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Posted by alexandra_k on November 9, 2004, at 2:24:56
I get flashbacks and what I call 'mental pictures' quite a bit. Some of them are memories, but I don't think that all of them are. I also get stuck in what I call 'ruminations' which may or may not involve flashbacks but it is when I get caught up going round and round in circles in my head. All that is worse for me in the early morning and in the evening before I get off to sleep. Occasionally it gets bad during the day and I say I have a headache and have to go home to bed. Sometimes when it gets really bad I hear this really loud screaming in my head or my chest. It is all a bit hard to explain...
Anyway, last week I talked about one of the abusive relationships that I have been in with my T. I have never talked about it in so much detail to anyone. This week the ruminations and mental pictures have been worse. He said that he wanted me to tell him what I remember about finding my alters / voices next time and I had to connect with it emotionally. I figure he said that because I wasn't really connecting with what I was saying last week. But I must be connecting now for it to be affecting me, right?
I am thinking that maybe it is all moving a bit too fast. I have never done this before. I don't know. How do you tell the difference between working at therapy and just pushing things too hard?
Posted by Susan47 on November 9, 2004, at 12:56:05
In reply to Flashbacks (MAY TRIGGER), posted by alexandra_k on November 9, 2004, at 2:24:56
It sounds really good, actually, from my limited understanding. I haven't read enough to know what you're going through but my experience with myself this past year says that this could end up being really good for you? My advice, if's worth anything at all, would be to maintain a good working relationship with your therapist and try and relax into it, not fight it because that feels like it could lead to a bit of paranoia, maybe? Because of the fear of re-living things, but you need to know that now you're safe. You're safe now, and what happened isn't going to happen again.
I listened to a lot of hypnotherapy when I worked for the police.
Posted by gardenergirl on November 9, 2004, at 21:10:32
In reply to Flashbacks (MAY TRIGGER), posted by alexandra_k on November 9, 2004, at 2:24:56
That's a really tough question to answer. I have to say it's best answered between you and your T, assuming you have basic trust with him. It sounds like what you are doing right now IS bound to bring some stuff up, which I'm sure is painful. My guess is that eventually, it will be not so intense, but it may be hard to see that right now.
Please take extra gentle care during this time. You body and spirit need nurturing.
gg
Posted by alexandra_k on November 9, 2004, at 21:44:31
In reply to Re: Flashbacks (MAY TRIGGER), posted by gardenergirl on November 9, 2004, at 21:10:32
It is hard because I haven't been working with him for very long, and I only see him fortnightly. I know that therapy isn't supposed to be easy, but then work deadlines will only continue to get worse between now and February next year. Perhaps now isn't really the time for me to be doing this. If I get to go to Ashburn next year I'd feel much safer doing this in an inpatient setting.
I have been vaccilating between thinking that this has been good for me, and thinking that this is a bit much for me at the moment. Maybe that means that it is going just about right :-)
I'll tell him about this next time, just incase he is thinking I need to push even harder. Thanks for your responses.
Posted by alexandra_k on November 9, 2004, at 22:13:35
In reply to thanks susan, gg, posted by alexandra_k on November 9, 2004, at 21:44:31
Up and Down, I feel sick.
My mood can go from ok to tragically depressed at the drop of a hat. This morning I just wanted to stay curled up in bed all day but I had to go to work as I had forgotten all about exam marking and contribution grades etc etc. I have been so slack with that this semester. It was such a drain, the last thing in the world I felt like doing...
But now it is done. And I have about 3 weeks to get a paper ready for conference. And then there are writing samples, and my thesis and OMG I just want everything to stop so I can go curl up in bed and ruminate.
I should have entitled this 'whinge bicker moan'...
I hate my thesis at the moment. It is the most boring piece of uninformed crap I have read in years. I can't stand it. And nobody cares anyway. Sigh. I am going to bed now.
Posted by alexandra_k on November 10, 2004, at 17:07:33
In reply to Up and Down..., posted by alexandra_k on November 9, 2004, at 22:13:35
Yeah, okay so maybe I am overreacting slightly :-)
Writing a thesis is soul destroying. Really.
Posted by gardenergirl on November 10, 2004, at 17:30:55
In reply to Re: Up and Down..., posted by alexandra_k on November 10, 2004, at 17:07:33
I hear that about writing. You can do it, though. I know you can.
gg
Posted by Susan47 on November 10, 2004, at 22:59:50
In reply to Up and Down..., posted by alexandra_k on November 9, 2004, at 22:13:35
I understand your mood swings, I had those so badly this year. I hope this goes well for you, keep a good relationship with your therapist. I hope he or she is a kind person, and tolerant, and understanding. Be good to yourself. If you need to hide under the covers, I did that a lot this last year. A lot. I feel strong right now and I hope it lasts, but honestly, I know how hard it is to be where you are. And I need to pay the bills, I'm afraid of my banking site, I'm afraid of money, I'm incompetent with it. So you go to your thesis, girl, and I'll go to my banking site.
