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Posted by Poet on November 25, 2006, at 13:17:46
I got fired this morning. No real reason given, just a vague my productivity was low.
Things were going so well this week, Dr. Clueless reduced my effexor, I was okay with not seeing my T this week because of Thanksgiving, and we'd even talked about going to every other week because I was feeling so good about my new job.
I honestly thought I was doing good at work, I thought this is it, finally something I can be proud of. I'm taking classes in the field and was so happy to get a job in it with no experience other than school. I was only there a month, if my productivity was low why didn't someone sit down with me and talk about ways to get it up. They never told me what was expected of me, how can I know if I'm meeting expectations if I don't know what they are?
I am sad, confused and trying hard to figure out what I did wrong? Did they just hate me?
I talked to my T and she says I did nothing wrong, I just wasn't what they were looking for. That doesn't help me explain to a future employer why I got fired after a month. Even for another mindless job I have to explain what happened. It took me nine months to find my last mindless job. Career failure equals Poet.
I called my T and she said it's okay to call her again. I just picture her thinking *it's 2004 all over again.* Only then I had the meltdown before I quit my job, this time my job quit me and I am melting down quickly.
Any happiness I had this week is gone. Here, I was on the lowest dose of effexor xr and so far doing okay until now. Thinking that I don't need to see my T every week and now I'll need her more than ever and don't have a job to pay her.
What did I do to deserve this? What?
Poet
Posted by Dinah on November 25, 2006, at 14:34:04
In reply to Failure Devistation (Trigger), posted by Poet on November 25, 2006, at 13:17:46
I'm so sorry, Poet. :(
I read your post on Work, and from what I can see it's more what they did wrong than what you did wrong. Not giving you an orientation that is normal for employees? No feedback? That's poor management on their part.
Poet, you are a worthwhile person, and there's no reason you can't be a valuable employee in the right situation.
I don't know what to tell you about interviewing. :(
Posted by TherapyGirl on November 25, 2006, at 16:05:18
In reply to Failure Devistation (Trigger), posted by Poet on November 25, 2006, at 13:17:46
I'm so sorry, Poet. It sounds like the company (or your supervisors or whoever) did not handle this very well. I agree with you that setting some expectations and giving you feedback along the way would have been more helpful.
Since you only had this job a month, do you have to list it on your resume? I'd be really, really tempted not to.
Take care of yourself, okay? I'll be thinking about you and sending positive career energy your way.
Posted by Daisym on November 25, 2006, at 16:32:39
In reply to Re: Failure Devistation (Trigger) » Poet, posted by TherapyGirl on November 25, 2006, at 16:05:18
Poet,
My therapist just spent an hour trying to convince me that work-me (who is doing a terrible job) is not as important as the emerging-me, the me inside. I wish I could send you his speech, because even though I don't really believe him, it is something to hang on to.
I'm so sorry this has happened. Can you take a deep breath and call them on Monday and ask for further clarification? And I agree about leaving it off your resume, it was only a month, it isn't worth listing.
I'm sure your therapist will work out a pay schedule, not to worry there. She knows you will need her a lot for awhile.
You didn't do anything to deserve this, any of it. Life just sucks sometimes.
(((Poet))))
Posted by madeline on November 25, 2006, at 16:41:55
In reply to Failure Devistation (Trigger), posted by Poet on November 25, 2006, at 13:17:46
I'm really sorry that this happened to you.
I really think that someone should have told you that they thought your productivity was low and helped you to find ways to improve.
At least that's how most business problem solve and get the most out of their employees.
From an outsider's perspective, that place doesn't sound like a dreamy place to work. I know it is easy for me to say "good riddance", but I almost have to say "Good riddance".
SOme of the most successful, satisfied people I know have been fired from a series of jobs, so try not to think of it as a failure on your part. It's something you learn and grow from. Nothing more, nothing less.
You can be very successful in your chosen field and you will show them up I'm sure. (If that's how they run the workplace, then it shouldn't be very hard to do!!!)
I doubt your T is thinking anything but concern over your loss.
Take care of yourself.
