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Posted by RjLockhart98 on March 29, 2005, at 16:04:17
ok i know that i have rambled on before about going insane, but THIS my god, I THOUGHT I WAS GOING THROUGHT FULL blown psychosis.
Ok, i was sitting, well laying across my couch, completely lethargic, i mean i thought there was liver failure or thing. But anyway, i was watching bored, documenteries on Sasquash, or big foot, boring stuff, learnign about all the frauds in the 1950's by some stupid familily wanting fame.
Well, i dont know how to put this in words, i suddently got an errieness, strange feeling, like "whap!" just like that, and i started just getting paranoid for no reason, maybe it was triggered by some of the disturbing footage.
I felt very lethargic, but i started looking around, there where mini/ semi-distortions in the wall, the pictures that where hung up, one, there is tiny waterfall with a dear getting water, but i faces started outlining throught the bushes, well not direct looks, just outlines of eyes and a face, "i see you" that was one "rermeberable" phrase, then alot of blab sh*t that was rambling on that got very disturbing.
I got up, closed my eyes and said "stop it" "this is not here" "im fine" to hinder an oncoming massive panic attack. But i stayed confused and very erriness, i read my bible ( dont laught) and prayed for peace, which seemed to help.
THat night i could not sleep, till 2:30, i was soo blitz, i was tired and lethargic, but "awake" very paranoid that my mind was going to keep "jacking" with me, and would get worse , (voices get louder, see more distortions, and frightning images in my head of random things) like the statue that appeared on the Exorcist, it kept coming, i thought i was going to get a crucifix next to my bed and read bible verses out loud! jesus, well im ok for now.
I need to talk to my doctor about this, becuase i havent really ever had something like this before....
Please post what ever you think, i want to know something.
Posted by med_empowered on March 29, 2005, at 16:08:34
In reply to OK what does this sound like...., posted by RjLockhart98 on March 29, 2005, at 16:04:17
hey! Sounds tough, but I really *do not* think you're experiencing a full-fledged "psychosis"; you are far too in touch with reality for that. Personally, I'd just try to get a hard-hitting sleeping pill for a little while. Ambien works well, but you might need something with more punch, like chloral hydrate, seroquel, phenobarbital, or mid-dose Ativan. Good luck!
Posted by RjLockhart98 on March 29, 2005, at 16:20:04
In reply to OK what does this sound like...., posted by RjLockhart98 on March 29, 2005, at 16:04:17
ok, i dont blow things off.
You know how they panic attacks lurk, and your afraid when the next one is going to hit.
Ok im thinking that about psychosis, afraid if it will hit again. This is really new, and strange i need some advice.
Sebastian, i hate to bring you in, but i know that you may know something on this, because of previous posts that you have put.
I do blow things out of preportion sometimes, its like a reaction to my nerves.
nuerosis + psychosis = horrible combination.
Should i just blow this off, thank god i am seeing my neurologist tommorow, i am going to go balistic! about what just happened. And if its going to happen agian.
My greatest fear is losing my mind, becoming a hermit, and totally losing it.
SOMEBODY shoot!
Posted by RjLockhart98 on March 29, 2005, at 16:26:13
In reply to Re: OK what does this sound like...., posted by med_empowered on March 29, 2005, at 16:08:34
seroquel for sleep may be good but i dont want get TD.
I am really afriad right now, this could just be me, i was calm when i came home but when i hit the post board, i wanted to get it all out!
Thorazine i heard actually is low potency.... more higher medications like Orap may be helpful if i really lose it. But i need to keep it together, maybe this is all in my head, a phobia.
Somebody that knows somthing, tell me your anaylsis of what you think is going on, and what i should do.
Posted by Racer on March 29, 2005, at 17:34:53
In reply to Re: OK what does this sound like...., posted by RjLockhart98 on March 29, 2005, at 16:26:13
That's not psychosis.
