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Posted by rjlockhart98 on September 9, 2005, at 22:44:00
I am in a crisis, mental crisis, emotional breakdown, what am going to hold on to.
People seemed to support me more, now im more just ignored becuase i am already labeled that I dont need advice.
Sometimes i think if i would just go away, this will all go away! it brings peace.
My grandmother is losing her mind, my mom is going crazy having chaos, she has rages. Collage, i want to be something. There is a shotgun in the garage, getting out of this.
Lord forgive me of my sins.
I hope this will go away.
Matt
Posted by lynn970 on September 9, 2005, at 22:51:01
In reply to doesnt death sound like relief?, posted by rjlockhart98 on September 9, 2005, at 22:44:00
Please, Please, Please dont do anything crazy.
Matt, we love you. I dont know what else to say.. Just please dont do anything stupid. This crisis will pass.
Posted by sleepygirl on September 9, 2005, at 22:51:19
In reply to doesnt death sound like relief?, posted by rjlockhart98 on September 9, 2005, at 22:44:00
Hey, get that thought out of your head, OK!!
You will have better days! They may not be today or even tomorrow, but they will come. You are not limited by your family.
-and NO! it doesn't sound like a relief!!
I think you need proper treatment though. Don't let your thoughts be clouded by your anxiety, agitation and mood right now.
Posted by wildcard on September 9, 2005, at 23:17:54
In reply to hello Matt, posted by sleepygirl on September 9, 2005, at 22:51:19
Matt, u are not alone even though it feels that way and hurts like hell right now. My mother is crazy and does a lot of the things ur mom does but that is HER issue, not urs. U can make it. I promise u that. I did. Get ur degree and get away from the hurt. Plan for tomorrow and handle each day as they come. This is not permanent but hurting urself is!! Slow down, calm down and realize that tomorrow is a new day and cld. be better than ever. Don't deprive urself of the happiness u will have. This is not forever although it may seem that way. Hang on Matt, hang on.
You are not alone-Abbey
Posted by lynn970 on September 9, 2005, at 23:23:56
In reply to MATT I UNDERSTAND, posted by wildcard on September 9, 2005, at 23:17:54
She threw me up against a wall right after I had a miscarraige because she did not want my husband to take me to eat out at a restaurant.
She told me (in the past)that if she committed suicide it would be my fault.
Not to mention the nasty names she called me while I was growing up. I used to believe her. Sometimes I have to fight hard not to believe her.
I have come to the realization that I am not responsible for my mom's happiness. That is her problem.
Hang in there Matt.
Luv ya,
Lynn
Posted by wildcard on September 9, 2005, at 23:38:22
In reply to MATT I UNDERSTAND, posted by wildcard on September 9, 2005, at 23:17:54
Posted by rainbowbrite on September 9, 2005, at 23:47:33
In reply to hello Matt, posted by sleepygirl on September 9, 2005, at 22:51:19
Matt
check your babblemail
hang in there please. and as sleepy said get that thought out of your head. everyday is a new one and things can and will change.
thinking of you
((Matt))
Posted by gardenergirl on September 10, 2005, at 0:37:01
In reply to Re: hello Matt, posted by rainbowbrite on September 9, 2005, at 23:47:33
Hi Matt,
It must feel just awful right now with all the stress you are under about your grandmother and your mom and starting college and stuff.If you are considering using that shotgun, you need to get someone to take it away from the house, somewhere you do NOT have access RIGHT NOW. Any other way you might be considering hurting yourself also needs to be taken away, so you don't have access when you are feeling the worst. This is for YOUR SAFETY.
Death does not sound like a relief to me. It sounds very very final.
I can hear that you are very unhappy, frustrated with trying to cope, and feeling alone. Please hang onto any bit of hope you can find. You've felt better before. I believe you can and will again.
Matt, if you haven't already, please go make an appt. with the counseling center at your college. They can help you. If you haven't already, also go make an appointment with the Office of Disability Services at your college. They can also help you with support and assistance in school, since you have ADD. Please take every advantage you can of available resources to help you accomplish your GOALS.
I believe you can.
gg
Posted by Declan on September 10, 2005, at 1:53:55
In reply to Matt please read ***trigger****, posted by gardenergirl on September 10, 2005, at 0:37:01
Hi Matt
I reckon death will be a huge relief for me, mainly because I won't be here. But I don't want to end my days living out someone else's violent sick fantasy, by which I refer to the culture we live in, which in your case includes stuff like that gun in the garage.
I want, at the end, to be able to say to myself that in my own terms I have lived something like an honourable life. Which means a lot of endurance and all the stuff we live with. I'm not feeling so good either, at the moment.
