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Posted by tetrix on October 6, 2009, at 16:32:14
Hello everybody -
I am going through a very difficult situation in my life. Tremendous challenges and difficulties, I started to think about suicide lately and things seem to get worse from day to day.
I guess I have noone to talk to about it.. not even my T. I just block when she is there.
I just had such a difficult life, I dont understand why I get those challenges, it doesnt end. I am starting to think that I am cursed.
Posted by BayLeaf on October 7, 2009, at 20:19:14
In reply to complaining, posted by tetrix on October 6, 2009, at 16:32:14
Seriously - maybe it's time to take a chance and trust your T. Having suicidal feelings is no way to live. It just plain sucks. Please talk to your T. He/she got into this biz to help people in just this situation. Your T wants to hear from you. Seriously. Please call and tell your T that you need to talk about something important. Then just do it. If it's too hard to say, write it down, and just hand it over. It needs to be shared in person, not just online.
Promise Ms Bay you will tell your T. Ooorrr....umm...I'll....um....hrrrumph.
Just tell your T. It's super important.
Bay (tetrix)
Posted by Phillipa on October 8, 2009, at 0:19:49
In reply to Re: complaining * suicide ideation trigger * » tetrix, posted by BayLeaf on October 7, 2009, at 20:19:14
I know the feelings and they are horrible. Your're lucky to have A T and please do listen to Bay and call. Anything I can to do to help? Phillipa
Posted by Dinah on October 8, 2009, at 8:31:42
In reply to complaining, posted by tetrix on October 6, 2009, at 16:32:14
If you blank out in session, do you think you might find it helpful to write down the thoughts you have difficulty expressing, and bring the writings to her? I used to do that a lot with my therapist.
I also sometimes ask him to look away or close his eyes when I tell him something difficult. And have been known, though I'm not proud to admit it, to tell him things with my hair pulled over my face, or my head bent so far that I can't possibly see him or be seen myself.
Are you afraid of her reaction?
Posted by tetrix on October 8, 2009, at 9:06:18
In reply to Re: complaining, posted by Dinah on October 8, 2009, at 8:31:42
Thank you all for listening and your suggestions -
Bay
I am not sure why I blank out - I am not afraid of her reaction at all, I just cant share with her in person while I have no problem writing her emails.
We used to do that, I would email and we would discuss it in a session but now she asked me to stop doing that and start talking instead and we are back to square one again.I am going to see her tomorrow and will try to force myself to talk.
Dinah
Perhaps I would take your suggestion, it was something we discussed with my T as a possibility as well.Phillipa
It is good to know that someone understands my pain, it makes me feel less lonely.. thank you for just listening.
I have finally decided to start taking my first anti depressant - celexa. I am starting tonight.
Posted by Phillipa on October 8, 2009, at 19:48:18
In reply to Re:thanks for your support Bay, Phillipa and Dinah, posted by tetrix on October 8, 2009, at 9:06:18
Seriously good luck and please post your results. Phillipa
Posted by sassyfrancesca on October 9, 2009, at 13:05:38
In reply to complaining, posted by tetrix on October 6, 2009, at 16:32:14
Hi, sweeetie: I hope you will talk to your t; that is what he/she is there for....to HELP you. You may feel relieved.
I understand a hard life; I was abused as a child (physical, verbal and molested); then I married an abuser for 31 years and got a divorce and then was abused by a church: www.churchabusepoetrytherapy.com
I won a scholarship, because of what I experienced in my life; I have also written my memoir (I used all of the ugliness to my advantage in a way, LOL)
I hope you will talk to your t and let us know how it went.
Love n Hugs, sassy
Posted by BayLeaf on October 9, 2009, at 18:29:18
In reply to complaining, posted by tetrix on October 6, 2009, at 16:32:14
how are u you doing? when do you see your T next? what's the plan for communicating?? hmmm??? :-)
bay
Posted by tetrix on October 10, 2009, at 13:38:20
In reply to Re: complaining....sooooo? » tetrix, posted by BayLeaf on October 9, 2009, at 18:29:18
Sassy, I am sorry to hear about the challenges that you had to go through.. in a way it makes me feel like I am not alone in my struggle.. it is just so hard, especially when you have to do this alone..
I had a very difficult childhood, I lived in different countries, experienced wars, saw people die, I also was molested and abused. I have alot of anxiety and my last experience left me depressed to a point where I want to end my lifeBay, I had my session yesterday and I did force myself to talk. When I would stop talking, my T would jump in to get the conversation going. She just listens mostly..
We discussed ways and activities that I could do to relieve anxiety .. it is just so hard to get things rolling..
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