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Posted by BarbaraCat on October 25, 2003, at 0:19:37
In reply to Re: Lamictal, posted by St. John on October 24, 2003, at 23:07:54
That's a funny but horrible story about your 'consultation'. Why didn't they just hire a court reporter? One wonders how these guys ever make it out of med school. What I find curious is how many of them never had a significant mood disorder but treat the field as an intellectual and pharmacological foray. Those are the ones to run like holy hell from. Fortunately there are many very gifted ones as well, but you don't really know until later.
Here are some questions you don't have to answer if you'd prefer not. What are the symptoms of your depression? Is it cyclical with normal days or is it always there? Vegetative, agitated or a mix? Do you ever get somatic symptoms, i.e., body pain, GI problems? What happened when you took SSRIs or other ADs? Normal side effects, yes, but anything else, like exacerbation of your symptoms, or was it that they just didn't do anything. You probably have, but have you had your thyroid checked? Low thyroid was a big contributor for me.
Not trying to diagnose or offer any unsolicited advice, it's just that my own experience of 'depression' was so bizarre that I felt like a strange and hopeless case, especially when none of the tried and true's were not only not working but making me worse. I'd imagine that you've gone through this kind of despair as well. Since being on the lithium/lam combo and finding a great naturopath who is treating other hormonal imbalances I can honestly say that this is the first time I've felt sustained health and hope in over 20 years. You're on my 'good wishes' list that you find a bright spot on your horizon. It's out there - it's only molecules. - Barbara
Posted by Dalilah on October 25, 2003, at 11:16:51
In reply to Re: Lamictal » St. John, posted by BarbaraCat on October 25, 2003, at 0:19:37
Hey St. John,
After reading Barbara's post, I have to agree. I first tried lamictal alone and it didn't do a thing for me. When I had it with lithium, it made a significant difference.
I too, had the switch from being diagnosed as unipolar to bipolar - it's quite common. But either way, you could try lithium. There is no rule that you must be bipolar to take it. I know some unipolars use it.
In the end, I think that the diagnosis doesn't really matter. There are so many different types of mental illness and so many variations of each diagnosis. All we care about is getting the meds that work for us, right?
Dalilah
Posted by ginger C on October 25, 2003, at 11:23:10
In reply to Re: Lamictal, posted by Dalilah on October 25, 2003, at 11:16:51
My doctor tried me on Topamax and Tegretol before trying Lamictal and by far the Lamictal has been the better drug for me along with lithium. However I have had to take two AD's in order to keep the depression under control.
Posted by BarbaraCat on October 25, 2003, at 11:41:37
In reply to Re: Lamictal, posted by Dalilah on October 25, 2003, at 11:16:51
Hi Dalilah,
What you said about diagnosis is so true. Our dx puts our complex symptoms into a neat little box and once there it's hard to see outside the box (or the bun). Our symptoms overlap into so many camps that it's hard to know if you're ADD, BP, OCD, BPD, GAD, jeez how can you tell and so what. How we're feeling needs to be a constant exploration and re-evaluation. You gotta find what works.Glad to hear you're doing so well. I recall not too long ago you were having a rough time and had just started with lamictal or were considering taking it. I'm not sure if you were on lithium also, but you were in somewhat of a turmoil about taking the meds. It's real heartening that things have worked out for you.
One of the things that keeps getting validated and keeps me taking my meds is to see the positive effects the right meds can make in someone else. I kinda recall where I was up until 1-1/2 years ago pre lithium/lamictal. It was so bad that my brain can't remember much of it, only that I was in deep pain. I read my journals from that time and go 'oh yeah, it really was that bad'. So even if I sometimes get tempted to go au natural thinking I'm so much better now, posts like yours keep me taking my meds like a good girl. - Barbara
> Hey St. John,
>
> After reading Barbara's post, I have to agree. I first tried lamictal alone and it didn't do a thing for me. When I had it with lithium, it made a significant difference.