All the best
Declan
Posted by UgottaHaveHOPE on September 10, 2005, at 2:15:44
In reply to Re: Matt please read ***trigger****, posted by Declan on September 10, 2005, at 1:53:55
matt:
you have been posting messages of despair for a few weeks now. i am so sorry you are going through this.
i hope and pray that you seek professional help ASAP. you need someone to get you through these challenging times. it is OK to get help.
do you need assistance in seeking help? if so, please let us know. just know the others in here have been in a deeper hole than you are now, and have made it back. you can too!
Posted by willyee on September 10, 2005, at 2:58:27
In reply to doesnt death sound like relief?, posted by rjlockhart98 on September 9, 2005, at 22:44:00
> I am in a crisis, mental crisis, emotional breakdown, what am going to hold on to.
>
> People seemed to support me more, now im more just ignored becuase i am already labeled that I dont need advice.
>
> Sometimes i think if i would just go away, this will all go away! it brings peace.
>
> My grandmother is losing her mind, my mom is going crazy having chaos, she has rages. Collage, i want to be something. There is a shotgun in the garage, getting out of this.
>
> Lord forgive me of my sins.
>
> I hope this will go away.
>
> Matt
Might sound silly bro,but no one ever came back from there,so its not promised its an escape from depression.Who knows what lies there,i try to remember that myself when those thoughts sneak in and remeber death isnt an option.
I dont know if u have yet,but i think its time you confie in ur doc about these thoughts,they are becomming too extreme.
I gave my doc this impression and i think her attitude that day toward my treatment was more intense.
Let ur doc know the kind of troubly ur having and perhaps her approach toward ur treatment will be more agressive,u just never know,good luck man.
Posted by wildcard on September 10, 2005, at 6:59:15
In reply to doesnt death sound like relief?, posted by rjlockhart98 on September 9, 2005, at 22:44:00
Posted by lynn970 on September 10, 2005, at 8:48:36
In reply to Re: doesnt death sound like relief?, posted by willyee on September 10, 2005, at 2:58:27
Posted by rubenstein on September 10, 2005, at 10:17:51
In reply to doesnt death sound like relief?, posted by rjlockhart98 on September 9, 2005, at 22:44:00
> Matt I was in crisis last week and it was horrible. Please take care of yourself. Get the help you deserve. I am thinking of you
Rachel
I am in a crisis, mental crisis, emotional breakdown, what am going to hold on to.
>
> People seemed to support me more, now im more just ignored becuase i am already labeled that I dont need advice.
>
> Sometimes i think if i would just go away, this will all go away! it brings peace.
>
> My grandmother is losing her mind, my mom is going crazy having chaos, she has rages. Collage, i want to be something. There is a shotgun in the garage, getting out of this.
>
> Lord forgive me of my sins.
>
> I hope this will go away.
>
> Matt
Posted by Emily Elizabeth on September 10, 2005, at 11:13:11
In reply to doesnt death sound like relief?, posted by rjlockhart98 on September 9, 2005, at 22:44:00
Oh Matt,
One thing that always keeps me from making a permanent decision is that I think of all of the people I would hurt. I think about my family, my colleagues, even my pets. I know you don't feel supported IRL now, but what about us?!? Do you realize how much we'd (here at Babble) all hurt if you did something like that?
Of course this srategy is not going to feel like enough to keep you well long term, but it is something that can latch on to for now to get you through the hardest times.
Take care and please post soon.
EE
Posted by rjlockhart98 on September 10, 2005, at 12:36:29
In reply to Re: doesnt death sound like relief?, posted by Emily Elizabeth on September 10, 2005, at 11:13:11
Im ok right now, I had some thoughts of ..... you know.
Listen, i do know that i can get my self out of this, Circumstances in life right now are hard and i feel trapped. I already talked with myself in making something out of my life.
Im not going to do anything stupid. That time i was really just out of order. I get like this sometimes, but i do get out of it.
Thank you all for helping me.
Im wont be posting as much, but ill try becuase i;ve been going through so much. Collage.
But rerember ill always be lurking around here.
Im trying to lift back up.
Thank you all
Matt
Posted by wildcard on September 10, 2005, at 13:16:15
In reply to Re: doesnt death sound like relief?, posted by rjlockhart98 on September 10, 2005, at 12:36:29
Posted by lynn970 on September 10, 2005, at 14:56:27
In reply to Take care Matt! I'm always here ; ) (nm) » rjlockhart98, posted by wildcard on September 10, 2005, at 13:16:15
Posted by rainbowbrite on September 10, 2005, at 17:24:15
In reply to Re: doesnt death sound like relief?, posted by rjlockhart98 on September 10, 2005, at 12:36:29
Posted by denise1966 on September 12, 2005, at 12:06:57
In reply to doesnt death sound like relief?, posted by rjlockhart98 on September 9, 2005, at 22:44:00
I've often thought it would be a relief to be told I only had six months to live.
And then I take Zyprexa 10mg feel a lot better and buy myself some more time.
Denise
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