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Posted by SandyWeb on April 12, 2004, at 11:32:48
In reply to RE:: Sandy » SandyWeb, posted by EmmyS on April 12, 2004, at 11:28:32
Emmy,
"I am pretty sure you said you should get an Academy Award for your acting while in the hospital I thought that meant you weren't being honest about your feelings while you were there."
I meant I should get the award for not allowing them to break me. They had me on the edge many times.....and it takes a LOT to make me cry in front of someone. I will fight it to the end. So they finally found what my buttons were to make me cry.....which turns out to be my kids.
Posted by SandyWeb on April 12, 2004, at 11:36:17
In reply to RE:: Sandy - idea » SandyWeb, posted by LynneDa on April 12, 2004, at 11:30:47
Hi Lynne,
I actually had thought about that idea. This morning, before Carly and I went walking, I made a page of notes of what I wanted the pdoc to know. The only thing I'm concerned about it is that I may be telling too much, and he's going to have me admitted. Yikes!
And, yes, I don't seem to have much trouble when it comes to writing things down. But get me talking right now, and I'm from another planet!! Hee hee!
Hugs,
Sandy
Posted by SandyWeb on April 12, 2004, at 11:39:26
In reply to RE:: Sandy » SandyWeb, posted by EmmyS on April 12, 2004, at 11:28:32
Emmy,
Sorry for ranting. You just rather hit a few tender spots, and I'm not in the most stable of conditions right now. Lol!
Thanks for being concerned. I know that you're just trying to help. Why else would you post? I appreciate the concern. I'm sorry that I over-reacted. *sigh* I'll be sooo glad when this is all over.
Take care,
Sandy
Posted by EmmyS on April 12, 2004, at 11:43:16
In reply to RE:: Sandy » EmmyS, posted by SandyWeb on April 12, 2004, at 11:29:22
Sandy - WOW. The quotes I was using also included references to cutting, and hearing voices. These are some of the issues I face at the hospital where I work. Not all those quotes had to do with you. They were just examples, see?
I NEVER thought you'd harm your children. The idea of "I'd never do that do my kids" would refer to suicide, not to physically harming children.
I'm just going to butt out since I don't seem to be able to get my points across very well.
Again, Sandy I'm very sorry that we have very clearly misunderstood each others intentions here.
Emmy
Posted by SandyWeb on April 12, 2004, at 11:49:27
In reply to RE:: Sandy *trigger*, posted by EmmyS on April 12, 2004, at 11:43:16
Emmy,
It's okay. You don't have to butt out. I just over-reacted. Must be that time of month, eh?
As for the quotes you used about cutting and voices.....well, I can't remember how much I've actually posted on here, but those are two things that HAVE been part of this whole ordeal with me. So I thought you were just throwing these things back at me. Sorry. I should check to see what I've actually posted. I may have even mentioned my bra size, for all I know!! *big grin*
You don't have anything to apologize for, Emmy. Sometimes things like this happen on the internet. And I'm not the best person to expect to have a rational conversation with at this exact moment! Lol!! But thanks for trying!!! Hee hee!
Take care,
Sandy
Posted by LynneDa on April 12, 2004, at 11:53:37
In reply to RE:: Sandy - idea » LynneDa, posted by SandyWeb on April 12, 2004, at 11:36:17
Sandy -
You must be feeling somewhat better if you got your hair cut - I can remember days of going to work with yucky hair and no make-up . . . but at least I got there I guess :-). I've been on Lex for about 5 months and I still have brainAnyway - in terms of revealing all to your pdoc - why don't you pick the main 2 or 3 things YOU feel you need to work on to get stable and see what he says about that. Then go from there, according to how comfortable you are. I always try to limit my sessions to just a couple of issues - if I don't I almost get overstimulated with all the stuff she tries to tell me :-)
I'm just curious, are you not wanting to take meds anymore or just can't get the right mix (I can't remember from your earlier posts)?
Take care and keep taking those walks with Carly! Kids are what keep us going forward when times are tough, aren't they?!? My daughter's Dad absolutely would not be here anymore if not for her!
~ Lynne
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Hi Lynne,
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> I actually had thought about that idea. This morning, before Carly and I went walking, I made a page of notes of what I wanted the pdoc to know. The only thing I'm concerned about it is that I may be telling too much, and he's going to have me admitted. Yikes!
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> And, yes, I don't seem to have much trouble when it comes to writing things down. But get me talking right now, and I'm from another planet!! Hee hee!