>
> I too, had the switch from being diagnosed as unipolar to bipolar - it's quite common. But either way, you could try lithium. There is no rule that you must be bipolar to take it. I know some unipolars use it.
>
> In the end, I think that the diagnosis doesn't really matter. There are so many different types of mental illness and so many variations of each diagnosis. All we care about is getting the meds that work for us, right?
>
> Dalilah
Posted by BarbaraCat on October 25, 2003, at 11:44:03
In reply to Re: Lamictal, posted by ginger C on October 25, 2003, at 11:23:10
Hi Ginger,
Are you BP or unipolar? Guess it doesn't matter in the end if something works. - Barbara
> My doctor tried me on Topamax and Tegretol before trying Lamictal and by far the Lamictal has been the better drug for me along with lithium. However I have had to take two AD's in order to keep the depression under control.
Posted by katia on October 25, 2003, at 13:38:16
In reply to Re: Lamictal, posted by ginger C on October 25, 2003, at 11:23:10
Ginger,
Are you uni or bipolar? If bipolar, it's ok for you to take ADs?
katia
Posted by katia on October 25, 2003, at 13:41:01
In reply to Re: Lamictal » ginger C, posted by BarbaraCat on October 25, 2003, at 11:44:03
Hi,
Oops, i didn't read Barbara's post to you before I asked the same uni/bi question.
hey Barb,
How are you?
I just got back from yosemite for three days by myself camping.
I'll tell you about it the next link over at substance.....yeah.
katia
Posted by BarbaraCat on October 25, 2003, at 14:41:16
In reply to oops! same question » BarbaraCat, posted by katia on October 25, 2003, at 13:41:01
Hi Katia!
Good to hear from you. Yosemite, ahhhhhh... many fond memories. Yeah, let's meet up in substance. Give me a jingle when you're ready. BTW, I found Fluffy here too.
Posted by St. John on October 25, 2003, at 14:58:36
In reply to Re: Lamictal » St. John, posted by BarbaraCat on October 25, 2003, at 0:19:37
Barbara, thanks for your response. The "truth" of your empathy is profound and touching. I'm glad I found this list.
In response to your questions, the most appropriate round hole my square self has been hammered into is double depression, atypical. Since I was around 11 or 12, I've had cyclic major depression in a context of persistent dysthymia. I wake up feeling the best I'll feel and then as the day wears on, I become more depressed. I have terrific trouble concentrating, my sleep disruption results in too little instead of too much sleep, I retreat within myself, and while not anhedonic, I am nevertheless hopeless. I've never been hospitalized, but my depression has helped me fail to achieve what might have been called a somewhat promising future in my profession. i can do my work, but in fits and starts, and the good things I've done have been under survival pressure. I'm isolated and while people seem to like me, I don't form very enduring relationships. I've been married twice, once just out of college when I feared I'd be alone for the rest of my life (and in midst of a 3 year interval of major depression), and then again later in a relationship that lasted for about 18 years. My life is chaotic in the extreme and I live "successively" instead of "serially." I am an addictive personality. And overall, I view myself through the lens of what Calvin Trillin called in his friend Denny an "imposter syndrome." My response to AD's, MAOI, Tricyclics, SSRIs, Anticonfulsants, and the satanic ECT is essentially nil. Most drugs I've tried, if I didn't have acute side effects, have been pushed to their limits and combinations and adjutants have been part of the regimine. 18 months ago, after a year of Effexor virtually at its toxic limit, I took myself off medications and have enjoyed the clearing of the fog, but I remain citizen of the world of utter despair. I'd rather be deeply sad than fat and foggy, but I'd really rather not be sad, so I find myself thinking about Lomictal. I'm really glad you folks are out there.
Posted by katia on October 25, 2003, at 15:17:13
In reply to Re: Lamictal, posted by St. John on October 25, 2003, at 14:58:36
Hi St. John,
Have you tried any mood stabilizers pre-Lamictal?