Posted by alexandra_k on November 12, 2004, at 17:04:43
In reply to Re: Up and Down...Alexandra, posted by Susan47 on November 10, 2004, at 22:59:50
This letter was first written by a graduate student in Europe in 1954 and
has traveled around the world at least 16 times. At first I wouldn't
believe that it would work, but after trying it, I am now a believer in
its mystical and magical power.This letter was received by a graduate student in Chicago, IL in 1973
and within two weeks, he had completed a 5600 page doctoral dissertation
and began a career which lead to a Nobel Prize. A few years later,
another graduate student received this letter and sent it to 5 of her
friends, and she too completed a 3100 page paper which is continues to
grow to this day!Simply write five pages of text on the given subjects for each person on
this list. Than place your name in slot #1 and move everyone else's name
down one space. Send this letter to ten of your colleagues, and within
a month, you too will have a thesis or disertation which your advisor
can choke on if he or she doesn't go blind or break his or her back first.1. Bernard T. Donovan, M.S. student in biochemistry
EPR spectroscopy of crud from my refrigerator2. James C. Messier, PhD. student in political science
The Cuban Missile Crisis: What if Nixon were president?3. Frances K. Allen, M.A. student in music theory
Development of polyphonic forms from Gregorian Chant4. Penny S. Jordan, PhD student in computer science
Is Windows 95 merely Mac 84?5. Thomas J. Quinn, MBA student
Bears and Bulls in the stock market, but what about Sox and Cubs?The last person who received this letter and did not respond was tormented
by receiving 100-level teaching assignments until he was 40 years old.
Today he works as a clerk for the Little-Plastic-Pizza-Table Museum in
Cleveland, OH, making minimum wage and regretting his terrible decision not
to perpetuate this letter.
Posted by Dr. Bob on November 13, 2004, at 7:12:10
In reply to gg, what do ya reckon, worth a try? :-), posted by alexandra_k on November 12, 2004, at 17:04:43
Posted by gardenergirl on November 13, 2004, at 10:56:04
In reply to gg, what do ya reckon, worth a try? :-), posted by alexandra_k on November 12, 2004, at 17:04:43
Posted by alexandra_k on November 13, 2004, at 17:16:41
In reply to Re: no chain letters here, thanks (nm), posted by Dr. Bob on November 13, 2004, at 7:12:10
That one was clearly a joke that could never work (oral defence and at least SOME continuity is surely required). This one, on the other hand, actually shows promise and could be crazy enough to work in these days of performance based research funding... :-)
Dear Fellow Scientist:
This letter has been around the world at least seven times. It has been to many major conferences. Now it has come to you. It will bring you good fortune. This is true even if you don't believe it. But you must follow these instructions:
include in your next journal article the citations below.
remove the first citation from the list and add a citation to your journal article at the bottom.
make ten copies and send them to colleagues.Within one year, you will be cited up to 10,000 times! This will amaze your fellow faculty, assure your promotion and improve your sex life. In addition, you will bring joy to many colleagues. Do not break the reference loop, but send this letter on today.
Dr. H. received this letter and within a year after passing it on she was elected to the National Academy of Sciences. Prof. M. threw this letter away and was denied tenure. In Japan, Dr. I. received this letter and put it aside. His article for Trans. on Nephrology was rejected. He found the letter and passed it on, and his article was published that year in the New England Journal of Medicine. In the Midwest, Prof. K. failed to pass on the letter, and in a budget cutback his entire department was eliminated. This could happen to you if you break the chain of citations.
Miller, J. (1992). Post-modern neo-cubism and the wave theory of light. Journal of Cognitive Artifacts, 8, 113-117.
Johnson, S. (1991). Micturition in the canid family: the irresistable pull of the hydrant. Physics Quarterly, 33, 203-220.
Anderson, R. (1990). Your place or mine?: an empirical comparison of two models of human mating behavior. Psychology Yesterday 12, 63-77.
David, E. (1994). Modern Approaches to Chaotic Heuristic Optimization: Means of Analyzing Non-Linear Intelligent Networks with Emergent Symbolic Structure. (doctoral dissertation, University of California at Santa Royale El Camino del Rey Mar Vista by-the-sea.)http://www.geocities.com/CollegePark/6174/jokes/12days-research.htm
Can you tell I am just procrastinating getting some actual work done :-)
(Ok enough now I promise)
Posted by alexandra_k on November 13, 2004, at 17:55:18
In reply to Just one more, ok? » Dr. Bob, posted by alexandra_k on November 13, 2004, at 17:16:41
I don't mind if you delete it.
I just thought that it was clearly a joke
And couldn't see the harm in it.
But you asked me not to
So I shouldn't have
Sorry.I am suffering from thesis angst. And the scarey thing is that those topics sound no crazier than my own. Sorry.
Posted by Dr. Bob on November 14, 2004, at 15:39:50
In reply to sorry, shouldn't have posted that, posted by alexandra_k on November 13, 2004, at 17:55:18
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