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Posted by kerria on September 11, 2005, at 20:00:39
Today i went to church with my H . we sat near the back. There are large overhead screens because we have a big church- and usually friends and some of our family , missionaries on a team in another country are shown. The lights dimmed and we looked at the screen listening to a song i didn't hear before but couldn't tell what the words were.
The photos were of buildings and smoke and people dying and firefighters helping. So many hurt and firemen putting up the flag. Then the song was about the flag and America overcoming but the pictures were the opposite. tears.
tears.
i didn't expect to see it at church today. There was no warning. The church bulliten was the same as always, with the waterfall. Everything was so upsetting.Then the pastor that i love gave a message about how we should not speak in 'forked tongues' - like two different ways to different people. To be One, but God is three Persons in one.
Then how God makes us different than we were before, that Daniel was a different person after the lions den, because when we're in distress we are changed to a different person by God. He enlarges us. The woman was a different person after touching His garment.
tears. i have DID. i'm always different, i always speak in different voices. Tears. i don't understand why God changes us and we're different people because of distress to endure it or when we just get changed because of distress, then we;re different but the parts aren't all good. How do you stop the bad ones? This week i want God to heal me- i was sick and almost died, another chance i have. i don't want to be doubleminded anymore but i can't understand how i can stop it.
and i'm so way different, so ashamed to get so upset - but how could i listen to a song how America overcomes and see in all the pictures the terrible smoke and buildings that says the opposite?
Tears,
kerria i never fit in 9/11 is always too hard to see but i want to so much. God will make me different again?
Posted by muffled on September 11, 2005, at 23:27:51
In reply to church today / upset unexpected, posted by kerria on September 11, 2005, at 20:00:39
> Today i went to church with my H . we sat near the back. There are large overhead screens because we have a big church- and usually friends and some of our family , missionaries on a team in another country are shown. The lights dimmed and we looked at the screen listening to a song i didn't hear before but couldn't tell what the words were.
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> The photos were of buildings and smoke and people dying and firefighters helping. So many hurt and firemen putting up the flag. Then the song was about the flag and America overcoming but the pictures were the opposite. tears.
* Thats happened to me to. They usually warn parents of kids but not always. It can be very shocking when they show some clips. Its so hard when your not prepared. I left once when that happened. I just couldn't hack it.
> tears.
> i didn't expect to see it at church today. There was no warning. The church bulliten was the same as always, with the waterfall. Everything was so upsetting.
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> Then the pastor that i love gave a message about how we should not speak in 'forked tongues' - like two different ways to different people. To be One, but God is three Persons in one.
* I would think he's talking about people who conciously talk in two ways. Like gossip. Someone will talk to the persons face nicely. But will speak very nastily of them behind their backs. Or people who crow that they are honest Christians, but look down on others etc. I think that is what he might have meant. Your multi persons are God given for some reason that we don't get to know about yet. Yeah Gods a trinity, He must know.
> Then how God makes us different than we were before, that Daniel was a different person after the lions den, because when we're in distress we are changed to a different person by God. He enlarges us. The woman was a different person after touching His garment.
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> tears. i have DID. i'm always different, i always speak in different voices. Tears. i don't understand why God changes us and we're different people because of distress to endure it or when we just get changed because of distress, then we;re different but the parts aren't all good. How do you stop the bad ones? This week i want God to heal me- i was sick and almost died, another chance i have. i don't want to be doubleminded anymore but i can't understand how i can stop it.
* We do not know His plan. God brings knowledge and goodness out of pain. We just can't see the big picture like He does. Your proly doing good things and don't even know it. You help people on this board for example, just by being you.
> and i'm so way different, so ashamed to get so upset - but how could i listen to a song how America overcomes and see in all the pictures the terrible smoke and buildings that says the opposite?
*Yeah. Thats the BIG question isn't it? Why does God allow suffering? Age old , big question.
> Tears,
> kerria i never fit in 9/11 is always too hard to see but i want to so much. God will make me different again?*I don't know Gods plan. But I know He loves you. He loves you better than the 'together ' guy who talks with forked tongue about what a good christian he is and then badmouths someone. Jesus knows your pain. He suffered. You are never alone. His love is all around you. Let it in and bask in its warmth when you can. :)
Posted by crazy teresa on September 11, 2005, at 23:39:32
In reply to church today / upset unexpected, posted by kerria on September 11, 2005, at 20:00:39
kerria,
My heart goes out to you. I'm so sorry you're upset. I wish I could give you hugs and chocolate cake.
I don't know what DID is. If you'll share what that is, maybe I could understand better what you're going through. I'm not sure I understand where your pastor is coming from. I think what took place in Daniel was a miracle, not something that happens every day.
God allows us to suffer to make us stronger. I have often heard it put that just as gold is refined by fire, so are we. The fire changes us. It is up to us to decide what our attitude is going to be about that fire.
For example, 10 yrs. ago, our 3rd daughter was stillborn. I didn't think I'd live through it. I'm amazed that I did, actually. I could still be angry about having experienced this tradgedy, blaming God for allowing such a terrible thing to have happened, or I can choose to thank God in all circumstances (which wasn't possible for a few years) and be greatful that I had the opportunity to have experienced this beautiful little girl in my own way. She has taught me more about life than any of my other 3 daughters combined!
I hope you find some peace this evening through Him.
crazy teresa
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