Maddie
Posted by annierose on November 25, 2006, at 17:02:33
In reply to Failure Devistation (Trigger), posted by Poet on November 25, 2006, at 13:17:46
(((((((poet)))))))))))
that just sucks!
i would be mad as h*ll --- especially with no warning at all
that is so unprofessional!
you got this job, you will get another. i know it's hard to put yourself out there.
Posted by Poet on November 26, 2006, at 15:42:37
In reply to Re: Failure Devistation (Trigger), posted by Dinah on November 25, 2006, at 14:34:04
Hi Dinah,
I know I shouldn't blame myself, all the signs point to that I walked into a disorganized mess of a company. What's hurting me so much is that I'd leave there and go see my T and she'd say I'm smiling and even buoyant. Now when I drag myself in her office it's the old, sad me.
Thanks so much for your words of encouragement, I need them.
Poet
Posted by Poet on November 26, 2006, at 15:46:02
In reply to Re: Failure Devistation (Trigger) » Poet, posted by TherapyGirl on November 25, 2006, at 16:05:18
Hi TherapyGirl,
Thanks for sending me positive energy, I really need it right now. I don't think I'm going to put this last place on my resume. I'm going to just list the job before it and make it look like I'm still there and am looking for advancement.
I feel so crushed. I really thought I was doing a good job, now I'm not sure of anything. Back to zero self confidence.
Poet
Posted by Poet on November 26, 2006, at 15:53:14
In reply to Re: Failure Devistation (Trigger), posted by Daisym on November 25, 2006, at 16:32:39
Hi Daisy,
Thanks, I am trying hard to convince myself that I didn't do anything wrong. I'm going to send an email to my ex boss and ex co-worker, but don't expect responses from either. I'll be polite and professional which is more than they were to me.
I talked to my T, twice, yesterday and she said I don't have to pay her until the insurance starts up again in January. She is afraid I'd quit and she's right.
I wish I could hear your T's speech, though like you, I wouldn't believe it.
Thanks again for your help.
Poet
Posted by Poet on November 26, 2006, at 15:53:55
In reply to Re: Failure Devistation (Trigger), posted by Poet on November 26, 2006, at 15:53:14
Posted by Poet on November 26, 2006, at 15:59:10
In reply to Re: Failure Devistation (Trigger) » Poet, posted by madeline on November 25, 2006, at 16:41:55
Hi Maddie,
My T thinks good riddance, too. She also isn't going to charge me for sessions until the insurance coverage starts up in January. Of course this brings on the T is too good for me guilt.
I'll try hard not to think of what happened as failure, I was just so happy for a few weeks, and now I'm dragging myself through the dirt again.
Thanks for helping.
Poet
Posted by Poet on November 26, 2006, at 15:59:58
In reply to Re: Failure Devistation (Trigger), posted by Poet on November 26, 2006, at 15:59:10
Posted by Poet on November 26, 2006, at 16:04:16
In reply to Re: Failure Devistation (Trigger) » Poet, posted by annierose on November 25, 2006, at 17:02:33
Hi Annierose,
I am sad and angry and sincerely hope that the company goes bankrupt. Firing me on a Saturday morning by phone. Unprofessional and gutless.
Thanks for understanding.
POet
Posted by muffled on November 26, 2006, at 20:02:12
In reply to Failure Devistation (Trigger), posted by Poet on November 25, 2006, at 13:17:46
But I give a huge ///CYBERSLAP////BAM!! to those that let you go so rudely and crudely.
They SUCH unbeleivable JERKS is bout alls I can say.
Keep on keeping on Poet, you OK. Its thems thats f*cked all right, NOT you.
Take care,
Muffled
BTW, your T sounds nice and its good that she cares enough to keep you on. Thats so nice. Decent human being TG.
Posted by Poet on November 27, 2006, at 9:34:35
In reply to Poets cool » Poet, posted by muffled on November 26, 2006, at 20:02:12
Hi Muffled,
My T is a decent human being, though she may regret saying I don't have to pay her because I'll be pestering her (she would not say pester, that's how I see it) more as I continue to melt down.
Thank you for cyber slapping my ex employer. May they all rot in that very hot place.