I didn't see that on your list. A combo of mood stabilizers and ADs may help you.
cheers.
katia
Posted by katia on October 25, 2003, at 15:18:47
In reply to Re: oops! same question » katia, posted by BarbaraCat on October 25, 2003, at 14:41:16
Hi Barb,
Here is the link.
I'm still trying to work all this out with redirecting stuff!
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/subs/20031014/msgs/273161.html
Posted by katia on October 25, 2003, at 18:54:23
In reply to Re: oops! same question » katia, posted by BarbaraCat on October 25, 2003, at 14:41:16
Hi Barb,
Just found this post from you regarding basal thermometers -** Nope. I wonder what it is. Let me know if you find out more about it. I've heard about inaccurate tests for sure. I've heard that TSH tests can be inaccurate and the best way to tell is taking the basal body temp first thing in the mornng even before you get up to pee. You shake out a mercury thermometer the night before, preferably a mercury basal one (they're getting hard to find), and stick it under the armpit (why the armpit I haven't the foggiest) for 10 minutes. If it's under 97.4 you're most likely hypothyroid. Mine was 96.4 pretty consistently just a while ago. Of course, with lithium my TSH was going through the roof. I'm hoping with the natural thyroid med I'll start evening out. There's been some controversy lately about if supplemental T3 is really needed. An endo study said this. There was a big storm of backlash on the about.thyroid.com site (a goldmine in case you haven't visited it). I dunno. I feel better on T3/T4 but it can make me jittery if I take too much at one time, so I split the it.
I bought one (a basal thermometer - an electronic one/battery operated, not mercury) and I stick it under my tongue for one minute until the beep. Is this as accurate as a mercury one under the arm? My body temp. has been low, but not like you describe. Average is 98.3. I'll keep monitoring it thru'out the month. See if the rise/fall is around my ovulation. (that's what this thermometer is for).
Did I tell you I recently read that a lot of rapid cyclers do well on hypothyroid meds? even if the tests indicate that they are not hypothyroid.katia
Posted by BarbaraCat on October 25, 2003, at 19:56:58
In reply to Re: oops! same question » BarbaraCat, posted by katia on October 25, 2003, at 15:18:47
> I'm still trying to work all this out with redirecting stuff!
>
>
**Me too. I'll follow you there in a trice.
Posted by BarbaraCat on October 25, 2003, at 21:09:27
In reply to Re: oops! same question » BarbaraCat, posted by katia on October 25, 2003, at 18:54:23
Hi Katia,
> I bought one (a basal thermometer - an electronic one/battery operated, not mercury) and I stick it under my tongue for one minute until the beep. Is this as accurate as a mercury one under the arm?**Good question - I wonder also. I bought a digital thermom recently. Is yours lavender with a cute little baby on the front? When I took my underarm temp with it it was much lower than my mouth temp so I don't know what to think. I haven't compared it with my mercury thermom yet but I've read many many times NOT to use digital but mercury thermoms. I really don't know why. Digitals are so much easier.
Aside from the digital vs. mercury question, perhaps the armpit is supposed to be a degree lower than oral, much like rectal temp is a degree higher? I think this is one of those self tests to figure out which method works best for us.
>>My body temp. has been low, but not like you describe. Average is 98.3.
**I'm not sure that my frigid 97.4 readings are accurate anymore, since I've been using the old armpit method. But maybe those armpit numbers mean something for basal tests that score on some kind of curve.
Are you taking it when you first wake up or after you've been up and about? If you're 98.3 when you first wake up - and this is before you even have that first pee or stretch - chances are you're not hypothyroid. Chances are you might be HYPERthyroid. But please don't quote me on this. As I understand it, morning temps should be no more than 97.6 until you start ambulating - a degree lower than the standard 98.6. That's why lower than 97.4 is considered hypothyroid, taking into account that normal waking should be 97.6.
