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Posted by Angela2 on May 6, 2008, at 16:03:00
I decided, a couple of days ago, to be more aggressive in making progress because I haven't really seen much lately.
A few weeks ago, I told my therapist that I wasn't sure if therapy was working because I didn't feel like I was getting better. And she said "Or do you mean you're not getting better as fast as you want?" This annoyed me bc it seems like she is fine with the way I'm rpogressing and I am not. And I want us to be on the same page. Being in therapy with this particular therapist is nice though. And I don't think it's harming me at all. I should prolly talk to her about how I feel.
Anywho, I am setting a goal of 4 months to be recovered. Maybe it will be sooner. Maybe it will be later. But I have set aside a cubby hole in my room to put the journals I write in from now until September.
I know that in order to get better I will have to do the opposite. Face my fears. And oh my gosh that scares me so much. I resist. I signed up for an aerobics class with my mom and I won't even do that. I feel like such a baby.
Today I went to an intake appointment for living in that residence I talked about in other logs. It went pretty well and the woman I talked to said she thinks the residence would be for me.
The one thing I am a little concerned about though, and only a little, because I'm trying not to think about it, is just throwing myself into a situation. That's what I did when I was house sitting and I was quite anxious for a while. On the other hand, it could be a good thing.
Posted by Dinah on May 6, 2008, at 21:02:54
In reply to Log - looking for progress, looking to hide, posted by Angela2 on May 6, 2008, at 16:03:00
There are some fairly aggressive anxiety treatments out there. Does your therapist do CBT and exposure and response prevention and things like that?
"Recovered" is a pretty big goal in four months. Can you break it up into smaller pieces and set shorter term goals? My recollection of CBT steps for anxiety is that they break them down pretty far into their very smallest pieces. Like going to aerobics class might mean putting on your aerobics clothing, then getting to the place where it's held, then participating. Actually, it's probably broken down into even more pieces. Like the first step might be visualizing going to aerobics class.
It's been a while. I never got past the step of watching TV shows of people throwing up. I'd put down the book at just the thought.
Posted by ClearSkies on May 7, 2008, at 9:15:04
In reply to Log - looking for progress, looking to hide, posted by Angela2 on May 6, 2008, at 16:03:00
I think you're pretty brave to have gone to the intake interview - that was huge! Taking a concrete step to do something for your own development is wonderful and something that I hope you can congratulate yourself for. At the same time, taking those steps is a frightening thing and I would want to hide and feel as safe as possible, too.
Don't downplay the strides that you've made, Angela. Maybe we set our personal goals a bit too high sometimes and that's when we let ourselves down - instead we can look at where we are today and be happy that we are exactly where we're supposed to be on this day, and no where else! (Wouldn't that be a great feeling?)
CS
Posted by Angela2 on May 8, 2008, at 12:36:35
In reply to Re: Log - looking for progress, looking to hide » Angela2, posted by Dinah on May 6, 2008, at 21:02:54
yeah she does CBT and she gives me homework each week. I forgot what my homeowrk is for next week so I called her and left a message.
I think recovered is the wrong word. I guess just to be able to manage my anxiety better and just have a significant amt. of progress.
We have done visualization before like picturing a river and my thoughts floating by
Posted by Angela2 on May 8, 2008, at 12:37:56
In reply to Re: Log - looking for progress, looking to hide » Angela2, posted by ClearSkies on May 7, 2008, at 9:15:04
I think that's a good way to look at it CS. Thanks!
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