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Posted by FPark on January 31, 2009, at 23:03:37
There is too much work, need to be best at all.
my birth mother sent pictures in the mail recently with 'remember' on the back, known for calling and hanging up after yelling, kicked me out of house during first year of college, beautiful family with dad and his girlfriend, younger sister (had to watch her grow up with all the love/attention i never got...but he worked too much). terrible little fights with significant other. feeling like, 'is this all there is to my life', no one to talk about, attempted to talk with significant other on this..no real conversation. pet fish are sick, also causes stress. feel like shutting down quite often, wish i could get away to a small island with no work, due dates, jobs (working a couple), feeling absolutely drained and like a disappointment not worthy of everything i've got. paying my way through college, for phone, car insurance, health bills etc. have been more or less independent since very very young and extremely, debilitatingly angry about it. no close friends around, family far away. advice? words of comfort?
Posted by sharon7 on February 1, 2009, at 0:18:02
In reply to its very late, family is asleep, posted by FPark on January 31, 2009, at 23:03:37
((FPark)) I'm sorry you are feeling so overwhelmed right now. There's nothing at all wrong with you wanting just to get away to a deserted island with no responsibilities weighing on you. I think most of us have felt that way at one time or another. I'm sorry you don't have any one to talk to about these issues. Are you able to speak with a therapist? Sure sounds like you're busy, but you really do need someone you can pour your heart out to so you aren't keeping it all inside. Writing the post was a good thing. Sometimes even just getting your feelings out by writing them down can be of some releif.
I hope you are feeling better soon. Take care of yourself. That's so important. I'll say a prayer for you. Sleep well.
- Sharon
Posted by Phillipa on February 1, 2009, at 12:54:03
In reply to Re: its very late, family is asleep, posted by sharon7 on February 1, 2009, at 0:18:02
How are you today? Phillipa
Posted by FPark on February 1, 2009, at 12:57:48
In reply to Re: its very late, family is asleep, posted by Phillipa on February 1, 2009, at 12:54:03
> How are you today? Phillipa
i have a lot of work, and im just in bed. it's too much and too overwhelming and everything else has made me so upset that it's impossible for all of this work to get done. and that in itself is upsetting. i don't want to do any of it, i don't want to move. the cost of a therapist or of medications is too much for me to pay.
Posted by Phillipa on February 1, 2009, at 20:02:44
In reply to Re: its very late, family is asleep, posted by FPark on February 1, 2009, at 12:57:48
I'm sorry you do sound depressed do you feel you are? Phillipa
Posted by FPark on February 1, 2009, at 20:11:31
In reply to Re: its very late, family is asleep » FPark, posted by Phillipa on February 1, 2009, at 20:02:44
i'm not sure, i know i have a family history, but i feel more like it comes and goes. a lot of it seems dependent on outside factors (deadlines, other peoples' opinions of me), but then sometimes i'm just upset or sad when everything is going just fine. or i just don't care that anything really nice is happening when it does, it doesn't seem to affect me. so then its less of a sadness and more of a general not caring. this kind of attitude has affected my relationships with friends, family, and significant others in the past and even right now. i wish i could just snap out of it like people are telling me and like i feel i should be able to. i should be able to control my emotions and reactions to be nicer to others and more happy.
Posted by Phillipa on February 1, 2009, at 20:22:23
In reply to Re: its very late, family is asleep, posted by FPark on February 1, 2009, at 20:11:31
Sounds like you could be a combo and theraphy? Might want to post on meds boards also. See what replies you get as far as depression. Phillipa
Posted by wittgensteinz on February 2, 2009, at 4:35:13
In reply to its very late, family is asleep, posted by FPark on January 31, 2009, at 23:03:37
FPark,
You sound very desperate. You say you can't afford meds or therapy - obviously it depends where you live but many therapists offer a sliding scale. Perhaps there are also free clinics? Have you looked into these options? Have you also thought to turn to support beyond your immediate family situation - for example from an encounter group or some kind of meditation/yoga group? There you might find people who won't just say "snap out of it" - I'm sure you'd 'snap out of it' if you could but it's not so simple as that. I'm sorry for the way you feel about your youth/childhood. That's a lot of pain and anger to carry for one person. No wonder this is spilling out into your current relationships. It seems like you do need help - is there no way of getting some financial support form your SO or your family?
I hope the fish get better soon too ;)
Witti
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