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Posted by iforgotmypassword on May 4, 2005, at 19:10:42
ive tried 10 different anti-depressants with little to no improvement in my life. i can see many ways how it's gotten worse. all my life i have slept with the light on and have been afraid of the dark, does this indicate or suggest a specific psychopathology or mode of treatment? could my lack of success with ADs be worsened by this?
i also have problems with sleep paralysis and very seldom remember dreaming. i tend to have fragmented sleep patterns and each fragment does not necessarily last very long.
Posted by Rjlockhart98 on May 4, 2005, at 19:59:38
In reply to always slept with the light on., posted by iforgotmypassword on May 4, 2005, at 19:10:42
I am terrified of the dark, especially going trying to find the bathroom light, and i hear a sound. Scream!
I think anti-psychotics, i took Respirdal 1mg samples for a while and i wasnt really afraid.
I was always i being stalked by demons, for a while i was terrized in dreams, dreams really can trauma me.
Well anyways, im typing alot faster now to not think about it because it makes me really nervous think back it.
What else did you experience?
Stay together
Matt
Posted by scribble'ntweak on May 4, 2005, at 20:30:28
In reply to always slept with the light on., posted by iforgotmypassword on May 4, 2005, at 19:10:42
> ive tried 10 different anti-depressants with little to no improvement in my life. i can see many ways how it's gotten worse. all my life i have slept with the light on and have been afraid of the dark, does this indicate or suggest a specific psychopathology or mode of treatment? could my lack of success with ADs be worsened by this?
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> i also have problems with sleep paralysis and very seldom remember dreaming. i tend to have fragmented sleep patterns and each fragment does not necessarily last very long.What are you afraid of in the dark?
Posted by iforgotmypassword on May 4, 2005, at 21:33:14
In reply to Re: always slept with the light on., posted by Rjlockhart98 on May 4, 2005, at 19:59:38
i used to worry about supernatural stuff when i was younger, but i usually am just worried that someone is hiding where i can't see them so they can kill or hurt me. i don't think i'd go so far as to call it paranoia, but it's definately a fear i have to make friends aware of. if i wake up in a room that is dark in the middle of the night i will quite often panic. it can be pretty embarassing. especially one time i started screaming in my apartment when the power went out and i started running around naked until i made it to my door and my neighbour's found me. i am also scared of things that can't hurt me though like my cat when i can't see where he is. it makes no sense.
i almost never watch television or movies (which i consider to be due to my depression) but when i do, horror movies really scare me and i have to sleep with the light on with someone else around. the movie 'the grudge' absolutely terrified me, while everyone else i knew that had seen it found it silly and cheesy (including my ex-girlfriend who had brought me to see it :\). i was scared for weeks of that lady's face and the way she would appear. i had to call friends in the middle of the night and once roamed my apartment buildings hallways looking to see if anyone was up.
i think in my case it is a fear and uncertainty of the unknown that has shaped every aspect of my life (especially my ability to make decisions).
i guess i'm more wondering though, if my cowardly personality traits would suggest anything about what ADs (or other meds) would help me?
maybe risperdal *would* help me? i am also extremely amotivated and ruminate endlessly about things that deeply upset me. i actually have some that i tried to start, but by the second day i was feeling very physically weak and stopped taking it. do side effects like that go away? i have enough problems with lethargy, i don't want them to get worse. thanx!
xo
Posted by yxibow on May 5, 2005, at 1:02:18
In reply to Re: always slept with the light on., posted by iforgotmypassword on May 4, 2005, at 21:33:14
I think I've always had some trouble with sleep since early childhood. I don't know if its related to "the dark" so much as a subconscious preoccupation with death I think. The end of a day is another day gone, glass half empty I guess.
But I diverge, with regards to Risperdal, of course, there are 5 neuroleptics out there. Risperdal is fairly strong stuff; if it works, then that's great, but I would probably start further down the spectrum of potency unless you have a diagnosis of a schizophrenic spectrum disorder. But that's just from my experience, I am fairly sensitive to neuroleptics.
Hope that helps.
Posted by iforgotmypassword on May 5, 2005, at 7:58:13
In reply to Re: always slept with the light on., posted by yxibow on May 5, 2005, at 1:02:18
oh, in canada only seroquel zyprexa and risperdal. which is best for depression?
Posted by B2chica on May 5, 2005, at 11:07:44
In reply to Re: always slept with the light on., posted by yxibow on May 5, 2005, at 1:02:18
>>...unless you have a diagnosis of a schizophrenic spectrum disorder.
there's a spectrum??
Posted by yxibow on May 5, 2005, at 14:40:07
In reply to Re: always slept with the light on. » yxibow, posted by B2chica on May 5, 2005, at 11:07:44
> >>...unless you have a diagnosis of a schizophrenic spectrum disorder.
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> there's a spectrum??
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>Not being a sufferer of these related disorders I don't claim to be an expert, but I was grouping schizophrenic / psychotic disorders under a general name... similar to a list such as found at
http://my.webmd.com/hw/health_guide_atoz/aa48138.asp
Posted by yxibow on May 5, 2005, at 14:58:09
In reply to Re: always slept with the light on., posted by iforgotmypassword on May 5, 2005, at 7:58:13
> oh, in canada only seroquel zyprexa and risperdal. which is best for depression?
Its unfortunate they haven't approved the other two atypicals; sometimes Canada is "ahead" of the US, sometimes not. But back to the question, none of the above are medicines intended for primary depression. If you're referring to psychotic depression, depression with psychotic features, any of the above that can be tolerated with the least EPS (side effects) is best -- this generally, but not always follows with their potency. e.g. potency here in the US:
Risperdal >> (Geodon and Abilify) >> Zyprexa >> Seroquel roughly.
Otherwise, primary nonpsychotic depression, there exist here (US) over a dozen different medications from the 1970s to the present, so I couldn't possibly say which would be best. Its often a hit or miss thing and something best discussed with your doctor for your particular case.
I hope that helps, and best wishes.
Posted by sl on May 8, 2005, at 11:53:07
In reply to always slept with the light on., posted by iforgotmypassword on May 4, 2005, at 19:10:42
I know this is the med board, but I really think you should see a therapist--maybe someone specializing in PTSD. Cuz that's what you sound like to me. Scared of something, some unnamed thing that will find you in the dark and do something bad to you. And sure it could be paranoia, but it sounds so specific to me....
Just a thought....
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