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Posted by rjlockhart37 on February 18, 2013, at 22:25:45
i havent posted much on this board but i wanted to drop in and discuss something
I've had couple dreams of people coming to rescue me out of my helpless state...not in reality, but more how i feel deep inside...no matter how much i talk about it, think about it, or go out in life and get it fulfilled, its still there...these dreams are sorrow filled, like im some little kid whos lost and screaming for someone to come. But im 25....im still living at home ... and the reason of living at home is because 1 its safe, 2 i don't run a risk of getting rebuked or humilated by someone 3 its a place to let be at peace and put my plan together how im gonna get out in life. Just the fact that i can't open my heart up to someone causes me to be bottled up....because there's a big risk of rejection especially when i let myself be vunerable, which is in my dreams and when im alone at night.
You know i've been posting to this site for 10 yearrs...i've had pity parties, false SOS's, couple trolling posts, attention sekking stuff and making everything dramitic. But now, im posting only of who I am sitting behind this screen...im simply a 25 year old who is afraid, and scared of people and can't connect due to some disabilities. All i wanted was friends, not to sit at home and be scared and hoping someone will come and pick me up and take me under their wing. But its not a real thing...that's not gonna happen, its not real, its a fantasy.I can't really explain it well, i just want to be barried safe in someone arms. But anyways i made it to where i comfort myself, yet it doesnt work vary well....
being at parties, the prom, career events...just anything that envolves working with people....i never want to feel lonely again...
i just wished i could find someone who can relate...but this is something that is my own problem.
but that's all....don't feel sorry for me...because it will create more sorrow and a burden to think about....
thanks for reading friend...
r
Posted by baseball55 on February 19, 2013, at 19:10:55
In reply to longing secret, posted by rjlockhart37 on February 18, 2013, at 22:25:45
Have you ever had therapy? You write a lot about seeing docs for meds, but never seeing someone for therapy. Yet it seems you need therapy more than you need meds. Why don't you see a therapist? I've asked you this before and you haven't responded. In fact, I find that you rarely respond to people. You just post your stuff and ignore responses.
Posted by Dinah on February 20, 2013, at 9:13:03
In reply to longing secret, posted by rjlockhart37 on February 18, 2013, at 22:25:45
Dreams of rescue are common to us all. I still want to be rescued. It's hard to admit that while there may be assistance, there is unlikely to be rescue. In the end we *are* alone in a fundamental way.
Would your mother allow you to see a therapist? I think it could be helpful.
Posted by Phillipa on February 20, 2013, at 9:49:18
In reply to Re: longing secret » rjlockhart37, posted by Dinah on February 20, 2013, at 9:13:03
RJ have you seen a therapist ever? I don't recall if you did or not? Phillipa
Posted by rjlockhart37 on February 20, 2013, at 12:26:06
In reply to Re: longing secret, posted by Phillipa on February 20, 2013, at 9:49:18
i forgot to post that i do see a specialist as a therpist/psychologist....he's well known ... its called right brain therapy....i've discussed spiritual isses with him...but what really is a hunch is that i don't discuss these issues with my dreams because its just....its too deep...like i said its kinda of secret that i long to have....and of course you know me...i post everything here on babble to vent....and im not doing it for attention purposes..many times in the past i did post attention seeksing posts...but its just i've got to get it out and let someone hear it.
What happened in the session last time was i discussed some things of this....and he's working slowly to find a solution....but really i just wished he was a psychodynamitc therpist where i can anything....
i know its silly not to tell him the whole story...its just something i keep inside because ill get vunerable if i reveal it. Babble i can tell whats going on and not have to worry for it getting in the real world.
But still I regret posting these posts of TMI of my thoughts....ill just get in the moment to post everything...but yes i am seeing a therpist...i see him every 2 weeks....so until i can deal with this pain....ill be better when its solved..
thanks everyone for posting...
r
Posted by baseball55 on February 20, 2013, at 19:54:04
In reply to Re: longing secret, posted by rjlockhart37 on February 20, 2013, at 12:26:06
I think you should see a therapist every week, instead of every two, and you should tell him EVERYTHING. The whole point of therapy is to build a relationship of mutual trust - you trust them to help you and keep your secrets and they trust you to be honest and tell them what's going on. Without that, therapy is a waste of time.
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