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> Hugs,
> Sandy
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Posted by sexylexy on April 12, 2004, at 19:22:34
In reply to Re: Congratulations Sandy » SandyWeb, posted by LynneDa on April 8, 2004, at 15:21:31
Sandy,
I am so glad you went inpatient. Congrats, you sound so much better!
God Bless,
Lexy
Posted by SandyWeb on April 13, 2004, at 8:51:22
In reply to RE:: Sandy - idea » SandyWeb, posted by LynneDa on April 12, 2004, at 11:53:37
Hi Lynne,
"You must be feeling somewhat better if you got your hair cut"
Nope. It's just that I hacked my hair with a pair of scissors, and let me tell you....I'll never pass the Beauty Dresser's Exam! Lol! Anyways, I went to a professional and got it cut SHORT....now I don't have to think about it anymore.
"I'm just curious, are you not wanting to take meds anymore or just can't get the right mix (I can't remember from your earlier posts)?"
I quit the meds because, being that I was suicidal, they obviously weren't working. I just can't stand medications anymore. I don't want to see another pill in my life.
"Take care and keep taking those walks with Carly."
Hmmm....the walks seem to get me in trouble. Lol! When we took our evening walk, I decided that it would be neat to walk over the bridge that spans our harbor. I'd never done that before, only crossed in vehicles. So we took it real slow....feeling the bridge swaying, looking over into the water, watching the sun set, looking at the construction of this huge bridge, etc, etc. It took about an hour to cross to the other side, when it should only have taken about 20 minutes at a quick pace. Well, the bridge cops had to come after us, of course. They had been watching us on the cameras, and approached to find out if everything was okay. Guess they thought I was going to jump. Just would have ruined everyone's day, I suppose.
Anyways, haven't been doing well yesterday or today. I can't really say that I'm suicidal, but I did discover the joys of a razor blade yesterday. I've never used one before. Pain-free. Talk about a release from these darn emotions that are building up! And I can hardly stand to be around my kids now....I'm snappy. I don't know what the pdoc is going to say to me tomorrow, but it's only an assessment interview (haven't I had enough of those already???).
Anyways, just hanging on till tomorrow.
Toodles.
Sandy
Posted by LynneDa on April 13, 2004, at 10:10:08
In reply to Trigger » LynneDa, posted by SandyWeb on April 13, 2004, at 8:51:22
Hi Sandy -
Thanks for answering my questions. I'm sorry you're wanting to cut. You said it's pain free or did you mean it frees you from pain?!?! I understand about releasing the emotions though. I guess screaming and beating your pillow doesn't quite get it :-).Have you tried any natural stuff like 5-HTP or SamE? If you read on the alternative babble site you can learn all sorts of interesting things. Evening Primrose Oil even helps some women.
I have to almost laugh with your bridge story. If they only knew your recent history, they'd probably have been more worried. You sound like a good Mom though, to take the time to examine and sense the bridge the way you did with Carly. I also know you must be pretty intelligent in order to get into nursing school.
Sandy, you're not out of the woods yet are you sweetie? I hope your doc can help you put together a plan. Even if you aren't comfortable revealing all your feelings, etc., just stating the facts of your recent behaviors should be enough to give him the idea of where you're at.
I know that feeling of being on the edge of hysteria and so close to completely losing it. It's awful. Take it easy til tomorrow, okay? You've gotten this far, you are much stronger than you think . . . and you've got all of us pulling for you :-).
~ Lynne
Posted by SandyWeb on April 13, 2004, at 12:46:57
In reply to Re: Trigger » SandyWeb, posted by LynneDa on April 13, 2004, at 10:10:08
Lynne,
I'm not sure how it's done, but it's best if this thread were just closed down and erased. We appear to be the only two left on it anyways. I can't help you and you can't help me. People just go round and round in circles with me, adn it's not worth all the fuss. I'm not about to change anytime soon. I do not want to bring you all down, so let's just leave it where it stands. I know I've said this before (*big sigh*), but I've just had enough of it now....and obviously everyone else has too. I honestly don't blmae you. My goodness, you've all been trying for weeks now to "perk me up".....and it's just not happening. Brain doesn't want to be, I guess. So don't worry about it, and get on with your lives. There's more to be entertained and frustrated by than me.
