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Posted by wishingstar on March 1, 2007, at 20:08:36
I paged Ginny.. odd right.. asking for help after everythnig this week. I was really torn on going to the hospital but I told her I'd do it, so I'm sticking to it. She said she'll kick my butt if I dont now that I've agreed. I'm actually feeling sort of ok right now but I know the scary-ness will be back.
Going to take a fast shower, pack, and go to the hospital. Hope to be out no later than Mon morning for an appt with a family (work) on Mon afternoon.
Thanks everyone for your support.
Posted by TherapyGirl on March 1, 2007, at 20:35:14
In reply to going to the hospital, posted by wishingstar on March 1, 2007, at 20:08:36
I'll be thinking about you, WS. I hope you get what you need.
Posted by Poet on March 1, 2007, at 20:40:26
In reply to going to the hospital, posted by wishingstar on March 1, 2007, at 20:08:36
Hi Wishingstar,
I'm surrounding you with white light. I hope things go well for you at the hospital, you've had such a tough time this week, and I hope you find what you need there.
((((wishingstar)))))
Poet
Posted by Iwillsurvive on March 1, 2007, at 20:48:04
In reply to going to the hospital, posted by wishingstar on March 1, 2007, at 20:08:36
OK. Its important to be safe. Very important. Glad you taking care of yourself. Will they admit you? Here they will not admit a person easily. I been pretty wacked and all they did was hold me in a 'safe' room, then boot me out a few hours later.....but I survived.
Hope you do receive what it is your are needing.
Take care.
Posted by peddidle on March 1, 2007, at 20:48:13
In reply to going to the hospital, posted by wishingstar on March 1, 2007, at 20:08:36
Good for you. Take care of yourself, and let Ginny help you, too. We'll be here when you get back.
(((wishingstar))) *teddybear hugs*
Posted by caraher on March 2, 2007, at 5:09:21
In reply to Re: going to the hospital, posted by peddidle on March 1, 2007, at 20:48:13
Despite feeling better by the time she arrived at the ER, Wishingstar has been admitted to the hospital. I was talking to her most of the time she was waiting (and played the crucial role of being the only one among her, the nurse and me who could spell "desipramine").
Her hope is to be released by Sunday morning, possibly Monday morning at the latest.
(((Wishingstar)))
Posted by widget on March 2, 2007, at 6:26:48
In reply to Re: going to the hospital-update, posted by caraher on March 2, 2007, at 5:09:21
Dear Caraher, Did you go with her to the hospital? Wow, I didn't realize people who post actually knew each other other than on the internet. What a great friend. Thank you for the news. I'm not sure why she is in the hospital but assume she will be safer there and just for a short time. Well done, caraher. Widget
Posted by gardenergirl on March 2, 2007, at 7:42:57
In reply to going to the hospital, posted by wishingstar on March 1, 2007, at 20:08:36
Take care. I'll be thinking of you and sending positive energy your way.
namaste
gg
Posted by Jo U.K on March 2, 2007, at 7:51:46
In reply to Re: going to the hospital » wishingstar, posted by gardenergirl on March 2, 2007, at 7:42:57
Wishing Wishingstar all the best of help and care.
Jo
Posted by LadyBug on March 2, 2007, at 8:10:57
In reply to going to the hospital, posted by wishingstar on March 1, 2007, at 20:08:36
Here's wishing you lots of good thoughts and hoping you feel better soon.
Take care, we'll be here when you return.
LadyBug
Posted by frida on March 2, 2007, at 9:17:10
In reply to Re: going to the hospital, posted by LadyBug on March 2, 2007, at 8:10:57
thinking of you too whishingstar
and sending you healing thoughts...
i hope they help and i hope Ginny helps you through this toohugs,
Frida
Posted by Phillipa on March 2, 2007, at 12:52:10
In reply to Re: going to the hospital, posted by frida on March 2, 2007, at 9:17:10
Good luck wishingstar. Love Phillipa
Posted by sunnydays on March 2, 2007, at 15:48:46
In reply to Re: going to the hospital, posted by Phillipa on March 2, 2007, at 12:52:10
((((((wishingstar)))))))))
Sending peaceful, caring, calm, comforting thoughts your way. You're in my thoughts.
sunnydays
Posted by Deneb on March 2, 2007, at 23:23:43
In reply to going to the hospital, posted by wishingstar on March 1, 2007, at 20:08:36
I'm thinking of you wishingstar. I hope you get the care and help you need. (((((Be safe))))))
Deneb*
Posted by Dinah on March 2, 2007, at 23:57:41
In reply to going to the hospital, posted by wishingstar on March 1, 2007, at 20:08:36
I think it's great that you're doing what you need to do to be safe. I hope it's a helpful experience.
Posted by caraher on March 3, 2007, at 12:35:49
In reply to Re: going to the hospital-update, posted by widget on March 2, 2007, at 6:26:48
I didn't go to the hospital with her, except as someone on the other end of the cell phone.
I spoke to her this morning. She's afraid she'll face a choice between saying the magic words that will let her out in time to see her client Monday and staying for a fairly extended period, like a week or so. She said she expected to speak to Ginny about this today.
I also told her that her Babble friends are thinking about her
Posted by widget on March 3, 2007, at 15:26:19
In reply to Re: going to the hospital-update » widget, posted by caraher on March 3, 2007, at 12:35:49
Sorry, my mixup. Still, good job and you're still a friend indeed. Could her appointment for work be postponed? She sure has a good reason for the request and would probably do the client a better service if she is better. Warmly, widget
Posted by Phillipa on March 3, 2007, at 17:58:35
In reply to Re: going to the hospital-update, posted by widget on March 3, 2007, at 15:26:19
I agree as her health is the most important thing. Love Phillipa
Posted by caraher on March 4, 2007, at 21:01:47
In reply to Re: going to the hospital-update » widget, posted by Phillipa on March 3, 2007, at 17:58:35
She's scheduled to be discharged Monday morning, and plans to go home, then to work. The problem is that she seems to be having trouble with her new meds, and none of the pdocs seem to care. (She started desipramine Friday evening and has dilated pupils, low blood pressure and an elevated heart rate.)
