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Posted by Vesper on April 9, 2000, at 0:22:51
Well, I couldn't handle working and I feel like s..
If anyone remembers...
I haven't had a chance to read any posts lately so I guess I really shouldn't be posting, but I feel unreal and un noticed and I'm just curious as to whether anyone can see this or read it.
Posted by bob on April 9, 2000, at 0:38:10
In reply to I spoke to soon. Kill me now!, posted by Vesper on April 9, 2000, at 0:22:51
See what I mean, harry? Lots of butts out here that need kicking...
(fuggedabowdit, V, inside joke from another thread and you just said you haven't been reading them)
V-man, the job you had was a high anxiety, high activity, high just-about-everything job. Jobs that extreme either fit like a glove or knock you flat, even if you're otherwise perfectly "normal". You tend to be a bit frenetic around here in Babbleland, so I had great hopes that this would work out for you. I'm sorry that it didn't.
All the same, you got through some hard times just a short while ago, you'll get through this. It starts with no more of the self-deprecating BS, okay? I'm an expert at it myself, so don't try to pass any of it off as the Truth about Vesper. Okay?
What's your next move? What's your plan?
hang tough, V,
bob
Posted by Phil on April 9, 2000, at 7:00:59
In reply to Re: I spoke to soon. Kill me now!, posted by bob on April 9, 2000, at 0:38:10
Vesper, Let it go!!!!!! My life sucks right now and for the first time in years, I'm off AD's. I do take Klonopin and Ritalin which seem to get me through.
My life is at one of those low points but for some reason that I can't explain, I feel like I'm getting stronger everyday. I am coming to accept that life ain't always wonderful or even tolerable.
As for me, I'm kinda where I used to be before AD's and I like the feeling for now.
When life is kicking my ass, I know the choices.
I can give up or whine constantly or I can count my blessings. I have recently chosen the latter.
What I 'work on' these days is getting out of my emotions and ask myself,'How can I fix this now?'
If I can't FIX it, I accept it.
It seems a lot of us depressed types are very intuitive and can be very inspirational to other folks...my opinion. Go help your best friend. Who is your best friend, Vesper?Phil
Posted by Sherry on April 9, 2000, at 10:13:51
In reply to I spoke to soon. Kill me now!, posted by Vesper on April 9, 2000, at 0:22:51
Hey Vesper,
It's good to hear from you, and I'm sorry that things didn't work out with the job. I can imagine how disappointed you must be. But it's not the end of the world, and no need to beat yourself up. You simply weren't ready yet. Just because things didn't work out this time, doesn't mean they won't the next, so hang in there. You can be rest assured though that you are not invisible, and yes, I see your post as well. If there's anything I can do to help just let me know.
Have a great day Vesper.
~Sherry> Well, I couldn't handle working and I feel like s..
> If anyone remembers...
> I haven't had a chance to read any posts lately so I guess I really shouldn't be posting, but I feel unreal and un noticed and I'm just curious as to whether anyone can see this or read it.
Posted by bob on April 9, 2000, at 13:08:25
In reply to Re: I spoke to soon. Kill me now!, posted by Sherry on April 9, 2000, at 10:13:51
It can be really hard to keep this perspective, but sometimes feeling like shit can be an improvement.
When I dropped out of Babbleland from December through the end of February, it was because I was going through one of the worst depressive episodes I have ever had. But some tiny shred of rationality kept pointing out to me that the reason I felt so bad was because I was FEELING and I was CARING for the first time in **years**. Now, if my life had been all rosy when those parts of my brain decided to start working again, I'm sure I wouldn't have needed all the sunshine I was blowing up my butt to keep me going ... but it wasn't. My girlfriend and I were breaking up, my job situation (harassment + discrimination) had gotten REALLY ugly and I didn't know where I'd be working come the next week, and Christmas just happens to be one of my family's traditional self-torture festivals.
Yep, THAT was the time my brain decided to start giving a shit about how my life was going. Perfect timing. aCk! 8*P
But, again, that tiny shred told me that whatever my mood was, my meds and talk-therapy had gotten me to the point that I cared. And once you start caring, you can start desiring change. And once you start desiring change, you can start motivating. For someone who's been a slug for years, that is **really** feckin' hard, let me tell you!
But V, you've got a ton of energy. That's probably part of the problem!, but only until you get it channelled in the right direction. You took the risk, you went after the job, it was working really well for a while, but then you lost control of it. Fine -- that's a set-back, and everyone on this board is entitled to a **little** self-flogging every once in a while. But if you're going to obsess over anything, obsess about what you were doing RIGHT while you were on that job. Identify your STRENGTHS that got you out there and LIVING, DOING. Then see how you can shore those strengths up against the ways we all like to sabotage our own best efforts.
Don't forget the screw-ups, V, but don't make them the message either. The message is that you were out there as a SUCCESS, if only for a short while, and that means you CAN do it again. Next time, it will be for a longer time.
Pick yourself up
Dust yourself off
Start all over again(Where have you gone, Captain Kangaroo?
our bulletin board turns its lonely eyes to you
woo woo woo)bob
(who else?)
Posted by Janice on April 9, 2000, at 20:36:39
In reply to I spoke to soon. Kill me now!, posted by Vesper on April 9, 2000, at 0:22:51
hi Vesper,
yes, I can read that…just like all the people above me. You sound like you are trying hard to make life work for you. Please keep trying. Thinking of you, Janice
Posted by vesper on April 9, 2000, at 21:26:39
In reply to Re: I spoke to soon. Kill me now!, posted by Janice on April 9, 2000, at 20:36:39
Thanks everyone, I feel silly but I'm kinda dissociated and all this doesn't seem real.even my hands on the keyboard seem far away. strange. I'm still trying to get some sort of tx but haven't gotten any yet.
Posted by Cass on April 10, 2000, at 1:34:24
In reply to I spoke to soon. Kill me now!, posted by Vesper on April 9, 2000, at 0:22:51
I feel unreal and un noticed and I'm just curious as to whether anyone can see this or read it.
I hate feeling that way. Your words have definitely been acknowledged, and I hope you feel more connected soon. You are as alive and worthy of attention as anyone else.
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