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Posted by obsidian on December 22, 2008, at 18:09:25
I feel so absolutely horrible about myself again. Am I a horrible person? I'm saying "again" because I recognize that I have felt this way before, and that I managed not to stay preoccupied with it.
I feel like I can't do anything right. I f*ck up everything it seems.
maybe it's the holdidays...they feel just a tad unrealistic.
yuck :-(
Posted by muffled on December 22, 2008, at 20:07:33
In reply to wow...I feel awful again, posted by obsidian on December 22, 2008, at 18:09:25
((((sid)))))))
I got no good answers.
I just find Christmas hard and I dunno why.
Please be safe and try and ride this out.
Take care.
Muffled
Posted by obsidian on December 22, 2008, at 21:52:26
In reply to Re: wow...I feel awful again, posted by muffled on December 22, 2008, at 20:07:33
thanks muffs,
I just want to go to bed ya know?
I seem to want to do that in response to most things though. I just feel so sensitive to like...everything.
sorry christmas is hard for you too.
I think I'll be ok if I can just get through the next couple of days, maybe then I won't feel under pressure and therefore not so overwhelmed.
seems like most things are endurance tests for me. I better sleep now.
peace on earth, all that good stuff ;-)
((((muffled))))
Posted by rskontos on December 22, 2008, at 21:54:12
In reply to wow...I feel awful again, posted by obsidian on December 22, 2008, at 18:09:25
Obsidian,
you have never been awful. I think it is just these holidays that gets a person down.
I am so sorry you feel bad.
The season to be jolly will be over soon, so don't fret. I think it is these cold, dreary days too that add to our bad feelings.
take care,
rsk
Posted by obsidian on December 22, 2008, at 22:01:10
In reply to Re: wow...I feel awful again » obsidian, posted by rskontos on December 22, 2008, at 21:54:12
thanks rsk...
it is quite cold and dreary
bitterly cold outside
when does spring come again??
-sid
Posted by DAisym on December 23, 2008, at 2:10:26
In reply to Re: wow...I feel awful again » rskontos, posted by obsidian on December 22, 2008, at 22:01:10
They say Spring blooms in the heart when you hear a child laugh or smell a newborn's head. Maybe we need a list of what makes us feel good, even when it is cold outside. Or especially when it is cold outside.
I must say that my cat seems very happy to sit with me these days. So I can feel good about being good to him.
Posted by Wittgensteinz on December 23, 2008, at 6:50:33
In reply to wow...I feel awful again, posted by obsidian on December 22, 2008, at 18:09:25
Obsidian, no you are NOT a horrible person. You feel horrible but that doesn't equate to BEING horrible. It's a pity that's so hard to see and feel whilst in the midst of it.
I'm finding Christmas hard too - today am doing ok but gosh the pain can be so intense :( and I imagine many of us are in the same boat - it's just that time of the year - poignant or 'gevoelig' as we say in Dutch.
I'm impressed that you are able to step back and see that the last time you were able to move out of it - I hope you can do the same this time.In the mean time, sending you warm wishes and hugs over from Holland ((((Obsidian))))
Witti
Posted by Wittgensteinz on December 23, 2008, at 6:51:49
In reply to Re: wow...I feel awful again » obsidian, posted by rskontos on December 22, 2008, at 21:54:12
I just read your post and had to smile at this sentence:
"The season to be jolly will be over soon, so don't fret."
Beautifully put!
Witti
Posted by onceupon on December 23, 2008, at 9:33:29
In reply to wow...I feel awful again, posted by obsidian on December 22, 2008, at 18:09:25
Hi Sid,
I'm gonna go out on a limb and say that you're probably not a horrible person. Just an educated guess based on reading your posts.
And as for holidays, I'd like to say f*ck the expectations that come with them. Because they really suck sometimes. Have you ever read The Corrections? IMO, a fabulous commentary on (among other things) the need to have the holidays *just so* while being blind to the family realities in front of us.
Posted by rskontos on December 23, 2008, at 12:11:00
In reply to Re: wow...I feel awful again » rskontos, posted by obsidian on December 22, 2008, at 22:01:10
Not soon enough for sure.
rsk
Posted by rskontos on December 23, 2008, at 12:12:01
In reply to Re: wow...I feel awful again » rskontos, posted by Wittgensteinz on December 23, 2008, at 6:51:49
Posted by obsidian on December 23, 2008, at 12:50:52
In reply to Re: Thanks Witti....... (nm) » Wittgensteinz, posted by rskontos on December 23, 2008, at 12:12:01
it really means so much to me
you guys are so great
thanks :-)
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