Posted by RjLockhart98 on March 29, 2005, at 16:04:17
ok i know that i have rambled on before about going insane, but THIS my god, I THOUGHT I WAS GOING THROUGHT FULL blown psychosis.
Ok, i was sitting, well laying across my couch, completely lethargic, i mean i thought there was liver failure or thing. But anyway, i was watching bored, documenteries on Sasquash, or big foot, boring stuff, learnign about all the frauds in the 1950's by some stupid familily wanting fame.
Well, i dont know how to put this in words, i suddently got an errieness, strange feeling, like "whap!" just like that, and i started just getting paranoid for no reason, maybe it was triggered by some of the disturbing footage.
I felt very lethargic, but i started looking around, there where mini/ semi-distortions in the wall, the pictures that where hung up, one, there is tiny waterfall with a dear getting water, but i faces started outlining throught the bushes, well not direct looks, just outlines of eyes and a face, "i see you" that was one "rermeberable" phrase, then alot of blab sh*t that was rambling on that got very disturbing.
I got up, closed my eyes and said "stop it" "this is not here" "im fine" to hinder an oncoming massive panic attack. But i stayed confused and very erriness, i read my bible ( dont laught) and prayed for peace, which seemed to help.
THat night i could not sleep, till 2:30, i was soo blitz, i was tired and lethargic, but "awake" very paranoid that my mind was going to keep "jacking" with me, and would get worse , (voices get louder, see more distortions, and frightning images in my head of random things) like the statue that appeared on the Exorcist, it kept coming, i thought i was going to get a crucifix next to my bed and read bible verses out loud! jesus, well im ok for now.
I need to talk to my doctor about this, becuase i havent really ever had something like this before....
Please post what ever you think, i want to know something.
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thread:477296
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