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Posted by ClearSkies on March 25, 2006, at 0:40:06
Something shifted in me this past week. Now all my memories of past traumas are with me in vivid detail. Especially when I try to sleep.
When I saw my T this week, she wanted me to take it easy on myself, to not force this process and to be gentle. I can't stop these memories, there is no gentleness in remembering, I think I'm going to see if I can get in to see her earlier than my next appointment.
This is freaking me out, so invasive, don't think I should be stopping these feelings and thoughts, but how to do this safely?
I went through EMDR on this a year and a half ago. I don't feel dirty and depressed sitting with these memories, but wonder if I should journal the thoughts to get them out of my head.
I appreciate any comments.
ClearSkies
Posted by Racer on March 25, 2006, at 1:07:59
In reply to PTSD therapy?? Can't stuff memories down., posted by ClearSkies on March 25, 2006, at 0:40:06
Journalling sounds helpful, and I don't know anything else to suggest.
I do know, though, that you matter to me, and I want you to know that. I'd sit with you, and those awful feelings, if I could.
xoxo
Posted by Daisym on March 26, 2006, at 0:20:18
In reply to PTSD therapy?? Can't stuff memories down., posted by ClearSkies on March 25, 2006, at 0:40:06
I'll hold Racer's hand as she holds yours.
Do you know what triggered the shift? An anniversary, or visit from someone? Sometimes when I know what the trigger is it is a little easier, but not always.
I'm going through one of those tidal waves right now, the memories are vivid and it almost feels like watching a movie of sorts. My therapist thinks it might be connected to the work we've done about trusting him more. When I drop my guard a little and just let myself need him, the energy I'm spending holding him at bay is freed up to tolerate the memories.
I agree that stuffing them down isn't the best response, THAT'S when you get more depressed. Journaling is my favorite tool, and telling my therapist the stories in detail. I know he has heard them, but for some reason I need to keep telling him. I think allowing yourself some extra sleep is important to. It is exhausting when this happens.
Take good care. I'm around most of Sunday.
Hugs,
Daisy
Posted by ClearSkies on March 26, 2006, at 7:24:40
In reply to Re: PTSD therapy?? Can't stuff memories down. » ClearSkies, posted by Daisym on March 26, 2006, at 0:20:18
It was starting the process of renewing my passport that triggered this. It's never happened to me before and I found it so bewlildering and intrusive. And impossible to explain to my husband - he figures all this is behind me and not something I think about every day (which I do).
I slept heavily last night and had no thoughts whatever, just the blackness of sleep. Today I'm exhausted and grumpy. It feels like the baggage I carry weighs more than I do (which is considerable).I'll take those hands, Daisy and Racer. With gratitude.
CS
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