Have you ever been checked for thyroid antibodies? (Hashmoto's antibodies is a test you have to plead and beg for in our typical HMO arena. Do NOT expect that it will be remotely suggested unless you ask for it.) Hashimoto's thryoiditis is an autoimmune form of thyroid disorder that's been implicated in bipolar disorder. It fluctuates up and down and mimics that good ol' rollercoaster ride we know so well. Hashitmoto's is a little blip in the normal thyroid disorder spectrum but no less frequent or severe.
>> Did I tell you I recently read that a lot of rapid cyclers do well on hypothyroid meds? even if the tests indicate that they are not hypothyroid.
**I haven't heard about it regarding rapid cyclers specifically and that's very interesting. You'd think that anything that's the least bit hyper inducing would throw rapid cyclers into a spin.
Thyroid hormone is being used as a general augmentor for pmeds with good results and the T3 form especially. But there's been alot of controversy lately about T3. Have you been to http://thyroid.about.com? If not, by all mean go there. It's mind boggling. Catcha later - Barbara
Posted by katia on October 25, 2003, at 22:23:29
In reply to Re: oops! same question » katia, posted by BarbaraCat on October 25, 2003, at 21:09:27
Normal morning temps should be a full degree lower than the normal 98.6? That's odd. and yes, my readings were before I did anything. Would hyperthyroid be accountable for the morning spaciness and cold hands/low blood pressure? It doesn't correlate.
mabye hashimoto's or may be adrenals.
what to think?.....
thanks for you input.
Katia
Posted by BarbaraCat on October 25, 2003, at 22:29:32
In reply to Re: Lamictal, posted by St. John on October 25, 2003, at 14:58:36
St. John,
If it weren't for this board, I'd be in a whole world of hurt. My pdoc is a very compassionate man, but even so he doesn't have time to prize apart the threads of the various disorders clearly enough to understand my strange symptoms. So, I've had to suggest - very diplomatically - my ideas on what I was going through and what I'd learned from my own research. He, being the dude with the presciption pad and far too many patients, was more than happy to oblidge.So, welcome to our sanity=challenged but understandint coterie here in Babbble Land. If you don't find answers in the usual pmed channdels, you might be a candidate for other less traditional avenues. This information we may be able to provide. BarabaraCat
Posted by fluffy on October 26, 2003, at 10:31:02
In reply to Re: oops! same question » katia, posted by BarbaraCat on October 25, 2003, at 14:41:16
> Hi Katia!
> Good to hear from you. Yosemite, ahhhhhh... many fond memories. Yeah, let's meet up in substance. Give me a jingle when you're ready. BTW, I found Fluffy here too.Hi you guys.
I'm having a terrible time with depression and drug trials. It makes me even more sad when the drugs make me have a bad reaction.
I've been in a major depression for 3 weeks now, and feeling pretty dim about my future. I pretty much feel like life isn't worth living. When my pdoc asks me questions re: depression, I hit all of the symptoms, and it makes me feel really helpless.
I've been through a doozy of a week or so. First, when I was showing signs of a major depression (a moderate one became major), he tried wellbutrin on me. It made me feel really anxious at first, like I'd had a cup of coffee. I liked the activation b/c I was just laying around the house, finding it difficult to move. But I soon started to feel really agitated and irritated. I started feeling agitated with my own voice, and it felt like it was rattling really loudly in my head. (!!!--what is that about?!) And I had a mini-manic episode, where I couldn't stop working on a halloween costume, cleaning the house...basically running around like a chicken with my head cut off. I felt a lot of anxiety in my stomach, and I knew it was time to call the doc next morning. Guess what? He took me off the WB, and I made an emergency appt.
The team of doctors I'm working with decided to load me full of Trileptal (I was at 600mg, and they decided to first double my dose, and eventually triple it to 1800mg by the end of this week). I started to feel my face, throat and trunk go numb after the first day. It really alarmed me, and I called my doctor. He said to go back down to 600mg. He's always asking me if there's something else I want to tell him, as though my side effects aren't real, and I just want to get attention and kill myself.