Posted by Phillipa on March 4, 2007, at 21:38:04
In reply to Re: going to the hospital- new update, posted by caraher on March 4, 2007, at 21:01:47
Sounds like the typical psych hospital today. Can someone step in as an advocate? And bet the insurance is denying coverage. Hence why I won't go to the hospital last time they put me into withdrawal and I had to see a neurologist on discharge to get a Rx for a benzo. Love Phillipa
Posted by caraher on March 5, 2007, at 13:08:35
In reply to Re: going to the hospital- new update » caraher, posted by Phillipa on March 4, 2007, at 21:38:04
she's out... I expect we'll see Wishingstar online later
Posted by Phillipa on March 5, 2007, at 13:13:21
In reply to Re: going to the hospital- new update, posted by caraher on March 5, 2007, at 13:08:35
Caraher are her meds working? Love Phillipa
Posted by caraher on March 5, 2007, at 14:09:05
In reply to Re: going to the hospital- new update » caraher, posted by Phillipa on March 5, 2007, at 13:13:21
No, just causing side effects. She's taken exactly two 25 mg nightly doses of desipramine, which have helped raise her pulse to new highs and blood pressure to new lows.
Posted by wishingstar on March 5, 2007, at 17:36:17
In reply to Re: going to the hospital- new update » Phillipa, posted by caraher on March 5, 2007, at 14:09:05
Hi everyone.. thanks so much for your support and kind messages while I was away. Caraher did read them to me over the phone and it was nice to know you all were thinking of me. :)
I guess I'll tell what happened. I went to the ER Thursday night around 10 and spoke to the psych emergency team. The woman let me decide whether or not I wanted to be admitted, and I chose to stay. Got up to the floor around 1am or so.
Being there was okay. Friday morning I woke up and stayed in bed most of the morning and just cried. The first day or so I enjoyed not having to be responsible for myself and the safety of being there. But as time went on, I just got really frustrated with some of the ways they do things. I could go an entire 24 hours without one person (except for other patients) asking me how I was doing, if I felt safe, etc. Some of us complained about this but then when they did speak to us, all the nurses had an attitude of "I'm doing you a big favor by talking to you".. and that really stung the place in me that feels worthless. I cried most of that evening too. By Sat evening I just wanted to go home.
They started me on 25mg of desripramine (one of the tricyclic ADs) Friday night. I was fine Sat morning, but then Sun morning woke up with a high heart rate and low blood pressure, and my pupils were dialated. The doctor told me to keep taking it anyway. Monday morning (today) I woke up and all those symptoms were worse.. my blood pressure in the morning was 78/44 and my pulse was up to 145. It dropped some after I'd been up awhile, but the dr ordered 1mg of ativan to slow me down. Interestingly enough, they let me go about an hour later and never did check my pulse or bp again. I'm feeling really frustrated about the meds situation. I'm scared to keep taking it because the pulse/bp problem seems to be getting worse every day, as the meds build in my body. And I'm only on 25mg, and the lowest dose considered to be useful is 75mg.. triple what I'm on. So theres really no way 25mg will help, even if I get past the side effects. And now theres no one here to check my pulse and bp, so I wouldnt know if it was off. I think I'm going to stop taking it and just call my dr to try and get in earlier. The dr that was there was an idiot. He also tried to force anti-anxiety meds on me... every time I got meds, there was one in the cup. I never did take it.
I guess in some ways I feel better for having gone to the hospital. It was nice to be able to relax and not worry about the things I should have been doing. But I feel worse in some ways too. It was just one more attempt to get help that didnt really pan out. I didnt even get stabalized on a new med. My next pdoc appt isnt for another 7 weeks. It makes me feel more hopeless when I know that even going to the hospital isnt going to be helpful. I guess before I had this sense that it was always there as a last resort, but really, it's just not helpful. I kept a pencil with a sharp metal edge in my room the entire time for cutting. I never cut, but I did burn myself with the eraser once. Bad, I know.. and I'd have rather talked to someone about how I was feeling.. but they just werent available to talk to. Thank god for caraher who called me every day and my T who called me twice while I was there.
I got released around 11 today with a "no, I'm no longer suicidal" (not true).. but I thought about it, and talked to other patients, and we agreed that if I was totally honest about whether or not I still felt suicidal, it could be weeks or months. Those thoughts just dont disappear in a weekend. But anyway, after being released I got home, showered and changed clothes in about 30 min, and went to work and met with a kid. That was hard. No time to destress or process what had just happened to me at all. But it did get me back into the swing of thnigs quickly, so I guess that's good.
So that was my experience. I gave my phone number to a few people who were there, so who knows, maybe a few new friends. Thanks again all of you for caring.. it helped me to know that you all were out there.
(((everyone)))
Posted by Phillipa on March 5, 2007, at 18:52:02
In reply to Re: going to the hospital- new update » Phillipa, posted by caraher on March 5, 2007, at 14:09:05
Wishingstar sorry you had a bad experience. All mine have been too. As all they do is keep you til you're no longer suicidal, homicidal, or psychotic and if your insurance denies you they can send you to the State Hospital not nice at all. And they used to keep you to you got adjusted to new meds no more. It's so sad. I think call your pdoc he will fit you in probably tomorrow. Love Phillipa
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