Posted by SandyWeb on July 27, 2004, at 15:46:58
In reply to Re: My Appointment » SandyWeb, posted by partlycloudy on July 26, 2004, at 6:52:06
I don't even know why I went to that appointment today. What a waste. I felt like standing up and walking out on them. It was horrible.
Anyways, the sessions are now over with my "team". I knew it was only short-term follow-up. Once the Day Treatment Program begins, I no longer see my "team". After the Day Treatment Program ends, then I begin with someone long-term...if I need it.
I felt humiliated and be-littled in that session. I had the thought running through my head that it's just time to walk out and slit my wrist. What the heck is the darn point? They just didn't GET IT. And then they said something like, "I wish you the best"....and kicked me out the door. End of story.
I felt like crying walking out the door. I felt like crying waiting for the dang elevator. I felt like crying walking all the way home. And then I walked into the store and bought a bottle. I haven't done that in AGES. Someone needs to take the blinders off of these professionals. They just don't GET IT. And there I am, shaking and jumpy...can't sit still...and they just talk crap. Just a bunch of crap. Has absolutely no relevence to ME. What the heck??
So I will pour myself a drink tonight...or maybe two...or maybe three....
I don't want anything more to do with "professionals". Why would I EVER reveal anything to THEM? I can't trust them. They don't hear me. They have narrow vision. And all I'm going to do is say "yes" or "no". If I'm asked to open up, I'm not going to.
I felt like I was sent to the principal's office and lectured at today. Thanks so much! Yup, that made me feel tons better. Job well done, professionals!
Give me some good reasons why I should attend that Day Treatment Program!!!! I'm not some barbie doll on an assembly line. LISTEN TO ME!!! Thanks so much for making it even clearer to me that I should just slit my wrist again. Bunch of crap.
Sorry....I just felt really de-valued today.
Sandy
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