Of course, I wouldn't mind not living right now, but when I call my doc about SIDE EFFECTS, I'm alarmed about SIDE EFFECTS.I still feel numb, and I have a twitching nervousness in my legs and stomach.
I'm so tired of this!! My other options right now are depakote and zyprexa. And I just don't care anymore. Just take me on the paddy wagon already.
Please give me some support right now. Any advice is needed. When I started to feel desperate, I went to my parents, and my dad started to preach at me about how other people are "really" dying, and I need to pull myself up by my bootstraps, pray more and go to church. I'm really, really sad and frustrated.
I hope you guys are feeling well--I wouldn't wish this on anyone.
lovins,
Katy
Posted by katia on October 26, 2003, at 13:40:50
In reply to Barb-cat, Katia--I need help!, posted by fluffy on October 26, 2003, at 10:31:02
Dearest Katy,
I'm so sorry to hear about you severe depression. Are you able to work like this?
One thought - why didn't the doctors find a middle ground, like try titrating up slower on the Trileptal instead of all (1800mg) or nothing (back to 600mg)?> I'm so tired of this!! My other options right now are depakote and zyprexa. And I just don't care anymore. Just take me on the paddy wagon already.
* I know. It's so disheartening and exhausting, you poor thing. But I've seen a lot of strength in you that I don't think you're ready for the paddy wagon just yet! Depakote could work. Maybe talk about with your doc. Maybe even adding Dep. to the mix could help - or replace Tril. I'm really not an expert, these are just my thoughts.
Zyprexa is an anti-psychotic right? Maybe you need something more activating (in a healthy way?) Are you sleeping? If not, maybe Zyprexa could help or even Depakote. Are you lethargic now since stopping the Wellbutrin? Are you able to increase the Lamictal? that's an idea.
What other support do you have now? Friends? I remember you broke up with your boyfriend. I wonder if that triggered this new eposide. Not to say it wasn't a good decision (it probably was!), aside from that just any change at all for us sensitive creatures can trigger our moods to go out of whack.
I know drinking is such a good saviour at times, but it's probably best to avoid that now as it can spiral you down further (if you are drinking). Are you in therapy? My therapist has been great at just being there for me over the course of the past year while I've been dealing with ups and downs of mood and the hellish trials of all these meds.I'm sorry to hear that your parents aren't more supportive dear Katy. That hurts. A book maybe to get them is "When Someone You Love Is Depressed" It's an educational and supportive book for those on the other side of the depressed person that hopefully will enduce empathy and support. Maybe they just need a little bit of education from the outside, not necessarily from you as that sometimes hits too close to home.
That sort of "unempathy" and "advice" urks me to no end. It fuels such a fire in me that I end up surviving just on that fuel alone. It fuels the stubborn warrior in me.
There are people who understand and you're in a lot of darkness now, but it will pass and you will see again, I promise! Journal, take baths, cry cry and cry, paint, walk in the woods, near a beach, take good care of yourself and don't do more than you have to, even if that means calling in sick. Just ride this out and it will pass.
I'm here thinking about you.
Hugs,
Katia
Posted by fluffy on October 26, 2003, at 17:33:16
In reply to Re: Barb-cat, Katia--I need help! » fluffy, posted by katia on October 26, 2003, at 13:40:50
> Dearest Katy,
> I'm so sorry to hear about you severe depression. Are you able to work like this?
> One thought - why didn't the doctors find a middle ground, like try titrating up slower on the Trileptal instead of all (1800mg) or nothing (back to 600mg)?***Thanks Katia--It's nice to "hear your voice". I'm really having trouble working right now. I can't eat, can't move very well, and the only thoughts I have are negative. I can't bear other people's company...they seem all sped up and chirpy, and I'm just a blur. My job involves lots of contact with people. And my teaching job...dear god, I don't know how I get through the material and get to class. It's all I can bear to just get out of bed.
>> * I know. It's so disheartening and exhausting, you poor thing. But I've seen a lot of strength in you that I don't think you're ready for the paddy wagon just yet! Depakote could work. Maybe talk about with your doc. Maybe even adding Dep. to the mix could help - or replace Tril. I'm really not an expert, these are just my thoughts.