That sounds like anxiety, mixed with maybe something postural. Your distorted perceptions could have been caused by anything from -- don't dismiss this -- blurred vision, to that sort of "sleep twilight" you can go into if you lie on the sofa in front of the TV. (That's what I do when I get hit with depression and anxiety -- it's not a criticism. And I get a bit removed from reality, too, when I do it long enough. I tend to see it as akin to hypnosis.)
For one thing, psychosis tends to be ego-syntonic -- you're not able to say that something isn't there, that the voices are not real, because to you they ARE real. That sounds simplistic, but it's true. You knew that you were having perceptual distortions, so you weren't psychotic.
It really sounds to me that you're experiencing a tremendous and increasing problem with anxiety. Are you getting any treatment specific to that problem?
Hope that helps.
Posted by Phillipa on March 29, 2005, at 17:42:55
In reply to OK what does this sound like...., posted by RjLockhart98 on March 29, 2005, at 16:04:17
If you were out today, did you feel strange then? Or does it only happen when you try and sleep? Fondly, Phillipa
Posted by mattdds on March 30, 2005, at 5:09:32
In reply to OK what does this sound like...., posted by RjLockhart98 on March 29, 2005, at 16:04:17
Like others have mentioned, people who are psychotic believe the delusions they are having are real.
When I was having very severe anxiety, I used to worry about going insane all the time. But it never happened.
The fact that you are *worried* about going insane is actually a good sign! It means you aren't buying into the "hallucinations" you were having (which I think can be explained by extreme anxiety).
I think you have a lot of anxiety and fear. In particular, you seem to have a specific fear of losing your mind.
M
Posted by PM80 on March 30, 2005, at 7:03:37
In reply to Re: OK what does this sound like...., posted by RjLockhart98 on March 29, 2005, at 16:26:13
> seroquel for sleep may be good but i dont want get TD.
TD is pretty uncommon with Seroquel compared to other typical antipsychotics and even within the group of the new atypical antipsychotics. Also, TD is something that generally forms after taking it at high doses for a length of time (ie years). Many people on this website take it and never develop TD. It sounds like the benefit far outways the risk for you right now. I'm on it (300mg/day) and my anxiety symptoms - at least moderate in intensity - are gone as are my racing thoughts which had become kinda scary in their intensity and volume.I agree with everyone else, if you think you might be crazy you are probably not. My grandmother is a schizophrenic and she does not know that she is crazy when she does very bazaar and sometimes vindictive things. For example, once she pooped around the house to get back at my grandfather. Another time she wanted to take all her clothes off at the dinner table. I don't think that is you.
Posted by Justy on March 30, 2005, at 12:00:19
In reply to Re: OK what does this sound like...., posted by PM80 on March 30, 2005, at 7:03:37
Have you started a new med? That might be what's doing it. When I was going through a really bad period of anxiety I remember falling sleep on the couch and then feeling like I was awake and could not get up. Felt weird and detached from reality.
I was very nervous about starting serequel because of TD (I take a small dose at bed. I'm so glad I started it as I sleep like a log and it has helped with repetitive thoughts in the old noggin.
Posted by B2chica on March 30, 2005, at 13:15:47
In reply to Re: what is psychosis, experiences would be helpfu, posted by RjLockhart98 on March 29, 2005, at 16:20:04
i don't have many words of wisdom...but wanted to let you know this is Exactly how i was feeling the other day! frightened to even move at one point. i was Super paranoid and Very afraid! i was conviced i was losing my mind and that scared the cr@p out of me! i really thought it's just a matter of time and i will be forever lost inside myself.
-ooops, hope i didn't make things worse by saying all that. but i wanted to let you know you're not alone. though your symptoms took a different course.
someone mentioned that you sound too in touch with reality to be in complete psychosis...i must agree. usually if you question your sanity you are sane. but that doens't make things any easier.my biggest fear is others thinking i've lost my mind and there still be a little inside me that knows it's not all true and no way to communicate it nor anyone to believe it.
you are OK. things will get better.
Be sure to communicate your concerns to your pdoc...Very important! 1)communication with your doc is essential
2)telling someone will help you to feel more in control of things and help ease anxiety.take care
b2c.
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