Do you know that I still have a pretty little birthday bag sitting unopened on my kitchen table? It's full of little wrapped birthday presents for me. I don't even have any curiosity as to what is in them. My birthday was a week ago now. My daughter keeps wanting to either open them herself or for me to do so.....but I really don't want them. I don't know why I mentioned that. Just the habit of rambling, I guess.
Take care, Lynne. It's been fun. We're just not getting anywhere with this board, and I don't want to keep bringing everyone down....let alone boring you all to tears!
I've appreciated the companionship. Thanks for the board, Dr. Bob.
Best to you all,
Sandra
Posted by jlynne on April 13, 2004, at 13:15:02
In reply to Close the Thread, posted by SandyWeb on April 13, 2004, at 12:46:57
Sandy, what's this talk of closing the thread, sweetie. I'm sorry if I haven't been as attentive as I have been in the past - - these meds are just dragging me out. But I still think about you a lot.
We're not trying to "fix" you, love; we're just some people who care and want to share some things we have learned over the years . . . about ourselves, and about life. You can bounce things off us, or you can just cry on our shoulders, but we ["I"] want you to stay.
Your feelings are going to be going up and down a lot, so when you get in a bad spot just tell yourself "this, too, shall pass". You've come so far, sweetie . . . a lot of the pain is already behind you.
Besides, I can't wait to find out what kind of T you get.
((((stay))))
...jlynne
Posted by LynneDa on April 13, 2004, at 13:38:24
In reply to Close the Thread, posted by SandyWeb on April 13, 2004, at 12:46:57
Hey Sandra -
I understand what you're saying and I can respect that. Of course, you don't bring us down so that should not be part of your decision. If you get any measure of relief or comfort from posting, then it's worth it. If you need a break from it, that's okay too.This is the social board you know, so if you ever feel like rambling about anything else but yours or my mental health, feel free! I am good at rambling on about nothing in particular too!
Don't forget, I'm a healthcare recruiter so when you're feeling better, let me know if you want to brainstorm some options, okay?
Good luck and at least drop us a line now & then, especially if you have any great therapeutic breakthroughs :-).
~ LynneP.S. About the presents, of course you don't have any curiosity about them - you're depressed, you're not supposed to enjoy everyday pleasures (lol)!!! But, you should probably let your kids open the presents, for the sake of normalcy if nothing else :-)
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Lynne,
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> I'm not sure how it's done, but it's best if this thread were just closed down and erased. We appear to be the only two left on it anyways. I can't help you and you can't help me. People just go round and round in circles with me, adn it's not worth all the fuss. I'm not about to change anytime soon. I do not want to bring you all down, so let's just leave it where it stands. I know I've said this before (*big sigh*), but I've just had enough of it now....and obviously everyone else has too. I honestly don't blmae you. My goodness, you've all been trying for weeks now to "perk me up".....and it's just not happening. Brain doesn't want to be, I guess. So don't worry about it, and get on with your lives. There's more to be entertained and frustrated by than me.
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> Do you know that I still have a pretty little birthday bag sitting unopened on my kitchen table? It's full of little wrapped birthday presents for me. I don't even have any curiosity as to what is in them. My birthday was a week ago now. My daughter keeps wanting to either open them herself or for me to do so.....but I really don't want them. I don't know why I mentioned that. Just the habit of rambling, I guess.
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> Take care, Lynne. It's been fun. We're just not getting anywhere with this board, and I don't want to keep bringing everyone down....let alone boring you all to tears!
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> I've appreciated the companionship. Thanks for the board, Dr. Bob.
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> Best to you all,
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> Sandra
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Posted by SandyWeb on April 14, 2004, at 9:20:29
In reply to Re: Close the Thread » SandyWeb, posted by jlynne on April 13, 2004, at 13:15:02
I'm not going to my appointment today. I know they'd end up committing me, and I'm not going back there as a patient. I have to have my freedom. What's the worse they can do? Charge me a "missed appointment" fee?? I barely have enough to cover my other bills.
My mum keeps wanting me to email her, my sister keeps phoning or emailing me......no one will leave me alone. Switch the attention elsewhere!
They released me. They can't get me back unless I deliver myself to them. I'm not going to do that. If I want to leave, then let me leave. If I want to stay, then help me to stay. But it's my choice, and I do NOT want to lose my freedom. Democracy, right??
Ugh, I'm just a little wound tight today. I'm not going. They can't make me come in. I know I sound like a child stomping her foot, but I'm scared they'll lock the door on me!!! Just let me do it my way.