> Zyprexa is an anti-psychotic right? Maybe you need something more activating (in a healthy way?) Are you sleeping? If not, maybe Zyprexa could help or even Depakote. Are you lethargic now since stopping the Wellbutrin? Are you able to increase the Lamictal? that's an idea.***Zyprexa is an atypical anti-psychotic, known to have mood stabilizing properties, including anti-manic and anti-depressant qualities. There have been lots of studies supporting it's use as a mood stabilizer, and it is becoming a good mix for BP depression to combine it with Prozac w/o switching people into mania. It's probably my next try.
I think about Depakote as well. But who knows! My doctor says that there have been numerous studies supporting Lamictal lacks any efficacy past 200mg. Whatever.
> What other support do you have now? Friends? I remember you broke up with your boyfriend. I wonder if that triggered this new eposide. Not to say it wasn't a good decision (it probably was!), aside from that just any change at all for us sensitive creatures can trigger our moods to go out of whack.
***It's possible that my break up feuled this whole thing. I know it was probably a good decision, but the loneliness is really disconcerting. And he was a life line of sorts for me. I broke down and called him the other day, esp. since my parents aren't being supportive. I don't really have many other supports right now except for a friend who is also bipolar, and she's worth her weight in gold.
Are you in therapy? My therapist has been great at just being there for me over the course of the past year while I've been dealing with ups and downs of mood and the hellish trials of all these meds.
***I'm in therapy right now. I like my psychologist, and he helps with the family/relationship stuff. But I'm going to try a new form of therapy at the mood disorders clinic that's free. It involves knowing your triggers and general understanding of the illness, yadda, yadda.
> I'm sorry to hear that your parents aren't more supportive dear Katy. That hurts. hits too close to home.
***I'm working on them, and mostly working on me. I tried to get them to read my bipolar survival guide, but my dad was then only one who read any of it, and he still pulled that shit!
Thanks so much Katia--You sound better--I'm so glad!
Katy
Posted by ginger C on October 27, 2003, at 11:02:54
In reply to Barb-cat, Katia--I need help!, posted by fluffy on October 26, 2003, at 10:31:02
Just keep in mind that mental illnesses are biological in nature and that you are not responsible for feeling like you do. You can't just pull yourself up because if you could you already would have no one likes feeling this way. I think yor dad may need some information on mental illness in order to help you get through this. There is an organization called NAMI National Alliance for the Mentally Ill. This organization offers a free course for family members who have an ill relative. The course is called family -to-family and it is offered free of charge. If you will go to www.nami.org they will help you find a chapter near you. In the meantime hang in there and don"t be so hard on yourself. I'll be thinking about you.
Posted by ginger C on October 27, 2003, at 11:21:14
In reply to Re: Lamictal » ginger C, posted by katia on October 25, 2003, at 13:38:16
Katia! I am Bi-Polar I
Posted by St. John on October 27, 2003, at 12:37:04
In reply to Lamictal side effects, posted by seamus o'noolan on June 30, 2003, at 17:37:40
Here's a question that has relevance, I guess. I hope by departing from the current tangent, I'm not being too self-centered.
I'm in the midst of some sadness now that is not related to depression. I'm able to "feel" the sadness in the best and most meaningful way, and it is not pulling me into the despair that I have with an episode of major depression. Moreover, it's unrelated to the hopelessness that is part of my normal state of mind. It's good to feel the sadness, at least in part because it's congruent with the source of the sadness and it would be inauthentic not to feel it. However, in the past while on AD's I couldn't feel much of anything, including sadness. Is there any opinion out there about Lamictal and proportional emotions? I'd love to hear about this.
