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Posted by helenag on November 4, 2003, at 21:26:46
Am wondering...has anyone had the experience of feeling very strange about getting and feeling better?? My meds have stablized my moods a lot and it feels very wierd not to be all over the place with ups and downs...Still have a lot of anxiety, though.
I also have this background very embarrasing thought that getting well means I won't need my pdoc or therapist much any more...and ohmygod...I won't know how to act, etc etc...It just feels wierd. Wellness is something I know not..
It's just something that creeps into my thoughts from time and time and I was wondering if anyone else has had this happen to them, too. Let me know...I'd appreciate it. peace, Helen.
Posted by Elle2021 on November 5, 2003, at 1:37:03
In reply to feelings/thoughts about getting well????, posted by helenag on November 4, 2003, at 21:26:46
I don't know what to do when I feel well, it's almost scary. I'm so used to being depressed and unhappy, I'm not sure how to react to good things. I think that I will always keep in touch with my therapist, even when I am better. It never hurts to talk things out with someone objectively.
Elle
Posted by Poet on November 5, 2003, at 10:06:41
In reply to Re: feelings/thoughts about getting well???? » helenag, posted by Elle2021 on November 5, 2003, at 1:37:03
I know my therapist has clients that she sees once a month or every few months. I would like to be one of those clients when she thinks I don't need to see her weekly. Kind of wean myself from therapy.
Just when I start feeling good about something I manage to critize myself unrelentlessly for something else. I think I'll be in therapy until she retires.
Poet
Posted by Emme on November 5, 2003, at 14:12:46
In reply to feelings/thoughts about getting well????, posted by helenag on November 4, 2003, at 21:26:46
Hmmm....I'm not sure I'd know what to do with a good mood that lasted more than an hour.... but I'd like one all the same.
Posted by catachrest on November 10, 2003, at 14:07:00
In reply to Re: feelings/thoughts about getting well????, posted by Emme on November 5, 2003, at 14:12:46
I've been starting to feel better lately - I'm thinking maybe we've found the right dose of Effexor, or maybe the depression is just starting to lift a little. When I was in my darkest moments, though, I was almost afraid of feeling better - feeling better would take away my excuse for hiding away and getting nothing done because I would no longer have my illness to hide behind. Being not depressed means having to take responsibility. But now that I am feeling a little better (just a little; I'm not jumping up and down yet), I'm also starting to recognize that fear as part of the depression, the 'crap coloured glasses' my counsellor talks about. I'm starting to understand that in many cases responsibility is power. I also have to learn to stop fearing getting worse again - every time I start feeling better I get terrified that it won't last and that I'll just slide right back down again to where I was, and I don't think I could handle it. But of course, thinking about that only makes it happen faster.
I have a long way to go but I've had a taste of getting better and I won't give it up without a fight.
Keep up the fight,
Susan
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