"One Last Thing" signing out! (Lol)
Sandra
Posted by LynneDa on April 14, 2004, at 9:34:59
In reply to One Last Thing, posted by SandyWeb on April 14, 2004, at 9:20:29
Hi Sandra -
I know you don't want to hear this, but GO, GO, GO!!! Please be brave and do something for yourself. Remember how at first you were mad that Dr. Bob sent the police? Well, afterwards you were grateful. Same thing here. Yes, democracy and freedom are good, but sometimes you have to give in to the need to let others care for you for a little while. We've all been there and had to do that at times, right?I'm only saying this because I care so **please** don't get offended. I wish I lived close to you cuz I'd come over, make you a nice cup of tea & we could watch a funny movie or something. Then maybe you could relax and think things through better if you were being taken care of :-).
~ Lynne
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I'm not going to my appointment today. I know they'd end up committing me, and I'm not going back there as a patient. I have to have my freedom. What's the worse they can do? Charge me a "missed appointment" fee?? I barely have enough to cover my other bills.
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> My mum keeps wanting me to email her, my sister keeps phoning or emailing me......no one will leave me alone. Switch the attention elsewhere!
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> They released me. They can't get me back unless I deliver myself to them. I'm not going to do that. If I want to leave, then let me leave. If I want to stay, then help me to stay. But it's my choice, and I do NOT want to lose my freedom. Democracy, right??
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> Ugh, I'm just a little wound tight today. I'm not going. They can't make me come in. I know I sound like a child stomping her foot, but I'm scared they'll lock the door on me!!! Just let me do it my way.
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> "One Last Thing" signing out! (Lol)
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> Sandra
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Posted by SandyWeb on April 14, 2004, at 11:14:01
In reply to Re: One Last Thing » SandyWeb, posted by LynneDa on April 14, 2004, at 9:34:59
"I know you don't want to hear this, but GO, GO, GO!!!"
No, no, no. Hee hee. Actually, the appointment is right now, and I'm still sitting on my bum at home. I feel better for having made the decision to stay home.
"...need to let others care for you for a little while"
I'd prefer not, if you don't mind. I've been "cared for" enough. I allowed hubby to care for me by strangling, smothering, hitting, throwing things at, yanking, pushing, yelling, threatening, humiliating, shooting a gun off by me in our livingroom, and by him and his buddy holding me down once and shooting me up with their lovely little recreational drug. No thank you. I don't want to be cared for. And when the "good" people want to lock me on a unit and take away my privacy in the bathroom.....I think I have to walk away from that type of caring as well.
I don't mind being there for others, but I don't like being "cared for".
Time to wash the dishes.
Sandra
Posted by LynneDa on April 14, 2004, at 11:43:51
In reply to Re: One Last Thing » LynneDa, posted by SandyWeb on April 14, 2004, at 11:14:01
Alright, alright, I give!!!! I'm crying uncle! :-) I'm glad your decision makes you feel good . . . really, I am!
You suffered hellish torture at the hands of your ex. You don't like being caged like an animal or infant in a hospital. I get it. But, I can't really believe that you're okay the way you are and that you don't want to improve your situation in some way. I am guessing you think that it's impossible. BUT on some level I think your indomitable human spirit lives on and you know it's not out of the realm of possibilities for you to get better :-). I'll just wait patiently until that part of you surfaces.
Here's the deal with me. For several years it was all I could do to keep myself going. One of the ways I realized I was getting better was that I was able to reach out to others and actually care what happens to them. I have some extra energy to spend on caring. That is a huge milestone for me. So, don't think I'm wasting my time writing to you or caring what happens to a stranger on the internet. I do care because we've all opened ourselves up to it by this anonymous vehicle here on this web site.
You say bum and mum - you must be British or Canadian or maybe Australian? Someday I'm going to travel to those places. That is another sign that I feel better - I pretty much think I believe that I'll have a future. How's that for positive thinking?!?!?
Take care, eat some lunch or dinner, depending on what time zone you're in, and know that some of us sincerely care and do believe that you can get better (cuz we have) :-)
~ Lynne
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>"I know you don't want to hear this, but GO, GO, GO!!!"
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> No, no, no. Hee hee. Actually, the appointment is right now, and I'm still sitting on my bum at home. I feel better for having made the decision to stay home.
