![[dr. bob]](/dr-bob-sm.gif)
Dr. Bob is Robert Hsiung, MD,
bob@dr-bob.orgShown: posts 1 to 4 of 4. This is the beginning of the thread.
Posted by youngaddict on February 4, 2007, at 21:20:00
oh god oh god oh god
i still haven't been back to see my T and i miss her terribly and everyday i think about her and "talk" to her in my head.. tell her what i am feeling, etc... what i think is wrong with me, etc..
and i want to go back because i know i am drowning. but i just feel myself getting deeper and deeper into this hole.
my roomate said yesterday (and she knows me really well as much as i hate that she knows that much about me) that i don't ask for help ever and i resist help at all cost and i wonder why. anytime i start to feel anything at all i reach for the bong or pills. or i sleep. i have to go back to work tomorrow and i know i am on harrisons shitlist but what can i do? i literally was sick physically last week and totally f*cking mentally as well.
i guess i am posting because i am depressed but am too scared to go back to my t because i disapointed her or worse yet she feels nothing at all about my little stint of canceling and then calling her and telling her i was planning my funeral. and then canceling apointments again.
what do you guys think?
Posted by muffled on February 4, 2007, at 22:38:52
In reply to long ramblings about my problems..possible trigger, posted by youngaddict on February 4, 2007, at 21:20:00
Yup, I think you sound like a client for T!!!!
I know it hurts, I am sorry, just wish to bring a small smile if I can.
Make the appt. Go back.
Just do it.
Takes guts don't I know, but if I can do it, then you can do it.
Wish I lived closer, I'd kick your *ss right into your T's office.
Well, mebbe not, but you are SO NORMAL for a client of T !
I think your T will be fine. I think you need to tell her all the dumb sh*t that is in your head. And I bet she won't even think its dumb!!!!!!! I marvel at my T's patience and how she never thinks all my dumbstuff is dumb at all.....
You don't even need to talk, just hand her paper and grunt. Thats what I done!
Hiding under my hat!
Its gonna be OK.
Yuyp, it will.
Sorry if I a little wacko right now, just doing some weird thinking myself.
Take care,
Always love to see ya post.
Muffled
Posted by Poet on February 5, 2007, at 11:06:40
In reply to long ramblings about my problems..possible trigger, posted by youngaddict on February 4, 2007, at 21:20:00
Hi youngaddict,
I quit therapy a few years ago, and was determined to never go back. That lasted a whopping two weeks and with soggy kleenex in hand, I called her for an appointment. I say call your T, and tell her you need to see her.
I understand how you feel about your T being disappointed in you, I'm convinced mine is disapponted with me, yet she keeps telling me that it's projecting. Why can't we project nice things once and awhile and give ourselves a break? Anyway, I vote for calling your T.
Poet
Posted by happykat on February 6, 2007, at 17:10:26
In reply to long ramblings about my problems..possible trigger, posted by youngaddict on February 4, 2007, at 21:20:00
Hey!
You gotta go back and see her and tell her what's going on, or at least write it out and give it to her. It's hard. I know. But it's the only way.
I thought my t terminated me on Thursday. All I heard was blah, blah, blah, TERMINATE. I ran out of her office all upset went back left her a totally asinine and juvenille note plus a bag of all my abuse books. Thought I was going to die over the weekend. Therapy is HARD work. It's not easy. But the only way out is through.
I'm calling my t tomorrow to make appt to go back in and discuss or at least hand her what I've written out. You've come this far and it is a good sign that you care about your t. I think it means the possibility to really heal yourself is there, but you have to be willing to embrace it. You can do it! Don't give up!
At least see her one more time. Write out everything you want her to know and just give it to her. Keeping you in my thoughts and wishing you lots of luck.
Be well and stay safe!
Regards,
Kat
This is the end of the thread.
Psycho-Babble Psychology | Extras | FAQ
Dr. Bob is Robert Hsiung, MD,
bob@dr-bob.org
Script revised: February 4, 2008
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/cgi-bin/pb/mget.pl
Copyright 2006-17 Robert Hsiung.
Owned and operated by Dr. Bob LLC and not the University of Chicago.