Posted by BarbaraCat on October 27, 2003, at 18:34:20
In reply to Barb-cat, Katia--I need help!, posted by fluffy on October 26, 2003, at 10:31:02
Oh, dear Katy! Sorry I haven't gotten back to you until now - been away for a few days. Zyprexa might be the thing to get you through such a bad spell like this. Sounds like you're at your wit's end, and things can seem so hard when you're that down and scared and the brain circuitry is blown. Ditto Katia's advice to cry and cry and cry. You have to breathe and breathe as well since we all know how holding the breath when we're scared mobilizes anxiety to get away from that tiger.
Whenever I feel a good cry coming on I grab 3 fluffy bathtowels, go into the bathroom, somehow remember how to turn on the faucets and get into a hot bath with some aromatherapy oil. I cry into the fluffy towel to muffle the sound - it's nice to mop up with and a towel is so comforting anyway. Between the tears and the tub water you usually need 2 and then one to dry off. When a good wail is coming I turn on the faucets so no one can hear me sobbing into my towel.
It's a lovely place to have a cry, everything's so wet and primal. You can do the same thing in the shower too, not so relaxing but still wet and steamy. Somehow beats curling up into fetal position on the bed and sobbing into a pillow.
Afterwards a nice cup of chamomile tea and to bed with my journal. After journaling maybe I'll read a good trashy novel about someone who is miserable -the last thing I need is perky. Good to get some ice cubes and rub your tear-swollen face and eyes with them. All those people who annoy you can just fade away. For the most part they really are annoying so it's not just you. Pretty soon, your nerves will be soothed and you'll be clearer on the next step. Amazing what comes up once we start to cry and cry. It feels like a big sign of relief that it's out and not still inside.
Something to consider very carefully: might you be having a bad reaction to your meds? Maybe what you think is going on is something else - I have no advice or suggestions but perhaps piling such high doses on you and you're not feeling any better is saying something.
Dear Katy, things will get better, you just hang in there and get out a nice Fluffy-like crying towel. I'll sing you a lullaby tonight and wish you a restful sleep and sweet dreams. Love, Barbara
Posted by fluffy on October 28, 2003, at 9:02:07
In reply to Re: Barb-cat, Katia--I need help! » fluffy, posted by BarbaraCat on October 27, 2003, at 18:34:20
Hi Barb-cat, Katia, Ginger C--
Thanks for all of your posts. Lord knows I needed them. All of the Trileptal that was piled on me seems to have washed out of my system. The crying spells have stopped (for now). I'm not feeling like a million bucks, but I don't feel like I want to give up anymore. I start feeling like no-one or nothing will help me get un-depressed (no med, no person, no technique), and I get very fatalistic and start catastrophizing, which I guess is a "symptom" of depression. I just don't want to be stuck for another 5 months like I was last year. But maybe this one won't last long....Besides, since i've acknowledged my illness, I need to be prepared to be depressed again, and not feel like it's a failure on my part.
Anyway--Barb-cat I LOVE your crying advice. It's advice that could only come from a crying veteran!! I love the idea of making crying a sensual experience!
I have been blaming myself for all of this. I'm in the process of "labling" my depresssion and just taking it easy everyday, rather than beating myself up.
I'll find you in another thread and hi-jack again. (maybe i should just have a seperate PB e-mail account)...
thanks so much--many hugs to you,
Katy
Posted by katia on October 28, 2003, at 13:18:10
In reply to St. John--Sorry to hi-jack...Thanks you guys, posted by fluffy on October 28, 2003, at 9:02:07
Hi Fluffy,
glad you're feeling better (at least a little bit). You know, I've felt some of the most out of control crazy ON meds than off them. when the dose isn't right or if it's the wrong med, it can worsen everything. And it even worsens the hopelessness of it all BECAUSE you're on medication!!! and then we think, well nothing will work now, I'm a hopeless case. Seriously, i've had the worst "bottom dropping out losing it" feeling falling to my knees clutching my stomach and howling like I'm losing my mind - ON meds.
If the Tri. doesn't work at higher doses and it's not working now, maybe you should talk to your docotor and try Depakote or try upping the Lamictal.
keep in touch.
Katia
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