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> "...need to let others care for you for a little while"
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> I'd prefer not, if you don't mind. I've been "cared for" enough. I allowed hubby to care for me by strangling, smothering, hitting, throwing things at, yanking, pushing, yelling, threatening, humiliating, shooting a gun off by me in our livingroom, and by him and his buddy holding me down once and shooting me up with their lovely little recreational drug. No thank you. I don't want to be cared for. And when the "good" people want to lock me on a unit and take away my privacy in the bathroom.....I think I have to walk away from that type of caring as well.
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> I don't mind being there for others, but I don't like being "cared for".
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> Time to wash the dishes.
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> Sandra
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Posted by SandyWeb on April 15, 2004, at 16:54:12
In reply to Re: One Last Thing » SandyWeb, posted by LynneDa on April 14, 2004, at 11:43:51
I'm not where I'm supposed to be.
I missed a step during my journey.
And now it's too late. This is what it is.
I can't make our lives any better.
In fact, I've taken the kids straight down with me.
What can they hope for, when I can't even send them to University now?
Nothing is going to change now.
I know this is so.
I want to disappear. I want to shut down. I do not want to THINK, to FEEL, to SENSE.....
I would love to go back and find that step I missed.....but that's not reality, is it?
I'm where I am....and I'm not going any further forward.
I've had almost a month to get around this in my head.....and there's nothing to get around.
I was given the wonderful gift of life....to look for my reason to be given this gift.....and to give back for this gift.
I've wasted half my life already........and the other half holds nothing but......well, nothing.
You only get one chance at life.....boy, talk about something major to blow, huh?
And now everyone knows that I'm NOT strong. I'm NOT doing okay with all my baggage. I'm not EVER going to be okay. I faked my way right up until I couldn't fake it anymore. Lookee, lookee. This is the real Sandra. Messed up, and now without anything to lay my sights upon. Nothing to give me a reason for having been placed in this world. I can't give back. I take and take, and I'll never be anything but a drain now. It breaks my spirit.
Foggy, rainy tonight. I think I'll go out. I'm not safe inside, I'm not safe outside. So it doesn't really matter where I go. I don't like ME. I wish ME would just disappear. Just stop. Just go away. ME has never been, nor ever will be, of service to anyone. I should have stopped the charade long ago.
Gosh, I feel awful. I was such a fool. And now I'm just an old and tired fool. There is no escape from who you are. I've been found out....I've never been strong. I just thought I could trick myself. Yeah, right.
Posted by SandyWeb on April 15, 2004, at 16:56:42
In reply to Blank, posted by SandyWeb on April 15, 2004, at 16:54:12
And I'm not looking for responses.
I don't want any responses.
Responses don't change a thing.
I'm just writing to hear myself talk.
Bye.
Posted by LynneDa on April 15, 2004, at 17:06:17
In reply to Re: Blank, posted by SandyWeb on April 15, 2004, at 16:56:42
Sandra - Can I just say . . .
I totally understand how you feel.
I've been there.
I could've written those words myself many, many times.
I've hated myself with such ferocity I'm surprised I'm still here.But, I am. And so are you. And who are we to question why. I am sure your last act has not yet been written. But, I'm glad you keep writing here.
~ Lynne
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And I'm not looking for responses.
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> I don't want any responses.
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> Responses don't change a thing.
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> I'm just writing to hear myself talk.
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> Bye.
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Posted by SandyWeb on April 15, 2004, at 18:38:50
In reply to Re: Blank » SandyWeb, posted by LynneDa on April 15, 2004, at 17:06:17
Hi Lynne,
I just got back from a 1 1/2 hour walk. Was it ever cold!! Burrzy!
Anyways, have the makings of a temp plan. Have to think it through some more. But at least it's something.
I'll let you know more later.
Sandy
Posted by fallsfall on April 15, 2004, at 19:48:04
In reply to Re: Blank » LynneDa, posted by SandyWeb on April 15, 2004, at 18:38:50
A year ago, I had a suicide plan - just looking for a date. I had been depressed for 8 years, things were getting worse, not better. I was in so much pain that I couldn't stand it. I could see no way that things would improve.
Today I walked in to my therapy session and said "I have a theory about my depression". He called it a "huge insight". My how much difference a year can make - but I had to "think outside the box" to get here.
Best of luck, Sandy.
Posted by jlynne on April 15, 2004, at 22:29:00
In reply to Re: Blank » SandyWeb, posted by fallsfall on April 15, 2004, at 19:48:04
Sandy, my love, I am so sorry . . . my computer has crashed and I haven't been able to post. I am using my work computer tonight.