I am not up to job hunting, but economically I have to earn money, so I will fake a smile, and after any interviews go to my car and cry. And call my T. The old Poet routine is back.
Poet
Posted by happykat on November 27, 2006, at 13:58:08
In reply to Failure Devistation (Trigger), posted by Poet on November 25, 2006, at 13:17:46
Poet,
I just caught up on reading the current threads. I'm really sorry about the job. But there are better jobs and better days ahead!! Besides any employer that would go about it the way they did is unprofessional!!! I wouldn't want to work for a company like that anyways.
happykat :(
Posted by LadyBug on November 27, 2006, at 15:09:46
In reply to Failure Devistation (Trigger), posted by Poet on November 25, 2006, at 13:17:46
(((Poet)))
I know the way they did this was so unprofessional! As time goes on and you go through the grouling process of job interviews, I hope you find what you need and what you like. I hope you look back and tell yourself you're happy it turned out like it did. Who wants to work for a company like that? I wouldn't! GOOD LUCK and may you find a job SOON!!! I think the job market is pretty ok right now.
As far as your T seeing you for free is awesome! She cares and this shows that she is human too. She understands your needs and is willing to reach out to you and help you out. I love my T to pieces but I wonder if I lost my job if she'd see me for free? I've been seeing her alomst 10 years and some of those years she accepted a much reduced fee due to my finances, but I'd have to wonder how many T's would make the offer like your T did for you.
Something good will come out of this. You are too good of a person to work for the scum bags that did what they did!!!!!!!!! PI** on them! Bam!!!
You will get through this time, we're here for ya!
Let us know how things go. Tears, they can come, it will be alright Poet. You have us and your T in your corner! You can do this!
LadyBug
Posted by Poet on November 28, 2006, at 23:33:14
In reply to Re: Failure Devistation (Trigger) » Poet, posted by happykat on November 27, 2006, at 13:58:08
Hi Happykat,
They are very unprofessional and I am repeating to myself that I am better off out of there. The bad part is that I need to work, not only economically, but becuase career is my breaking point. In my mind job equals success, which I know is wrong, but it's part of my craziness.
I hope that a better job and better days are ahead.
Poet
Posted by Poet on November 28, 2006, at 23:39:44
In reply to Re: Failure Devistation (Trigger) » Poet, posted by LadyBug on November 27, 2006, at 15:09:46
Hi LadyBug,
Thanks for being in my corner, I need you and everyone else to push me back into the job interview ring.
I am tearing myself apart trying to figure out what I did wrong. I know they probably are just jerks, but to to keep me for a month and dump me is so cruel.
My T is awesome, I feel guilty that I can't pay her, but I really need her right now, and I hope she doesn't tire of me. I know, I know, she cares about me...
Poet
Posted by muffled on November 29, 2006, at 0:40:46
In reply to Re: Failure Devistation (Trigger) » LadyBug, posted by Poet on November 28, 2006, at 23:39:44
You'll do OK.
And as for your T. It feels good to help others. Bet she will feel good bout herself, for gving you a break.
Mebbe in some crazy way, this will all turn out for the best....
Wishing you well,
Take care,
muffled
Posted by rubenstein on November 29, 2006, at 9:28:26
In reply to Failure Devistation (Trigger), posted by Poet on November 25, 2006, at 13:17:46
I am so sorry poet. That must have hurt so badly, especially when it came on when you didn't expect it. I am thinking of you
rachel
Posted by Poet on November 29, 2006, at 12:16:34
In reply to (((Poet))) » Poet, posted by muffled on November 29, 2006, at 0:40:46
Hi Muffled,
Thanks for they cyber hugs. I so hope you're right that in some crazy way this will turn out for the best.
I saw my T, yesterday, and she said to think of me not paying her as my gift to her. She is too good for the likes of me...
Poet
Posted by Poet on November 29, 2006, at 12:20:52
In reply to Re: Failure Devistation (Trigger), posted by rubenstein on November 29, 2006, at 9:28:26
Hi Rachel,
I was blindsided, and I am still stunned by what happened. I really appreciate your thinking about me.
Poet
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