Posted by Angela2 on May 6, 2008, at 16:03:00
I decided, a couple of days ago, to be more aggressive in making progress because I haven't really seen much lately.
A few weeks ago, I told my therapist that I wasn't sure if therapy was working because I didn't feel like I was getting better. And she said "Or do you mean you're not getting better as fast as you want?" This annoyed me bc it seems like she is fine with the way I'm rpogressing and I am not. And I want us to be on the same page. Being in therapy with this particular therapist is nice though. And I don't think it's harming me at all. I should prolly talk to her about how I feel.
Anywho, I am setting a goal of 4 months to be recovered. Maybe it will be sooner. Maybe it will be later. But I have set aside a cubby hole in my room to put the journals I write in from now until September.
I know that in order to get better I will have to do the opposite. Face my fears. And oh my gosh that scares me so much. I resist. I signed up for an aerobics class with my mom and I won't even do that. I feel like such a baby.
Today I went to an intake appointment for living in that residence I talked about in other logs. It went pretty well and the woman I talked to said she thinks the residence would be for me.
The one thing I am a little concerned about though, and only a little, because I'm trying not to think about it, is just throwing myself into a situation. That's what I did when I was house sitting and I was quite anxious for a while. On the other hand, it could be a good thing.
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