heck??
So I will pour myself a drink tonight...or maybe two...or maybe three....
I don't want anything more to do with "professionals". Why would I EVER reveal anything to THEM? I can't trust them. They don't hear me. They have narrow vision. And all I'm going to do is say "yes" or "no". If I'm asked to open up, I'm not going to.
I felt like I was sent to the principal's office and lectured at today. Thanks so much! Yup, that made me feel tons better. Job well done, professionals!
Give me some good reasons why I should attend that Day Treatment Program!!!! I'm not some barbie doll on an assembly line. LISTEN TO ME!!! Thanks so much for making it even clearer to me that I should just slit my wrist again. Bunch of crap.
Sorry....I just felt really de-valued today.
Sandy
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