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Posted by muffled on December 5, 2007, at 13:06:57
I started a new med. I dunno if its med, or me, or physical health.
Dunno.
Feel like my brains not working so good.
Risperdal. Dunno if I wanto continue w/it if it gonna make me dense(er).
Then today too, I seem to be having some emotions, they are closer to the surface.
I am so unsued to anything but the most very muted emotions. They are so muted its almost like I observe my emots rather than actually feel them.
Actually feeling them SUCKS. Cuz them I seem to start feeling them more and more, and diff ones, and I get confused. They are not super powerful I don't suppose, I just not used to them.
It starts to overwhelm me......not a good state of affairs...thats when poor coping mechanisms kick in.
So I post bout my good session, mebbe that'll make me feel better.
Its not helping matters that I just heard that two young people were killed this morning, not far from here.
I cannot even begin to imagine how their families feel.
I would rather have all the bad sh*t thats happened to me, happen a hundred times over than to lose a child.
I hate emotions.
They suck.
They suck so bad.
I love my babies so much.
I wish that nothing would ever hurt them.
But I can't protect them from everything.
If I am not there, how can my rage protect them from anything?
I digress.
I will post happy things.
I will do right things.
M
Posted by llurpsienoodle on December 5, 2007, at 13:28:26
In reply to Dunno s'up?, posted by muffled on December 5, 2007, at 13:06:57
mufflie,
sometimes medications cause a kind of shock to the system, and your system might be responding with more lability (yes, I used that work with you on purpose hahaha). seriously though- if you find that you have an increase in negative and self-destructive thoughts, you contact your pdoc and T IMMEDIATELY.I have been on several medications that increased my desire to harm myself. I have ridden through those storms, understanding that the feelings will go away once my body adjusts. Only had to quit one med (geodon) for that purpose.
Bad news is so sad. You cannot protect your little ones from everything. Chances are that they are strong little creatures and can handle a lot on their own. "resilient". Kids are wonderful beings and should be cherished. Loss is abominable.
hugs for you,
-Ll
Posted by rskontos on December 5, 2007, at 15:23:04
In reply to Re: Dunno s'up? » muffled, posted by llurpsienoodle on December 5, 2007, at 13:28:26
Muffled, yeah new meds are like that sometimes, I agree with Li and if you continue to feel this way call the docs or T. You have been feeling better and it would suck to mess with that. But sometimes as my neuro says when you stir up brain chemistry it takes the body some time to adjust. I just that period is all.
So good luck muffled we sure do worry bout you in these parts
take care,
rsk
Posted by muffled on December 5, 2007, at 15:25:51
In reply to Re: Dunno s'up? » muffled, posted by llurpsienoodle on December 5, 2007, at 13:28:26
I think I will stop the risperdal.
Only 5 days, but its not getting better , I think worse.
I give up on it.
I am SO NOT med compliant.
Muffy gets an F in meds.
Big black **X** on Muffys chart.
Oh well.
I be fine...I always am.
Seriously.
I got parts.
I all cool.
This is chillin out Muffy :-)
Later man later :-o
Ha!
Posted by star008 on December 5, 2007, at 21:31:22
In reply to Yes, I am....labile....uggghhh!!!! » llurpsienoodle, posted by muffled on December 5, 2007, at 15:25:51
Hey Muffled.
Probably the meds.. I quit taking my remeron.. made me feel worse.. thought about the hopelessness and dying.. yahoooooo..Good time.
Had nightmares about my kids dying.. sh...t..
I decided I was done with that.. Ys, I am "noncompliant".. I flunked meds awhile ago!!
hang in there.. it will pass.. I was good though and did call the doc and told him Remeron wasn't so good for me.. I didn't tell him I quit taking them before I ever talked to him.. hee hee
Posted by rskontos on December 6, 2007, at 8:45:57
In reply to Re: Yes, I am....labile....uggghhh!!!!, posted by star008 on December 5, 2007, at 21:31:22
Yea, I picked my lex without telling anyone and I feel better without it. My t says it is my body so it is ok. She says when you have parts that meds are harder anyway. I said on my topamax. I upped it to help me lose the weight lex made me gain. I am bad girl but oh well.
Glad you are chillin' muffy....rk
Posted by muffled on December 6, 2007, at 15:04:22
In reply to Re: Yes, I am....labile....uggghhh!!!!, posted by star008 on December 5, 2007, at 21:31:22
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