Posted by Poet on November 25, 2006, at 13:17:46
I got fired this morning. No real reason given, just a vague my productivity was low.
Things were going so well this week, Dr. Clueless reduced my effexor, I was okay with not seeing my T this week because of Thanksgiving, and we'd even talked about going to every other week because I was feeling so good about my new job.
I honestly thought I was doing good at work, I thought this is it, finally something I can be proud of. I'm taking classes in the field and was so happy to get a job in it with no experience other than school. I was only there a month, if my productivity was low why didn't someone sit down with me and talk about ways to get it up. They never told me what was expected of me, how can I know if I'm meeting expectations if I don't know what they are?
I am sad, confused and trying hard to figure out what I did wrong? Did they just hate me?
I talked to my T and she says I did nothing wrong, I just wasn't what they were looking for. That doesn't help me explain to a future employer why I got fired after a month. Even for another mindless job I have to explain what happened. It took me nine months to find my last mindless job. Career failure equals Poet.
I called my T and she said it's okay to call her again. I just picture her thinking *it's 2004 all over again.* Only then I had the meltdown before I quit my job, this time my job quit me and I am melting down quickly.
Any happiness I had this week is gone. Here, I was on the lowest dose of effexor xr and so far doing okay until now. Thinking that I don't need to see my T every week and now I'll need her more than ever and don't have a job to pay her.
What did I do to deserve this? What?
Poet
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