My poor darling . . . I wish I could sit by your side and look into your eyes and share our friendship in person. I want to reach out to you and wrap my arms around you and share the hope I feel. It really does get better, sweetheart; I know it doesn't feel like it right now, but it will . . . I promise.
Thank you for writing, even when you are feeling so lost. You are hanging on, and I know how hard it must be for you right now. You are a dear, sweet soul, and I know that you want to get better.
I will ask God to send an angel to comfort you, and give you hope, so you be looking around for her, okay?
Sleep well, and peace be upon you tonight, Sandy.
((((Angels)))) ((((HUGS)))) ((((soft strokes))))
...jlynne
Posted by SandyWeb on April 16, 2004, at 7:58:49
In reply to Sandy, posted by jlynne on April 15, 2004, at 22:29:00
Hi jlynne,
Long time, no hear. What would we ever do without computers?? Lol!
I was going through some of my paperwork yesterday and today, and I stumbled across an 8-page suicide letter from a friend of mine. He wrote it to me back in March of 1996. I had known him since Primary, and I got back in touch with him after the kids and I left hubby.....just for friendship's sake.
So much of what he wrote makes sense to me now. He expresses thoughts and feelings that I have now. He freaked me out back then, but now I understand just what he was saying. Suicide is so universal, isn't it? And he says that I was his angel.....that just when he thought he couldn't trudge through another day, this person comes back into his life from his childhood. He says he thought I was an answer from God when he picked up the phone and it was me on the line.
Well, I was too messed up from hubby to be of much use to ANYONE at that point. I wish I could have been more of a support for him.
I can't read the rest of the letter. I tend to let everyone down.
I had a "plan" last night, after my walk in the nasty fog and drizzle. At least it gave me a little bit more time for this world. But after getting home and getting into bed, I realized that all I'm trying to do is buy some time and that nothing is going to change.....so why buy the time in the first place? I just want to S-C-R-E-A-M!
I have money coming in on Tuesday. I'm very tempted to just take it all, go to a very nice hotel, treat myself with a wonderful meal and a relaxing soak in a gorgeous tub, and then not coming back. And if I do come back....well, I would have just spent all my bill money.....so I wouldn't be able to take care of my responsibilities.....so another reason not to come back. (Hey, and I didn't know that a rental lease could be broken via a doctor's letter! That's good news for any decision).
Good luck with your computer. My system is just a modge-podge of parts that my sister put together for me. Hey, but it's a Pentium! Lol! You'd never know it by looking at the casing, though! Ha!!
And as the maracas keep shaking in my head (argh!!!!!), I wish you all the best!!!!
Hugs,
Sandy
Posted by SandyWeb on April 16, 2004, at 8:08:17
In reply to Re: Blank » SandyWeb, posted by fallsfall on April 15, 2004, at 19:48:04
Hi fallsfall,
Where do we come up with such names? I think I must be the most unimaginative emailer on this board! Lol!
I am so happy that yesterday was a turning point for you. I've been told, all through school, that I had such insight.....but it doesn't seem to be turned on anymore. Lol! Congrats for having the courage and the ENERGY to think outside the box. You've put a lot of work into yourself. Don't start second-guessing yourself now. If it feels right to you, then you know you must be on the right track. WooHoo!!!! *big smiles*
Hey, maybe I should take you to the hotel with me?? We could sit up all night ordering room service and having pillow fights!! Lol!! It's gotta be better than brooding in a bubble bath.
Take care, hun!!!!!
Sandy
Posted by SandyWeb on April 16, 2004, at 16:37:26
In reply to Sandy, posted by jlynne on April 15, 2004, at 22:29:00
And another door SLAMS in my face.
I go down to get the mail right now, and there's a letter from Community Services. Turns out that they will be holding my Welfare due to my non-response to meet with my worker to do the annual review.
Well, I didn't receive a letter stating she wanted a review. It's only held every year or year and a half, and it's no big deal. How much in your bank account (zero), any assets (zero), any income from properties (zero), etc. Sign on the dotted line, and you're set for another year.
So now I have 30 days to appeal their decision. And I'm tooooo TIRED to go through this crap.
SLAM, SLAM, SLAM. I'm telling you, someone really wants me in that grave!!!!
So now what? What the "bleep, bleep, bleepity-bleep" am I to do now?? My brain's not firing on all cylinders at the time anyways, so I don't even want to THINK about all this.
I'm too tired, and this is just too much door-slamming for me in the past month.
I just feel dead.
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