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Posted by B2chica on November 7, 2011, at 9:49:25
ok. so i think i know what mania feels like.
i think i'm finally feeling it Not med induced.in two days i've spent 465.00
***********However, i've been living in maternity clothes and tshirts for the last 4 years. and my DH promised last year that if i got to a size 8 that he'd give me $1000... well i did and he didnt.
so maybe this is just anger and getting back.also he ALWAYS complains thta i'm spending all our money.
well this is maybe also my way of saying if you gonna say it then i'm gonna Be it!*****************************
then we have holidays coming up...what if i spend money on me and kids get no xmas becaue of that??mostly i'm angry.
its 9:40am right now and i have SO much energy that i want to stab myself.
i'm angry that i'm spending money but i want to do more.
maybe spending money is my way of getting anger out??Somebody help pleaes? what you think? manic or just angry or just tired of looking like crap at work. most the money spent on jeans and tops.
i mean i was living in 2 pair pants and 2 bras. i would always have to wear them several days in a row. is it bad to want to wear fresh clothes everyday?
thanks to a girlfriend and therapy i actually WAnt to look like a girl.
but its expensive...i saw a dress at kohl's that i want. its a knit grey with flair at bottom and a cute satin bow around the waste. but of course if i get that then i need to get some support slip, tights, and shoes to match...
then i want some earrings.
and i saw this really pretty bracelet to go along with it.maybe i should just ...
could , not6 shop, not leave work.
i want to leave work.
thats the other thing. been out a lot from work lately...
skipping lunch and shopping instead.
skipping out early to go.i need my friend.
i've already taken 2 gaba this mrning.called pdoc sometime last week cant remember when he said to start zyprexa, well this weekend i txt him again saying my anger and aggistation is worse and can i up it. he called me.he said ok to up but he wanted to see me so i have appt with him this saturday. i upped zyprexa to 10 and i'm still feeling...BAD good. and reved up.
what do i do. i'm not used to this feeling.
i should just go home...
Posted by Phillipa on November 7, 2011, at 11:10:29
In reply to holy crap manic..., posted by B2chica on November 7, 2011, at 9:49:25
B2chica I understand you were promised you could get some clothes when reached a goal you did. Congrats on that. As for wearing maternity clothes for four years. How demoralizing. And sometimes anger can be spending. Can you say okay I got what I need and leave it at that? If not then look at mania or extreme anger you have been holding inside. I'm sorry you work out, work, care for 2 children, and your home, and if you earn money don't you get some or does it all go to household bills? Phillipa
Posted by Raisinb on November 7, 2011, at 17:10:19
In reply to holy crap manic..., posted by B2chica on November 7, 2011, at 9:49:25
Do you have a bipolar dx? It sounds like mania to me, or hypomania. Do you feel really sped up in the things you're doing? That is a sign for me. Your post sounds a little sped up, but maybe I am wrong,
There is wanting things and spending money--that is not necessarily mania. But if you feel revved up or compelled to do it, maybe.
Posted by Phillipa on November 7, 2011, at 20:03:26
In reply to holy crap manic..., posted by B2chica on November 7, 2011, at 9:49:25
B2chica so how did today go? Phillipa
Posted by b2chica on November 8, 2011, at 15:02:45
In reply to Re: holy crap manic..., posted by Raisinb on November 7, 2011, at 17:10:19
i've spent another 150.00
bought curling iron, wave iron (deal on BOGO), and some make up supplies.
and a purse and a wallet and a coin purse.
and another top and bra.yes there was that bet and no i did not get it. i too thought it was me just getting my money this way. and maybe thats so, as everything i am buying i need and will use.
but its the compulsion as Raisin put it that's bothering me.
its like i get Obsessed about it.
Yes sped up, hard to talk sometimes.
can't concentrate on ANYTHING.
gaga not even touching what i'm feeling. i want to do Everything.
and i don't feel a BIT guilty about any of it. (ding ding thats the key for me)but i also think that it id the anger thats driving the buying.
thing is i've Got to stop, its not like I'm never going to have to pay these bills when they come in
its sad that i've racked up a $400 bill on my kohl's card and i don't even have the card yet!
just a piece of paper says i signed up.i am better today, not NEAR the 'energy' but compulsion is still here. though not as bad. guessing its just taken zyprexa a bit longer to hit.
terrible hard to get up in the morning to exercise though. i finally made it this morning but only had time for 20min on treadmill.
ugh.
Posted by b2chica on November 8, 2011, at 15:05:31
In reply to holy crap manic..., posted by B2chica on November 7, 2011, at 9:49:25
my biggest fear, even past the money is if it IS mania, and its THIS BAD, what the hell am i gonna do when the other side hits.
depression has always been severe with me. and that was with little dysphoric highs.i'm very tense today.
b2c.
Posted by floatingbridge on November 8, 2011, at 17:21:53
In reply to The big drop, posted by b2chica on November 8, 2011, at 15:05:31
B2c
That equation may not be accurate. Yes, you will have to pay the monetary bill, but maybe that will not carry over to your mood. You might be able to pull out of this. Right now you are tense and that may be the fear and anxiety talking.
I wish you could see your doc sooner than Saturday.
Hang in there girl!
Posted by Phillipa on November 8, 2011, at 20:36:26
In reply to Re: The big drop » b2chica, posted by floatingbridge on November 8, 2011, at 17:21:53
I agree with Floatingbridge. Phillipa
Posted by Phidippus on November 8, 2011, at 21:17:51
In reply to holy crap manic..., posted by B2chica on November 7, 2011, at 9:49:25
Lot of flight of ideas. I think you're manic. Do you have anything like Seroquel?
Eric
Posted by B2chica on November 9, 2011, at 9:25:53
In reply to Re: holy crap manic... » B2chica, posted by Phidippus on November 8, 2011, at 21:17:51
takingzyprexa.
i think it finally kicked in on monday. yesterday was much better. not the best i still spent $75 but i bought a wave iron (then got curling iron free) and some hair product and lip stuff.but today i have NO urge to buy anything. course i laugh cuz what's left to buy right.
and i'm WAY to tight to buy large thing like tv or bose stereo like hubby wanted. but wow wouldnt that be a great gift for him?
almost wish i wouldnt have spent all that on me.anyway.
i think zyprexa is working now.
thanks all.b2c.
Posted by floatingbridge on November 9, 2011, at 9:57:27
In reply to Re: holy crap manic..., posted by B2chica on November 9, 2011, at 9:25:53
Good to hear, b2c. Personally, I hate that 'pushed' or 'pressured' feeling as I call the being driven thing. So I'm glad that is lessening :-)
I think it's o.k. to treat yourself; it doesn't sound like you do it often, just my two cents, though of course you are very sweet to think of your hubby albeit afterwards :-)
Hope you have a good one today!
Posted by Phillipa on November 9, 2011, at 18:49:13
In reply to Re: holy crap manic... » B2chica, posted by floatingbridge on November 9, 2011, at 9:57:27
I agree with Floatbridge and these are things much needed by you. Phillipa
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